Im back from ma holidaes!!!

My trip from HongKong!!

At my aunt's HSE!!

Day at Ocean PArk!!!

Shopping Trip to MONGKOK... aka HK's BUgis!!

HongKong Airport T2....

Disneyland Collection......

A total of six days i was in Hongkong...

let me see..

-Shop at Mongkok n Tsim Shia Shui

-Disneyland

-Ocean Park

-Hongkong Airport

-Ate Delicious Dim Sum

-Celebrate Christmas
-Get Xmas Prezzie...

FUN TRIP!!!

Im Flying.....................

I'M FLYING TO HONGKONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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CONFIRMED! A-PLUS CHOP!!!!

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DATE FROM 23RD TILL 27TH DEC 08...

I NEED TO GET AWAY LA SERIOUSLY...

FROM PEOPLE.

FROM WORK.

THE ONLY SACRIFICE IS IM MISSING MA SILAT AND MA SILAT LOVES,

AND THE RETURN OF MA BESTFRIEND AND TO CELEBRATE XMAS W HIM!...

SOBX...

I MISS SILAT~~!!!

NO.

I MISS MACAN!!!!!
BOO-HOO...

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BUT AFTER BEING AT HONGKONG, I WILL BE REFRESHED!

FRESHED UP TO DO MORE SERIOUS SPARRING!!!

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Today however, i had an awesome time tho i wasnt quite happy with the results macan produced but nonetheless we beated the peepz from grasio in the friendly.. LOL..

Good job evryone!

hmm, during the silat me naz n azmi went makan and had a good

"debate" over religious issue but it was fun instead of nasty..

then we watched the friendly..

after that, after we saed goodbye blahblahblah...

we went to mcd to makan and chit chat, until we all missed the last train back to boonlay!!

great job!

we miscalculated the time..

took bus 39, went to yishun,

then head to mrt to jeast....

then finally to jeast, we sat down to chit chat, till 1.40am,

me n sherri and took a cab back!

awesome dae...

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PS: i havent pack up!!! die!!!

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Ryan Out!

I knew this would happen!!!

I was already prep-up to fly then i heard my flight has to be sub-loaded..
destination? HK.
money? got it!
luggage? prepared!
wat else? ticket???? read on....
.......
means that i gamble with whichever flight that has leftover seats i can take as i was a last minute preparation/booking of tickets... Going is no prob... nak balek tu.. i plan to come home xmas eve..
Dad saed:
"Da giler?? tu pon kalao ader tempat.. XMAS EVE ramai orang HK balek SG!!
nnt ko jadi mogok pat airport HK baru tau..."
> one of the reasons why i hate travelling during xmas...<
Change of plans... trip postponed to January or Febuary... WHATEVER!!

Hmm today was e most hectic day i had. as well as the most irritating time i had...
practically evryone i know is contacting me either via sms or phonecall from a packed timing from 9am-2pm CONTINUOUSLY!!!!!!!
i was sooo pissed off with them!! Buzz off will you?? im not in the mood!!!
i got back to back phonecalls by parents, frens, co-workers, family and workplace!!! F OFF la u people???!!! WTF?!
cant i have peace? a decent quiet tyme to send by bestest bestfriend off to vietnam..
already im so sebak that he had to leave now idiots are disturbing me non-stop!
i was happy for him that he's representing singapore in something yet heavy hearted as imma be alone for a time-being...
I NEEDED TO BE LEFT ALONE!! HELLO!!!!!!

it didnt stop there.. i had a thing to do from 230-5pm!!! i was so tired i fell aslepp halfwae doing it... i rushed from airport ok!!!
then rushed to teban... from 6-730 at gramz then rushed to gombak for bike!! till 1130pm!!
if you're telling me im nt tired?
idk wad to sae... just as i was about to relax... Family discussion till 1am!!! OMG!!!
now, i got a call from yus, saying yul is injured and in need of a masseuse... tyme check??
1.30am in the morning...

Next dae working u know... haix... kawan nyer pasal...
watever.. ikhlas!

Ryan out!

Ala.. which one nie...

Im torn between gg to VIETNAM AND HONGKONG...

which one shud i go???

ayul at Hanoi.. but SQ dosnt fly to Hanoi..

Bro going Viet too but im not sure he gg HCM city aka Saigon or Hanoi..

he dowanna tell me.. sobx!

Nvmind lor.. i wont go viet. but i wanna see wat's in Viet!!

