MY FRIDAY: MY LEAP LEAP YEAR DAY: CHORE DAY!!!

ouhk..

ferst, today no school..
BUT
today is such a chore..

woke up in the morning to 7 messages..
a lot of werk stuff..
since tmr is the verification..

ok.. then ahlau called.. we're gg out later..
meetin him after prayers.
then told hym of the errands i have to run today..

2pm: gotta meet mgr B___ to do verification..
(he made me waet till 4pm!!!)

ayul was angry tho..
coz had to waet.. damned tt mgr..
but he did the verification to verify for tmr's big verification..

then met ayul at BB mrt,
went to Jrg point
in the train met anip n some CGK/L guy..
forgot his name..
ok..

then we booked movies, i made a membership card etc..
then we went to my crib.
we had fun watchin animal planet, soccer, youtube vids abt monkeys..

then gt msg frm ahyang.. wanted go fishing w papa..
but i cnt!.
tmr i gt verification uh!! damed,..

hmm im joining silat macan pasrah.. on mondaes..
btw,on tues gt silat trg at ite tamp.
thurs trg at persisi.. tiring uh..
hahaha.. but fun..
coz I WANNA LOOOSE WEIgHT!!!

at least 10kg, have basic muscles.. and get into pesB..
coz i wanna sign on police..
hmm thinking..

the dae of thursdae..

hmm my thursday..
got notes form muthiah,
then tt ____ nak prangai.. nk step maner nye sedih coz he nvr get his notes.
da kasi bkann nk thank me.. asshole..

hmm tday ayul did his stupidity-ness that never fails to amuse me. kept me laughing at his slapstick jokes and disturbances of his prime subject A-Y-L-A.. "ayyy-larrr" ahhaha..
then he sleep, eat, fart evrything humanly possible in the "fishtank" the class room tt luks like a fishtank..

hmm morng got a msg from yangyang..
gg came till the weekends.. hmm kinda mish hym..
but at least he bid farewell.. mish u bro!

hmm.. then news saes abt the JI leader tt escape got me worried abt hym.. haix..
hmm.. i hope the government catches tt pig..
singapore's security is dependin on the SPF..

ok.. went home lazed ard and slept till 9am..
tmr no schl..
study lor..

im stress..
exam's round the corner...
hmm wish me luck...

hmm i love my besties.. CK n zhi ti n ai ying v v adorable tday.. kekeke..

kewl nite..

ok.. today at school nuttin impt..

onli zhi ti was adorable with her hood n stuff..

then CK too.. in the bus, abt the seat allocation and blush when i praise hym.. wakaka..

ahyang more adorable: called me. "just wanna say hi in the morning k?.. bye.." aww im soooo touched.
so sweet of hym..
realli treasured hym as a fren.

but the nyte spent with along w latte n apple crumble.. tok3 all nite till midnite..

saw asilah n her family.. chit chat w her jap.. aww miz her.. so much.. hee..

super lethargic dae..

short forms...

woke up by ahyang, disturbed me from sleep. hand is still swollen from the door slamm..
ahyang wanna go werk, wanna eat, wanna bath so i tman all the wae.. till he left. then couldnt sleep called aiying.. tok3.. then went bathe. QQ was waeting for me at BB mcd..
went out coz ma dad at home. ahyang saed dun go schl coz nuttin on.. but i cant stand my dad.

went schl. total attndance 6. damned it. no teacher.
so they played soccer n i went hum.
call CK, tk jadi jmper lor.. no mood.
then cancell meeting w along oso.. no mood.

wennt to esplanade interview, rejected coz im a student. the nid fulltyme. jobsDB error. asshole!
then went to chinatown. met makteh makbusu n mum, ate at S-11. no halal store so we ate roti onli. then ate fruits n i left for home. dun wanna be at court.

got hum raff at hum.. im bored. along called then chit chat. then meet ahyang. we went jogging lor.. ahyang wanted to train me. half wae i lost my mood to do anything as the lethargicness came. spoilt evrything.. nw ahyang boring liao w me i think. keke.. hmm.. ahyang gg to werk nw. sleep at werk fr mrng shift. damn.. gnna miz ahyang. coz i tot sleepover wadd..

Ck smsed me wheter gg schl. CK gt angry when i told my story w _____. thkx CK.

im nw doing my pre-planning for march.. damn it.. im such a organising person.

for my party, im making it super private.

onli certain ppl is invited. NOT invited incld: own sister, dad n famili, my cousins.. all xcept along n anak2 mak busu. so yg tk invited lu org rilek sua! dun bother cmg, i know u wouldnt wanna come, i dun realli care.. nowadaes i deem u guys as nobodys i know.. thanks.

SUN N MON

Sun:
woke up 7am. went to mamad's then we headed out cycling to werk on our cardio. we rode a total of +- 60 cliques.. to n fro. 4hr 30min cardio. from jrg west stadium to vivo city by bike. pit stops at west coast park and labrador park.

then head to raffles to meet eyla, ayin n ayu.. we gg hab HOT yoga. 37'C room. we do yoga. omg sweat like a pig. then the TRUE YOGA ppl tried to sell their yoga but we managed to outsmart them.. then i had to go hum.

MON:
two sided.

Sunny-side: The Chinatown Lucky Plaza MCD found my wallet. cntacted amelia my boss..
went there w razi n collected it. spent on watch n jade pendant. bought i 4 ahyang i 1 4 me.
then we lepak at gekpoh.

Down-side:
I was involved in a fight wif T (the guy i assumed was nice), Y, her mum ML, my sis, her bf W, ___, her BFF.. fight as in matrep fight i even called ahyang down be backup. called the cops. _____ threatened me. i retaliated. not hapi tron bbl. fight.. nie uh jantan berpuki. ckap aku bapok la kental la. konek kecot la. potong la.. saper nmpk kung pow lari sial? kental uh lu org.. nampak kung pow lari pe? aper jadik dgn konek korang yg setegang jambatan san fransisco? tros lepeh pe? KENTAL Uh!
ckop tyme kung pow dpt keje muker panick. nk step maner nye kool ajer. isap rokok watevr.. da tkot!! cukop tyme tk bwk ic! bodoh pe?! kan kenek tahan! wakenabeb.. ____ balek kenek blasah abes2.. aper lagik.. sedap kenek rembat dgn aku.. dgn slipar smuer.. sedap kan! rasa kamu!
hmm kes yg laen yg namer terbabit. siap la.. tk dpt ku nk revenge care lawan.. care yg tkbaek la ku jalankan. lumpouh la kaki mu, rosak la hidupmu, kemalangan la jadi isi hati mu.. ko nk tngok aku sial kan?! da lamer aku pendam kan kesiallan aku, dgn senang nye ko menggoda? JGN SESEKALIPON MENGGACAU AKU! HARI NI maybe HARI KO.. MLM ITU LA.. MALAM KU SIAP KORANG.. GAMBAR SMUER ADER PAT AKU KN.. u dont know wad i can do..

my advice: stay alert..

my fun n great saturday

hmm a long break i needed was today!
ok.. had fun ytd, after makteh urut Yul, she urut me.. coz i saed my neck hurts.. aparently it was the whole posterior of my body.. i was blood red all over.. the "ibu" of the angins were in my head.. somewhat near the temples.. makteh urut, it hurt like hell!!
*agaknyer dlm hati ayul, padan muker ko setan.. kacau aku lagik biler aku urut! amik nie setannnn!!!* wakakaka..

hmm ok la went home via cab coz mak kiter terluper bring keys..
hahaha.. he sent me to interchange..