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Hmm one more choice is HK!

i wannn....

got disneyland!!

tapi mahal...SGD60!!!

that one is off peak!

Camner??

Travel with whu?

ma siblings la..

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My dad dapat tix tapi tknk waste...

Plan was to head to Gold Coast tapi their currency da naek...

da macam us alry...

haioh!!

howhowhow???

idea anyone?

India i dowan la nerd..

i dunno wad is there... LOL..

at least HK i know....

ideas please.....

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great weekend....

Heart was shreded when i got reminded of ma late grandma.. haiz.. i cried ma heart out for a good 5mins. and then the feeling subsided. I didnt know i miss her that much.. hmmm....

OK the weekends has been awesome for me. I spend tyme w bro and za.
ok here's the sich, it was saturday morning. Woke up to mum's naggin.. LOL..
adek beradek suker buat hal... hmm then i rushed and packed ma stuff not forgetting packing some stuff for that looker's clothes.. deep inside i know he'll forget to bring clothes.. it was a gut feeling. wad i call the "naluri sahabat" haha.. aka "bestfren's sense" *What the fish!*
then when i wanted to go out the bag busted.. FAKKAWI!!!
This is a CC event so they had prepared a bus for us... and this happend!
i was soo pissed off coz i was late and the whole bus was waiting for me... janji kul 1pm.
i was half an hour late and they still waeted for me.. aww... how lovely.. then i saw all the cik2's anak.. and family and etc.. haha..

ok it was sooooooooo mundane... not having ma bestie ard is killing me!!
so since the CC people installed the KRK system, apelagi i sang la. they forgot to bring the remote n etc so i just sang ALL *take note ALL* the songs in other people's cd sampaikan mereka torek.. LOL.. skali satu2 come to me asking me y i never joined Anugerah suare sedap.. i was lyke "hell NO".. i hate anugerah's watever.. so lame... orang tk bleii nyanyi bleh menang.. sudahla... LOL..
they were lyke "sayang sey" haha... not sayang la.. my voice is only meant for my true LOVE or religion only.. LOL..
OK sang from the tyme i got there until maghrib... then while singing i heard my voice got two-voiced... WEIRD..
watever.. i hanged out with bro till subur then went to sleep. next morning KRK again then got a argument w bro. pfft.. all thanks to lil bro uh.. putting his nose where it shouldnt be.. sibok je hanging out w ma frens.. isyk! once or twice is ok, start hanging ard them it's SIBOK! i was pissed off w bro n za for a bit uh..isyk!!
got home, me n bro slept till maghrib.. we ate, chilled and then went home....

we were sooooo lethargic...

ryan out!!

Apa guna menangis??

After loads of hassle and almost spending more than 1.3k, alhamdulilah ive completed the motor course. the learning has ended. Im a qualified rider BUT not yet a licenced rider. LOL.
Dad had promised to buy me a bike, *just dwnpayment je* hmm that one also his choice of bike. Dier tak kasi me take up ma own bike. Tak cerewet uh. I just need the bike for travel and work.

The song you're hearing now is very awesome. Sung by Siti Nurhaliza's sister. Saerah.. awesome. i dedicate this song to those bitches out there that cry at evry single woe life throws at them.

Day in and day out my life has been dedicated to silat taught by several silat loves. All and all has caused me several bumps and bruises on ma body and one even sent me hurling down rolling on the floor in an injury that eats up the torso area. I didnt do proper breathing technique and that was enough to give me a blow that tore the soul out of me. Thanks to M for giving me the ice treatment. Very helpful indeed. And very soothing enough, he sang to me to make me calm and forget the pain. Until i went snoozing. Next thing i know the pain was neutralised... *NOT GONE*. So i practically cant laugh too much, diaphragm's kinda busted.

I went out on several road trips with one of ma loves taking loads of opportunities to creating and spending happy memories and quality time with each other. It is now that you realise some friends are there for you through and through, through thick and thin and unlike some others who choose to take life on different perspective on life. Not that i disagree with them. But it's their choice that depicts the truth that they have to offer but instead they chose to lie.

'Nuff said about this, hmm.. naturally when the weather goes cold, then warm, and hot then freezing cold, it;s natural for the people living in the tropic island of singapore to be sick. Evryone i noe is literally falling ill, one by one.
Hmm.. and hari raya wasnt much of a celebration. I loSt ma festivities mood.. I sat at home. didnt do prayers, slept at home. Missed the korban.. then went to mak teh's to KRK w cuzzinz then off to nyai hse to lepak then went home via cab with a wallet then only consists of $20.. that was how tired, lethargic and lazy i am on that day...

hmmm.. i miss bro...