SATURDAY.
hmm scary day..yet fun...

point forms yeah:

1. WORK.
today verification of my STAR status..
1hr 30mins of being stared at.. NOT GOOD!!
i was sweating all over.. my balloon crafting was rusty..
speaking to customers not good..
had to know 20 cust by name!!!
didnt do it..
pcap(post class action plan)
forgot to do the 2nd page.. so verification wasnt complete.. damned!!
nvm nxt week have.. saturday 9am oso.. 1 march..

*do u knoe my ex boss david placed a bet on my failure to be a STAR! he;s waeting when i will quit n then rub it in aunty kam's face.. coz she die2 made it possible to make me a STAR.. i hope i wont dissapoint her.. this tyme.. no no no i wont quit MCd juz as yt.. rub it in david face ferst then quit... wakakak!

2. Family.

a: went to busu hse, talked here n there
time: 3pm-5pm..

b: when to makteh's hse.
tok w fahmi, he gg to soccer. then nisa cut my hair like her bf.. ok la.. look nice on me..
time:5pm-7pm

c: met along at cck mcd cafe.. had latte and apple crumble.. *when im shortage of wang!!
chit chat.. dissapointed tt yunz n nad prioritise their bf then their cuzzins.. bitches! haha.. lie their way thru..
time:8pm-11pm

3. bestie..
eyla text me.. tmr 330pm yoga. bring barang mandi.. meet at raffles.. im soooo excited..

mamad text me.. tmr 9am-1pm.. cardio n cycling.. report at his house.. super excited..

hmm whole dae spent tyme w bestie.. aww.. i love my bestfrens...

at nyte msn ayul skejap jer.. pak belowat nk tdo.. wakaka..

hmmm when i reached bnly mrt, i decided to walk home.
me n mamad;s fav pastyme is walking home.. so i text hym and waeted. he's from senz w yana family..
he luked super exhausted n tired n pissed.. as a bestie i can tell so he nid not lie to me.. he's definitly fuming but i kool hym down and he had to give birth.. haha.. actualli both of us!! but his is in serious labour.. his gas bag broke 4 times.. hahaha.. mine stayed.. then after giving birth head to mcds and had coke n oreo.. caused my dear to have sempot plakk.. my my.. so fragile uh.. hmm really have to take care of hym la.. so careless.. then he tman me to gekpoh n prime then met fatin my a pri schmate.. OMG she's HOT! okok xchange numbers then went to bustop and scared an old lady from her seat.. hahah the evil FIYAN N RIYAN!! kekeke..
the sent hym home and i quickly update blog so i wont forget.. look out for tmr programme..

I AM HAPPY!! SMILE3!!

19th Feb n 20th Feb... my kewl thurs n fri..

hmm my thurs dae..
woke up at 7am.. relli.. earli kan.
met eyla..
and read the NEW PAPER..
can believe the news,
old apek watched as 2 teens died when he could had done sumthin.. so callous!!
then massuse, org da urut batin, (incld massagin male genitals) pas tu mintak bkan2 like masage gf while he watch! wtf.. singaporeans so chi ko peh ke?!

_____________________________*menghilang kan passion plakk___________

i wanted to learn javanese masage, shiatsu smuer then this happens..
it's partially my passion.. i like to massage ppl, helping them..
i am by nature a massuese.. but no trg, my besties sae my hands are very nice for massaging. kewl huh.. guess it runs in the family..
together w the magick but im nt taking up the magick.. haha..
And basically only my bestfrens get free services, the general public, lu rilek sua.. pikir aper FOC svc pe.. bayar k..
saper yg kenek massage on daily basis tu naseb uh drg bestie aku.. wakakaka..

ok.. hmm class was cancelled..
wtf twice in a row!
soooo pissed off.. IM USING ADULT TAMBANG SIA!! TO N FRO!!

hmm ok la,
gt a call frm mamad, he wanted to meet at my crib aft werk..
he came.. after two daes of absence and non-msg, apparently the fault was the phone!! under "X screen msg" is, of which it blocks msgs, **there's such a list uh**
me terpicit somehow and mamad;s name happened to be in it.....
A BIG....NO WONDER LA,
in tt section was all the msgs tt he sent. saved in there.. bdh nyer phone!
the songs also came back..
got tune alry.. kewl!

ok.. anw.
met him, we ate,
played lappy,
did mission impossible.
then we ate again.. haha..
play lappy, then we had a sleepover..
OMG.. i am on person whu will die wout seeing my BFFs.. apparently i miss hym, 2 daes tk nmpk..
speaking of which.. i miz berox plak..
hmm..

ok we woke up morning, i had to go schl..
sent mamad home and then went to schl..
it's fridae.
hmm..
went la, siap all, msg eyla, hyrul paitao again..
sleep like babi!
then we did abs endurance test.. crunches in 1 mins..
i fail la.. with perot like mine, what u expect..
18 jer.. in 1 min..
pathetic sia..

after tt, class was dismissed.
1 hr class je.
better la then paitao..

then went to tok to haikal..
apparently, we're going thru the same thing.
i tot he's just an aHole know.. apparently he;'s quite sensitve,
i really shuldnt judge ppl huh..
glad tt he made me his close frens..
i almost wept when he told me his family life. it affected me..
same thing..
i deriously held it in..
tried to be a strong listener.
wad can u sae.. i am sentitive.. i cry when hurt, i bleed when cut.. i am human..

hmm then yangyang came to schl and picked me up, by bike. blue KR..followed ayu to her crib.. she wanted to give a helmet.. almost got into accident. he was too fast and scratched the bike on the curb almost falling off the bike. both of us.. omg! serious minor life's flash there..
hmm i was almost traumatised la.. ok.. see i have a fear or roads. almost got into a pile up..
realli.. got away wif my life unharmed..amazing huh.. yeah.. im still bersyukr..
alhamdulilah....

hmm ok so we went makan at NTi then he sent me home.. aww.. so sweet rite? biler nk chee keong nyer turn amik mie from schl evrydae.. haha.. i will help pay for the minyak la.. he wanted a black gilera.. haha.. like real like tt.. he also scaredy2 cat..like me.. but can maintain cool la. haha.

hmm now im at home.. got a call from esplanade.. i got a job there. Merchandise Sales.. Interview this tuesdae. 230pm lvl 3 at the esplanade bside the library.. kewl huh... insyallah tk clash dgn schl and pay is gud la.. den dpt keje STAR pon sedap sikit.. earn a lot.. can help out ibu.. hmm if possible nk find haikal job oso.. mayb ayeen,., wif ayin ke.. wif qahar ke.. kalo dpt w eyla lagik bes.. or w yangyang...
hmm...

*CANT WAET FOR SUNDAY, EYLA TREAT ME TO HOT YOGA... JGN P TAO..
wakaka.. lub u gerl! smile!!

A total waste of tyme...

OK woke up at ard 7am.. alarm went off..
apparently my phone made sounds as and when it wants..
ok after the 7am ring, i re-sleep as i was lethargic..
spent the nite watchin Cruel Intentions 2: Manchester ???(forgot)..
it's a very mean show, playing and making fool of others..
bende2 yg berdosa la.. hmm apparently i love shows like tt..

eg: Cruel Intentions Series.. the ferst was my ultimate fav.. Mean Girls.. shows where 'Bitchy' is the fuel of the show..

---side track a while-----
OMG.. i was pretty bored ytd..
ate a lot..
damned.. im gettin fatter.. at this rate of me eating, i can produce enough mayonaise for the entire of Singapore, if i gt a lipo.
haha
nvr will do tt.. dosa u..
tk bersyukur to namer nye..
my biggest role model would be the fictional character Ana from the hit series Hikmah..
her patience is so strong tt she makes me wanna strangle her because she nvr take up tindakan to attack her enemies..
hidop yg penoh pancaroba and yet she lives it and accepts it arms wide open..

*an inspiration here.. one day insyallah, i wanna be as patience as her and as pious as her.*
----back to today------

Ok the dae was hot!
damn it weather's a killer..
but whole dae ive been craving for teh..
teh gajah ke teh halia ke.. teh..
but keadaan tk mengizin kan so i just walked it off la..

Hmm woke up at 830am! class was at 9am..
damn it.. im late.. again.. im starting to be angry at myself as my discipline level went down!
i mean.. im on diet. But ate a lot.
i wanted to lose weight. but nvr went excercise..
test cmg n going. i hardly study.
class attendance.. from an earli bird to the latest one around..
my clothes are torn here and there and cash wasnt enough to accomodate me buying new ones..
kinda pissing my off tt cash is nowadays, short!
hmm trying top get a job. Mcdonald's is not an option la.. i give up on the Golden Arches..
im filled up soooo many applications yet to no avail.

hmm im still waiting..
hmm Tuhan sedang memberi me a dugaan.. i'll take it in..
im short-cashed. practically in a broken family.
almost finished nursing my broken hart from the death.
so what's more to lose?
im alry at the losing end and god wants to see how far i can go.
hmm.. ok la.. dugaan pe.. take it in ajer la..
im just human after all mistakes is part of a human's life..

---side track----again-----
the phrase "Syaitan itulah dgn nyatanya MUSUH manusia"
agreed.
wout their evilish persuasians, ( sorri bis n homos )
ppl wont act on senget sexuality preferences, ppl wont have premarital sex,
adults wont have affairs, families wouldnt break up, suicides wont happen..
kenapa syaitan nk buat nie smuer pat manusia biler manusia tk pernah buat apa-apa pt drg?
kalau la kamu btol2 pikir yg kamu diperbuat dari api, and u guys are the 'higher' divine being, kenapa prangai mcam sundal? Bodoh pe? Humans nvr asked to be bowed to, it was GOD's command. korang angry pt dier beh inflict on us.. belo pe?
i cant believe syaitans are so stupid.. pas tu claim yg drg dibuat dari api, api better than tanah.. puhleese la.. korang pnyer kebodohan ibarat taik anjing yg kering atas rumput repot la.. haha.. bodoh..

hmm anger should be inflicted on them..
the are afterall the source of anger..
they menghasut ape..
BODOH!
haha..
----end of side track-------

hmm class was cancelled..
gr8..
teacher's were at CT..
damn them..
hmm.. ok we all chilled at gym la..
buat hal sendiri.. no teachers no other class..
so we were alone.. CGC ruled..
while chatting, skali sec sch kids came.
omG!
noone knows wad to do..
standard uh arep P went to take charge and went intro hymself..
then as the numbers grew,
we all had to mcm P..
all took at least one machine weights and gave demos.
haha..
then we went home la.. nuttin to do..
tmr a lot of ppl like dun wanna come.. coz of tday and tmr's lesson..

Conducted at BB, 9am.. dont be late readers.
im trying my bes tmr..
im gnna discipline..
no food after 6pm.. sleep by 11pm
wake up 7am.. make it a routine..
im too slack.. n im gnna start excercise a bit..
kanina.. im sooo lazy.. PUSH myself uh..

***im expecting yangyang to come.. msged hym but no repli.. i hope he wont P plakk...***


____okokok__________the e person tt kept e motivated to work is actualli msning me from 11pm-1130..

eksamsi@yahoo.com says (11:10 PM):
your pcap? have you done? the paper Angel go thru with you? get to know 20 regular customer by name, name 5 ways of which you can exceed customers expectation in your store?? you forgot is it?

>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:11 PM):
actualli i wanted to do the other tyme then the mgr ask me to do station, after tt i took a break to study for exams..

>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:11 PM):
i did some the other tyme but it wasnt enough

eksamsi@yahoo.com says (11:12 PM):
have yo practise your balloon crafting?

>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:12 PM):
yup
>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:12 PM):
but still a bit, funny looking
>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:12 PM):
haha

eksamsi@yahoo.com says (11:12 PM):
ok never mind//why they ask you to do station?

>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:13 PM):
they sae they needed me on floor.. so i tot help out for a while, then it seems thruout the dae..
>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:13 PM):
even shimin asked permission to pull out also the mgr did let
>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:14 PM):
he saed he needed me on floor
>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:14 PM):
but no cust ard tho

eksamsi@yahoo.com says (11:14 PM):
if its during CNy.. I can understand but nofmal days i cannot understand

>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:14 PM):
it was b4 cny
>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:14 PM):
i culdnt werk cny coz of family kenduri
>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:15 PM):
so i stop a while for the kenduri

eksamsi@yahoo.com says (11:16 PM):
ok..never mind..this saturday you come ok i really need to verify you

>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:16 PM):
ok sure
>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:16 PM):
anw u know my new number ryte the one 82545749, dunno i updated u or not..

eksamsi@yahoo.com says (11:17 PM):
you must out what you learned in the class into practise if you really want to be a star..I hope you still like the job despite of kena station work aje

eksamsi@yahoo.com says (11:19 PM):
i have that number but u never replied my sms most of the time and i have to sms your mom instead to get thru you

>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:20 PM):
haha.. so far after the class i didnt manage to practice the stuff coz all the wae i did station but i did help out in conducting parties once in a while.. but the manager, namely Ben, even question me, chenie and shimin when they asked me to practise party n etc, even saed " are u verified for conducting parties? ....anyone also can conduct wad.." thank goodness chenie stood up for me tho

>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:20 PM):
realli?
>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:20 PM):
i havent been gettin ur msgs..

eksamsi@yahoo.com says (11:22 PM):
do not bother by what they said...keep it cool..do your job ..if you bother too much about every little things,,,you will stressed yourself and you will find that you no longer fit for the job

eksamsi@yahoo.com says (11:22 PM):
do what is right and always keep a smile...jangan lekas marah or ambil hati

>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:23 PM):
haha

eksamsi@yahoo.com says (11:23 PM):
KEEP Customer Happy and motivate yourself

>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:23 PM):
yeah.. im tryin.. haha..

eksamsi@yahoo.com says (11:23 PM):
ok..see you this SAT

>>>AN<<<<(M) " I want a "fart-revenge!!"Muahahaha!!!!"(M) says (11:23 PM):
ok sure thing

----that's all looks lke im werking this sat.. hmm no choice.. she is the one tt got me promoted and now re-inspired.. i guess im gnna heed SAYURI n her, im werking this SAt 9am, get promoted and request for a transferr.. wakakak---

some tuesday.. i was expecting happynes dae..

ouhk..
woke up for schl,
found out my phone "lost" it's voice..
the phone mamad pinjam me, is tuneless.. wtf! i dunnoe how to explain to hym.. damned it.. i told my mum. she saed. tadik pagi it made noise ( alarm went off ) but halfway thru the alarm it went off.. she saed "i tot the phone auto-off the alarm"
i was like yeah..
looked at it again.. 2 messages..
both by eyla..
i put it beside me.. i didnt hear a beep..
i was like shocked.i msg mamad.. apologising.. hmm he never repli..
ohk.. hmm maybe he bz? or ppd realli low ledi...
aru topup mad..
haha...
sejap pkai da bez..

hmm.. im saving up for impt purposes..
hmm ayuni wanted to join yoga..
i ajak lor gatal.. but she wants me n nadiah to join too..
hmm the cheapest 40 bucks.
hmm where am i suppose to find 40 bucks?
i onli have 20 for 2 weeks.. used up 2.50 ledi,.
shortage of cash..
hmm..
we did carine's leg press and cooper test.. trials.. but today i was the client..
boring..did 12 min walk la.. lazy to run uh,
ekekek..
then the test ended we ate nasi briani frm schl..
omg it was so delicious.. i loved it..
we packed our stuff and left..

*bodek moment: I help ms carine pasted rules on the glass doors.. kekeke..*

hmm we headed home and i got bored so waeted mamad to text me.. hmm suntink wrong w e reception agi ke? leceh uh starhub..
hmm
anw jus nw while sharing my fcuking life stories abt ma dad to ekin, mekk ayin n ayul, apparently evryone else got a piece of the story too.. paiseh sak..
i spoke loud la.. loud voice! i tot they were listening to music.. padahal2..
haha..

OMG speaking of ayuni she called..
haha
"can i speak to dralfarrian please? hahaha it;s ayuni la"
hmm cousin2..
hmm kinda miz her tho..
hate this love-hate relationship we have for each other..
hmm it was worth it la..
she ask me to chose ur bestfren, or ur cousin.. (tt caused the fight)
i chose my bestfren coz he wasnt lying to me..
then cold-shoulders started to be flung..
hmm watever..
anywae.. she asked about psp..
wtf..
mcm P je.. nak maen PSP..
wakaka.. aku tk reti2..

signing off..

My monday blues..

Hmm monday blues..
woke up late to ayul's msg " tido puas2.. haha.."
babi him..
haha.,..
then woke up n showered n quickly zoomed off to schl.

hmm went schl, reached ard 10am.. thk gdness i was like on tyme when the lesson started tho schl shuld start at 9am..
ok.. did some cardio demo,
did some werk here n there..
went out to eat at rex w ayul, eyla and bot..
then went bak to class to have muthiah's lesson
where he toks abt sexual harrasment to me..
coz im close w the gurls..
ok truth..
i hug ayin eyla ekin bobot miza mekk n practically all gerls..
ayul n mamad.. onli when im sad..
so he tinks im gg to rape them wtf..

lame uh!
im so like 'westernised' but ader la batas..
tho muhrim but.. my frens wadd..
showing a lil bit of luv here..
haha.. i dont go ard fcuking them aft class..
duh!
batasan! one werd!
enuff..
hmm frens...draw a line....no more than tt...
haha..

then aft schl we lpak at canteen..

went hum..
then mamad
miz koled me.. twice!
i didnt hear.. then col hym back.
instant meeting.
earli morning tdik da nampak mama.. haha..
salam her then i felt awkward.. so i juz kept quiet hee..
okok..
hmm met mamad at gek poh ville cc..
saw papa n salamn hym..
damn he miz me..
aww so sweet haha..
i miz him too..
haha..
hmm then went off picked up des at mcd,
went hum.
ate wif mamad and then he fell asleep while i tutored des n fought w ma dad..
haha..
he sleeping and we;re fighting..
wtf!
owaes find fault this time i jus walked off cant b bothered.. lagik2 mamad ader..
my protector..
hit me n he'll put it on thrice on hym.
haha..

hmm.. he got up watched malin kundang where the mum cursed his son to be batu..
freaky.. anak hansem, skali durhake.. mak lawa.. skali patot da berumor.. aper tu!
damn tv! haha
hujan plakk lari2 haha.. pat sini ader sini plak tkder..
buat kaklar ke,,
haha..
hmm he went off.. and i went to mind my own business..
haha
hmm.. k la im off!
bb! muax..

not as i planned n imagined but.. gr8 sunday!

ok..
i didnt go visit my cousins tday..
i lost my mood coz noone is msging me..
plus my sickness not helping!!!!

so i paitaoed them but next week mayb i go..
damn my haircut!
ok.. send sms to eyla n ayul..
only ayul got my msg..

mamad whole dae at home..
msg me..
didnt get it..
i could have gone to his place n had fun!

Fuck la this starhub!!
idiotic service..
camner nie... wad i wanted wasnt send..

wtevr..
hmm transferred yangyang some credits.
hope he can text me now..
haha
hmm..
really miz hanging out wif my besties..
esp him n eyla n ayul..
hmm the 3 i depend most on..

hmm berox msn me.. she has a blog..
my my..
why am i not informed earlier?!!
aha..
ok..

hmm..
whole dae at home..
wtf
IM GETTIN FATTER!!!!!!
pleasee... someone.. preferbly yangyang...
FORCE ME TO EXCERCISE hahaha..
this lazy bum nids to be PUSHED!!
tt's all folks..

hmm p.s: i asked tt someone.. which is better sex or masturbation?
wad a qn rite..
im curious..
they saed sex..
coz it;s wetter n it doesnt hurt as much..
hmm really ke?
hahaha
got my thinking..
comment me on your thoughts if u think it's not gruesome..
bb peepz.

and the winner for the most boring post ever recorded.... goes to... ME!!!

hmm.. my saturdae..
im sick.
got flu, headache and diaorrhea..
any addtional sickness to make me die skali?
ive been continuously sick since last two months.
the sickness comes and goes..

my mood plak..
depression or anger..
the only two tt's fuelling my life..
hw pathetic is tt?

hmm
got a call from mamad..
he used papa num..
he ask mie to follow hym to gym sadly, i cant
coz i was sick.
on top of tt im sick..
then i think i dissapointed hym..
and tt anna is also emo-shit.
damn it..
why all my bestie like prangai sey..
i msned kak sayuri the whole morning b4 headin to mak busu hse..
arif n azrul bdae..
hmm.. sux to celebrate ur big dae w sumone else rite..
well to be frank.. the cake sux..
but the food..
reminds me of my late grandma's..
so deliciouso!
even now we're still talking about her good deeds..

hmm
met the 'precious' cousins.
nad had bf wan..
yun bf tambhi. nice guy cumer muke hansem tu hansem but like mamak.
n my sis.. sam..
wtf..
these 3 are nw the bestfrens..
no longer incld me..
wtever..
but me and thambi did clique..
we had fun..
then they left me alone.
damn im full of despair..
family asked for mamad n ayul..
haha
mak teh specially ask for ayul..
the rest ask for mamad..
haha
ayul anak buah mak teh..
haha
mamad anak buah my mum..
so..
hmm gr8 evryone loves my bestfrens..
ok.. i kinda miz eyla n her jokes rite now..
i feel kinda left out and alone now..

hmm..
mamad gg fishin w papa tonight..
so my plan tmr spend time wif my beloved cousins..
hanisah.. plus she wanna cut my hair..
no style in mind but im gnna let her werk her magic on me..
and im singing karaoke tmr w izzati...
hope i have fun tmr..
mondae test nie.. haha

kk signing off..

my thurs n fri..

hmm thurs..
didnt do much.. went home after schl met mamad..
then went to police post to make a police report..
HP me again lor.r.

ok..
after the 3 minute report we went home and hanged out..
mamad studied about the live firing while i studied about muscular strength trg..
hmm then at home we chilled out and like study2..
then he went down give papa $$.
then he came up again and we watched REDLINE..
omg!!!
the Phantom Rolls Royce,
Porche Carrerra GT,
Lamborghini Murcielago,
Enzo Ferrari, ferrari F430,
ferrari Scalietti and the Mercedes SLR Mclarens..

these babies are bought to race OMG!!
how i wish they were mine
oooohh..
then the racer.. NATASHA!! hot sia,,
and the hero of the show, Nathan Phillips..
His body is to die for! Imagine me.. in tt body!!!
haha
even mamad n ayul terchengang..
haha..
but for now.. im working out for it..
haha...
then halfwae thru the movie. mamad went home..
both of our ppd low..
i dun hab cash to top up.. valuebles gone...

damned!!!

today..
more worse nuttin special..
went to schl, eyla cried.. coz tt idiot disturb her...
then went for class test..
gagap!
but got an A!!!!
weee..
then go mamam at Jun's place n had swenson's earthquake!
when im broke..
owed chee keong tt 5 buckaroos..
mam earthquake lak then si mat msia tu keje..
kcau la aper lagik.
haha..

went home awaited mamad to msg me..
no avail..
his ppd low.. he nvr come..
wtevr..
slept the whole dae off to kill my boredom..
at night played checkers on msn w ayul n arip n shan..
haha
so funni..
I lost!!!!
damned it..

kla..
im signin off.. im bored.. no one layan me lorr...

what a dae! I LOST MY WALLET!!!

ok here goes..
it was after school..
went to chinatown as instructed by my mum..
we wanted to go court..
went in mcd. near temple st. at lucky chinatown.
ate there..
i had my wallet wif me..
then my mum called and went to URA..
still wallet wif me..

then i went to the immigration to make my mum;s birth cert.. but we didnt budge from the car.
so all along i was in the car.
then we went to p.ris to book for my chalet.
we went off.. to masjid al-isghtifar.. cik abbas nak sembayang.
then i knew. i opened the door to throw some rubbish.
then we went str8 to book my chalet. and went makan.. when i went out of the car i couldnt find my wallaet.
so i took some time to find it and they got bored and told me to check later.
i did. dismissed the tot la.. coz im forgetful.. i mite have kept it somewhere n ive forgotten.
so, we juz went makan..
the guy tt cooked took so long tt mamad reached my crib. let himself in and had fun alone..
i felt sorry for hym..
sorrie bro.. i was late..
i got hym food and we left and tt's when i found out i lost my wallet..
i was panickin and mamad was obviously annoyed tt i was late..
i msged evryone of my besties and they adviced me nt to panick..
wth..

im now scared.. evrything i have is in there..
my ic..
impt info..
impt doc.
money.
ex link..
im soo pissed off and v v confused..
tmr ayul tmanin me to make a report..
damn it!!!!

hopefully i get it back! please god!!
i dont care abt the money..
i juz want evrything back..
anyone whu found it please give it back to me.. please..
take the $$ as reward or wtevr, but the rest give it to me..

hmm spent the nite wif mamad, he seemed lethargic n not interested..
partly think it's my fault..
see even i msged hym he nvr repli..
sorrie la i kept u waeting.. sorrie eh.
he even seemed annoyed and couldnt focus. me, im jus worried about the wallet, if he is angry, tmr's coaching and what im gg to sae to the police tmr...
I WANT MY WALLET BACK!!!!!
sobx..

hmm luxury is not an option for me..

hmm let's see..
im broke.. again.. im left w 20 bucks till end of feb!!
i hope somewhere in the mid week i get surprise money or sumthin..
hmm.. i was this time and for real prepared myself to tender resignation..
then, ( see this happens evrytime i take out a pen or made up my mind to quit mcd which held me in mcd for the past 3 yrs)

the msg came..
"riyan and christine.. better get ready for my verification. All homework (me.. none done!) need to be done by the time i come. Read store email.." fr kamsiyah (my SAE)

damned.
how nie? i havent done anything as mcd mgrs never gave me a chance to do my job.. and i never had a chance to see myself bloom.. the are so kulit ppl.. christine had done evrything but she is one stress wrecked person. me im ok, im am confident but theory werk ive not done anything.

___________________________________________________________

ok enuf werk talk..
im currently surveying and findin a new job..
help mie ppl.. i wanna werk!!! somewhere.. NO FNB..
NO FULLTYME and NO NETWORK MARKETING!!!

wtevr..
ok here's wad happen tday..
in schl evryone was so moody.. whole dae ive been with the gerls laughing our ass off the jokes we made up..

i had a lot to eat though but i was really into apple juice.. esp red apple.. eyla loved green apple juice..
she's likes sour apples. me, really depends on my mood. i loved red apple juice though.. yummy.. haha..
ok.. after we had our brunch, we headed to the MPH and played handball.. crap i was so sweating sooo much, actualli i didnt want to play at all.. wasnt in the mood.. is it the weather?
hmm.. then lesson ended and that's it evryone started to mind their own business.. no one went for aerobics.. that's a piss off.. ayin met mar, eyla went home, me went home then i got a call from chee keong.. hehe.. to the rescue.. he saved me from a 5 min boring train ride home.. wasnt in the mood to tok to kip la.. im so "i-dont-wanna-tok-to-hym-right-now"..
got home, msn wif chee keong and then he went off and i fell asleep. deep sleep. really tired.

then got a call from yangyang.. he called me and demanded to come at jrg point that instant.
omg! i got a hangover and it hurts all over plus the bruise i got from mamad when we knocked on our wrists while i was reaching out to hold on to the grab pole of the MRT.. damn i have a contusion..
it still hurts.. anyone can urut for me.. pweesshhh.. i can do it myself coz once it hurts i will back out.. haha.. ferst tyme kan.. haha..
ok so he bought liyang a ______ for her which is so _______ and beautiful.. so sweet.. but it wasnt her size.. damned.. hahaha..
hmm the cashier gerl was cute her name was nicole lim.. that's hot! haha.. instant crush..
then we he presented her the gift.. hmmm i become "why-am-i-single?" again..

damned.. guess i'll alwaes be..
hmm sumone asked me why i didnt wan to have a gf.. hmm i have no idea.. no luck.. so i guess i'll just grow old a bujang.. die alone.. no children.. there's always adoption.. for a single dad? hmm heard of single mum adoption but never a single dad adoption.. no wife? i always dreamt of having a wife to love.. someone beautiful and caring.. hmm..
when am i gonna go dating to find a "potential wife"?
wtver..

*-------*jiwang moment*-------*
as far as i know i am in so called 'love' wif tt someone.. am i really in love or not? or is it just me n myself and my own delusion?
hmm ___ claimed a lot of things..
but never preach of wad is saed..
made promises to me and then breaks it in my face..
me.,. im a shadow lover.. shadowed.. never noticed by you..
u never wanted to notice me.. never did took the time of day to actualli spend the whole dae wif me...
it's alwaes about you and tt other someone.. for tt person you are willing to die for.. but me.. im here.. willing to die for you but you never want to acknowledge that..
i know we have differences but we have a lot in common..
you always get tt someone evrything even if u cant afford the money, the effort the tyme..
things that im alreadi getting for you..
evrydae i cant sleep becoz of you.. i can eat properly becoz of you.. i can do thing properly becoz of you.. you've spoilt me, fed me, gave me love but you disown me the moment you meet that someone..,.
i treat you as precious as my bestfrens.. thy are indeed the best thing tt happen to me..
but you are the evrythin that i cant get.. you are the one i want to love.. you are the answer to my evry prayers..
you are the ONE.. but it seems im the onli one tt is on at this.. you are exactly the reason why i am single all this while.. you are the torturer of my hart.. you are the answers to why im hurting evry nite.. the music to the dance that im dancing to but the music doesnt play for me but for tt someone.,.
you are a hypocrite.. hate it soo much tt i love you..
tried so hard to forget you, just make you a fren but u are alwaes the one tt shines.. even brighter than my family, my bestfrens and evrything else i have...
you are the light in the darkness i have been in all this while but you shut me out thanks to tt someone..
what kind of person are you.. and youve even cheated while you are with tt someone.. wtf is tt..
im hurt by you.. thanks for evrything.. now ive got to move on and numb myself real bad..

i know my place.. im not made for you... my love.. god is punishing me.. and im taking it in wholeheartedly.. i deserved this..
hmm..
but god is not all bad..
he granted me bestfriends that i'll never forget and will alwaes treasure..
love you guys so much..
Love is not an option or a chance for me to take..but a series of unfortunate things that i have to face in life.. will i ever truly find tt LOVER of mine? when my hart will alwaes be wif you?
i want to somedae die for tt someone.. love her.. have children with her.. be a good father for our kids..
guess i'll never get my dreams..

This explains well:

*-------------* end of jiwangs *----------------*

besties out there.. dun wori.. im ok.. sad but ok..
imagine this happened plus all the bad things tt happend to me lately..
been at this since NOV 07.. wat a year huh.. to tt someone in my hart.. i hate you yet i love you, you'll alwaes be in my hart but i have to move on.. love is vast and i wanna spread my love to evryone i know.. not just you anymore.. you take it for granted even when ure not around. the object of my affection.. hmm..

so still think im a loser?
haha
i find myself a loser..

hmm
now ayul is gg to resvc lakk..
sad sey wont get to see hym for 3 weeks till 7th mar..
hmm the person tt i turn to so much..
hmm idiot hym.. haha
make me wekk..

hmm oh yar.. cont wif my story..
yangyang blanjered me food..
he saed " this is something small for evrything you've done for me.."
he made me wekk.. haha.. really touched my hart to hear tt from hym..
LJS.. i was full but i just went wif the flow.. as he is famished..
ciann dier..
hmm..
then went off to send liyang home..

hmm thurs he'll be meeting her again..
damned luks like im gnna miz out JUMPER uh nie..
damned..
nvm la..
anw i wanna watch PS I LOVE YOU..
anyone can watch it wif me?
if possible yangyang go wif me la.. i wanna watch it.. haha
with anyone also can..

i heard it's hart warming..
hmm mushy2 again...
hahah
things i'll never feel..

kla signing off..

hmm wad a dae..

ok
started tdae from a phone call from eyla..
i was about to take a shower..
but we managed to joke ard..

hmm..
got to schl there we had was test conducted by Carine ..
Ppl that got A was petak( of all humans in the werld), eyla, bobot and syafiq..
petak was the surprising one..

hmm then i had the werst case senario of sembelit
and it was hurting my stomach real badly..
hmm then yang2 sms me..
tday he wanna learn TSR wif me..
i studying FOA n HFA la..

he came to my house and dad was ard..
wtevr..
he actualli saed my dear yang2 is gg to rape desy..
wtf..
please la..
da slalu berzina nie la dier kwn org jadi binasa.

hmm..
till here then,
im really wanting to watch JUMPER on 14th Feb..
cant waet!
i hope tt person nvr paitao me again..

wee~!!!

not a good dae that went by me..

hmm..

ytd..
went to Ventura Ace meeting..
bunch off deceitful ppl..
sae tt they r wara' uh this la tt la..
owns a lamboughini la earns 10k a mth la..
then i just walk off la..
me n yangyang..
then we had dinner and i headed off to busu
yangyang went to khatib,,

at nyte he was suppose to come lor n sleepover again..
then he P me..
durr..
bored lor..

woke up morning, pissed!
bored! yawn here and there..
got boxes and packed up my stuff..
im readi to move out..
dun know where dont know when..
i just want to move out..

i hate myself aishk!
hmm..
i just dumped evrything in the boxes and sealed it..
bags books clothes evrything..
after tt did laundry..
i was pretty much pissed thruout the dae..
then my mum came home..
bising lagik..
damn!

skarang nie baru dpt access to internet.
mamad was online...
chat wif hym evryting was gr8..
then i decided to disturb ayul la..
i saed uh "tk lyn.."
i giggled.. he took so long..
he IM me.. " wakk" n "warkhh"
so.. (since im bored)
i saed
"sudah la ko tk nk layan ko uh.. tk nk layan aku jerr.."
then he saed
"mpek uh"
and logged off!

wtf?!
he angry uh?
damned..
i was just kiddin ard..
i smsed hym he didnt bother..
i called him he reject..
OMG i made him pissed!!!
omg omg!!

dunnoe wadd to do liao!!
damn damn damn damn damn!!
aiyooo...!!!

wad i really think.

hmm im msning wif eyla..

opening up so much to her i almost feel bare..

im telling her wad i feel..
esp about myself..
i feel like a loser la..
hmm...
neglected by family n frens it seems..
im catchin up to them not going w the flow..

hmm..
she was shocked..
she never met a person who never had an ex..
yup! its me!
the loser who doesnt had an experience in life..

hmm tt gerl farah allegedly my 'ex' doesnt count as i didnt even have memories of us being together,, at all.. dont get me wrong.. we never went out togethr.. but she claimed im her ex bf..
wtevr..
then came maria umairah,, tt one;'s a bummer..
rejected.
got her bestfren to do it..
reason: coz im in N(A) she;s express..
lame. i tot..

gave up ever since tt..
i really liked her..
then i focused more on gettin besties..
apparently backstabbing plays a big role in finding a girl bestfren.
i found two.
still love them like my sisters..

now..
fyi my additional besties..
mamad, ayul, eyla n ayin.
hmm kewl huh..
mamad of course is the closest of them all..
he change me from a bad ass fcukin asshole to
current me..
the nice person, or so..

hmm as i was saying..
well life being single..
great.
free.. but..
im alone in this declaration of independence.
always left out.

like thay say "better to be loved. than not to love at all"
hmm.. true..
me. never been loved before.
lost the mojo babes..
im super cold and hartless.
numbed my hart.
cant accept ppl anyhow.
im choosy..
as again " u'll never have wad u always wanted."

hmm gave up on love for 2 yrs from when im 15..
then came evelyn.,
she;s cute awesome gr8.. yett.. wasnt mine,..,
respected tt.. but each dae fell for her..
again a yr plus and she started tantrum.
that's the end of it,
now we;re the biggest enmies ard..
when i werk ard her only she's throw tantrum.
now back to giving up to love,,
like, is different.,.
i like a lot of others..
but love..
never will taste it..

being wif singles..
gr8 esp when theyre ur besties..

being wif couples.
im the lamp-post.
the tree..
always have been, alway will be huh?

on group dates?
yup. the 5th wheel.
never there..
im like an illusion..

ard family?
im invisible..
though im alwaes mentioned.
im invisible..
cousin's ditched me..
for whu?
matreps n minah..
hmm..

frens?
u know or not they sincere?

close frens?.
like biscuit..
sjap ader sjap tkder..
catergory? qahar eg..
nice boy but alwaes disappear..

besties?
my werld...
but all attached.
wif anna, pak jad
ayul, sayuri
mira, yat
mamad, yana
eyla, din
ayin, ???
(not so sure bt it)
so evryone has their set huh..

they did ask me to get someone..
am i prepared for the hartbreak?
waet!
i dun even knoe how to approach someone be it
getting heart broken..

guess this loner will be by hymself..
not necessary sad.
maybe devastated but mindin his own business..
knowing tt he'd just blend in..
good luck there..
being pessimistic huh..
hmm
mayb need to see a professional?

see how la..

hmm.. i gotta go my own way.. says Ruiyen

Totally paitoaed Mcd..
watever..
no mood to werk at all..
hmm but looking forward to werk at MDIS..

hmm
after skool i went home..
changed and went to busu hse while waiting for my dear yangyang..
he send liyang home or sumthing..
hmm..
i was super bored and read some books on Alam Barzarkh..
freaky stuff there..

hmm met yangyang..
he thought nyai hse at tampines..
i tot he had to do sumthing at tampines..
in reality, nyai hse is at teban!! durgh!
wakaka..
we looked like idoits.. gg out and in of trains,
up n down of platforms and terminals.. then we went to nyai plc..
we ate assam pedas n ayam kicap.
then as usual..
nyai tried to convince me to loved her son..
watever..
i'll never like my dad..
tt two faced jerk..

hmm after tt went to Mcd to spent some cash..
me n yangyang shared the prosperity meal..
i had green tea. he had latte..
hmm..
then once bloated, we caught the shuttle bus and head home..

hmm..
after tt went home..
change.. planned wif yangyang to go fishing..
wee..
we home changed, showered and went out to meet yangyang..

hmm..
we set up everything..
then came liyang ad her family..
hmm..

we went here and there while i watched yangyang
jala-ing idiotic creatures of the sea..
then went fishing at nite..
aha..
spending guys nite out..
for tt particular moment only,,
at the back of my mind,
we;re not alone..

then the next dae, we went on the jetty..
where bad-ass yangyang braved himself and we to petik kupang down at the jetty..
and left me up on the jetty probably feeling bored..
with the damn hot sun, the long rod and me without any footwear walking on the sun-baked road...
damned it hurt..

hmm
then liyang's dad got packing,
packed the rod, the tent i was jus helping around..
propably it's best tt yangyang does his own thing coz pissing hym off is the laz thing on my mind..

well then we headed home probly the waet took lots of our tyme..
waet for this n that.. wif my stomache, i was quite restless..
got in the train of which we had to waet 10mins for tt damn train..

then thruout the way we slept,
mp3 down,
hp down..
yangyang hp down,
any further things tt can really piss me off?
hmm probably a lot..

then we got home,
mam rice and chix..
mama's cooking really work on my appetite..
finally i tasted real food!
then mama n papa got home..

yangyang faced the music..
damned..
thinnk im gonna buy _______ one of these daes..

then we head to crib and settled down..
the PAYU was less than $1..
i was like damn..
ibu brought the key how to top up..
damn..
me n yangyang jus slept and cuddled down in e darkness till ibu got home.
i was hugry again! ibu never cook.. but i juz downed the nutrisoy soya bean..
that;s fair enough...

once ibu got home,
i quickly went for shower..
tot of wad happened in schl..
damned i miss chee keong n zhi ti..
haha..

then i got moody..
pissed raff off then went to sleep wif yangyang..
hmm..
i had weird dreams and was moving real vigorous..
i was jerking here n there and kept moving here n there..
rolled side by side..
yangyang just laid there motionless but he did had his fair share of sudden outburst of jerking ard..
i think it was the sea tt made us restless..
sea n sun!
sun really drained our energy..

woke up morning.
yangyang was bored and disturbed me from my sleep..
i was semi concious and turn the tv on..
watched the MOUSE marathon on every kids channel..
wtf..

hmm the raff created fault lor..
hmm then yangyang went off wif desy go dan;s bdae..
nvr invite me lor..
watever,,
hmm.. yangyang did offer but they nvr invite me lor..
dont wanna crash..
anw also i got the family kenduri at busu's
da la smalam jmpe kak ety and abg at smbwg park..
haha
miss them sia..

hmm..
now im super bored,, n pissed..
argh!

signing off..

hmm tryin to absorb the truth!

hmm read my ytd post?
hmm..
anger was so much overtaken me i forgot to tell u..
me, mamad, desy, yana, sayuri n ahlau had a surprise 'party' fr ahlau..
it was located: swiss culture, suntec city
we ate: chocolate fondue..
yumm!!!

hmm.. then we lepak at starbucks and played scrabble..
while i sip on two skyjuice and a cup of black tea latte
which tasted like poop-y! haha..

ok lar.. then got home and i had a huge super heated discussion wif my mum rgardin my dad.,.
tt caused the angry post..

while msn-ing wif ayul.. hmm vented my anger on him.. sorri bro..
vented my anger on desy.. my mum.. my brother, my nyai..
hmm just now i colled her to apologise..
hmm sorie nyai.. i love u..muax!

hmm tday we got a test..
ayul was the top student..
so jealous!!! 98/100 sey..
i didnt see my marks...

hmm i didnt go to silat.. too tired, unmotivated, malas and damn headche tt's affectin me until now!
then got home. got pissed. my dad at home.. went shower. slammed evrything i see..
then he got the msg and went in his room..
nvr mess wif me when im pissed..

hmm.. whole dae nvr meet yangyang..
i remembered he had tt biathalon..
poor him..

hmm..
me and ayul joked here n there in msn.. tt idiot..
planned to go drink hot teh outside uh.
kemaruk teh nie..

hmm...
best song to describe how im feelin?
piece if me n good gerl gone bad..
if got guy version? tt's me!

hmm.. yangyang super tired, im super tired n lazy..
damn..nuttin is good la..
hmm miss my frens liao..

k la signing off..

two daes in a post..

3 feb..

well i nvr knew saturdaes would suck so much but this is wad i experieced tt dae..
ok got to werk,
damn pissed wif _____ coz tt idiot ask me to do station (hashbrown).. terang2
im a STAR.. elaboration.. Store Activities Representitive...
my main priority is layaning customers.. n he is giving me station.. at this rate camner nk di-verified belo?!
then when i wanna pull out, still can sae, "are u qualified to conduct parti? anyone also can conduct parti wad. u r not verified right?" dalam ati mcm nk maki jer pukimak nie... "if u think it's easy, u do it la, i punch out.." mcm nk ckp aje.. babi!
then when i pull out buat pe'el.. babi.. muker da mcm babi..

then when i punch out ledi,
when eating wif _____.. we ate spicy.. both of us.. then christine came ajak mam pat old changkee.. so we went.. me n ___ nvr relii tok tt much skali suddenly bbl like da lamer gitu.. me noe her since oct.. i find her cute.. but slalu she v rude.. now v v nice.. and i fcukin falling for her..
damn!
when we ate, we shared nasi sambal la.. she spoonfed me.. all the way.. like seriously all the wae..
hmm mayb? mayb not?

met mamad spend tyme wif him then we had hell's kitchen... haha we cooked..

then we stayed over.. we had a great sleepover..


4th feb

gr8 dae spoilt by my dad..
ok me n mamad went
to family jemputanz..

I FCUKIN FOUND OUT MY STEPMUM... i swear to god i will nvr regard her as my mum unless for EVIL N SINISTER INTENTION.. this tyme im gonna let IBLIS CONTROL ME to take down this bitch and my dad!!! KEPALER PUKI MAK DIER LA!!! EVEN MY GRANDMOTHER IS AVOIDING ME TAU SANGAT YG AKU NIE MULOT JAHAT! LEBIH JAHAT DARI ALL HER FAMILY MEMBERS PUT TOGETHER!!! PUKI!!! CIBAI!!

i swear dad i will disown u once i get 21!! once i get 21.. i no longer rgard u as family!
u r my enemy till the dae u DIE!!!

i wish u death father!!!

hmm..

hmm.. made new frens liao..

hmm.. i made new frens tday.. Chee Kiong (CK), Zhi ti, Yangyang, Li Yang, Eileen and Yalee.. Met them at hall tday during practice..

veri short post la..

hmm..
apparently i would spend time wif them more la., maybe..
but my BFFs are still the bests..

hmm tday went to queensway w eyla n ayul..
spent tyme there then we ate charkuay rojak..
under the rain..
aww.. so memorable..

then went home..
slept and went i woke up,
mamad called..
he scolded me why i nvr pick up..
haha...
i xplained then he came to my house and
i went to his,
then we go out met yana..

met wif yana, and the plc is like so croweded..
damn.. i felt suffocated..
the we ate Long John where mamad was veri2 unfocused..
spilled chowder n stuff..
then we went to cut his hair..

then he sent yana home..
i went home la..
wat else to do..

hmm..
kla..
signing off..

listen to my life story tk akan abes.. 24 hours sad aje..
kk.
bb..