RYan OuT!

Life can be sooooo complicating.

Hmm complications....

Monday was a totally awesome day for me la.

seriously... hmm ryin being not around for silat sparked

a unexpected outgoing side of a fellow silat mate.

haha.. finally i see him smile, and he actually has a voice to share.

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We're even talking long convos.

totally appreciated it.

Hmm since im under macan as an intern, i had take up the

training aspect la...damn it i was soooo freaking scared la..

when was the last time i conducted anything??

wahh... party, 5mths ago..

fitness? 4mths ago..

i didnt know i was sooo rusty.. simple stretches bleii luper??

i totall made a fool of maself la..

lagi malu when pelapis from bishan turun almukminin..

wallaoooweii... thank god sherri was there taking up warm up...

that is like so hard for me to catch up..

ma fitness level rabak pe???
with eyla w would say..

"EYLA, I NID TRAINING!!"

she'll gonna say,

"TRAIN LARRRRR JGN TUNGGU AKU, PEMALAZ!!"

LOL.

that's wad besties are for.. screw u when u screw urself.. LOL.

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Ok training time banyak main uh.. standard. tho without ryin it's kinda

BLAND!

it's not a trio without the 3 gilas in gelanggang!!

nonetheless..

as a pair, it's enuf for evryone to notice our crappy nonsense,

and you'll know they notice, it's when all the pelapis' eyes are on you,

and they go "snicker, snicker, snicker"...

giving that *im-trying-to-be-serious*
smile-slash-laugh....

LOL.

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then the word im kinda scared to hear...

"sparring time"

darn it.. in ma hart i was lyke..

'yan u shuddup and kip urself hidden'

i dun wanna fight coz i wasnt confident yet after the last defeat from a beginner...

but after fighting azmi, and i did applied some techniques and some

sort 'won' and fighting ma coach kinda boost ma confidence..

but...

im still not fully confident.

hmm then so far so good. noone called me.. then..............* scary music interlude*

**BAM BAM BAM**

*i spoke to soon*

"YAN VS FAD"

damned!!!!

i rejected at ferst then allllllllllll forced me... im sooo freaking nrvous lar...

wah the word "pasang" and "mula"

is lyke piercing thru ma hart uh...

Skali, i can apply evrytthing i learnt uh and i kinda 'won'..

waaa.. im so proud of maself..

even ma coach n peepz was impressed...

idk wad got into me.. for me to beat an experienced fighter, 2 thumbs up la seyy..

*puji diri nampak?? idong kembang*

LOL.

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After silat my coach said this..

"yan, lepas nie kiter gi jamming"..

me.

"jamming aper"

him.

"jamming kompang uh.. ang zul da tau maen selang.."

me.

"LOL"

of all things.. ahaha...

cute ryte ma coach!!!

hahaha..

nak jamming kompang..

talk about kompang, they all mastered 'lalu' but none masterd

'selang' except for me n azmi.

i didnt know it was that difficult for them..

but then da 'jammin' *LOL*

smuer da pandai uh maen kompang... ahahahaha...

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today, tuesday.

practically i had nothing on until i got a call and old silat fren, M.

walaoooo.. miss him sia..

*ouh btw hunnies out there.. my ppd is low. i can get free incmg calls tho. CALL ME!!*

hmm called him from 11am till 3pm. then he met me at home.

we lepaked... sparred at home..

then went for silat...

im in love w silat seyy LOL..

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hmm now im gonna have to put ma bike kinda on hold as the cash aint flowing

in.. kinda in a family situation uh... hmm... money n family.. ma weakness uh..

but i have bro, Vyang, M, BFFs and silat to keep me happy..

im thankful to god for that..

alhamdulilah!!

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Ryan out!!

What a week.

Hmm.. definitely the week has passed and ive not

been updating for some time, practically im rather pissed at some people,

hanged out with some people,

met some old-tyme people,

seen my loved people and

am sad and dissapointed at some people.

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Last Sunday, i went to my 801. i did a silly mistake and was kinda given

a immediate failure, nonetheless, i got a freaking 38 points!

pfftt..

"obstruction to traffic"

LOL.

Then i went to along's and spent time there.

after a long call by V. appreciated it V.

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Monday i got a date w dad.

to punggol clinic. for some obatz..

LOL.

practically spent the whole day at nyai house...

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Tue

i had 2 dreams of V and happens that he came by ma crib and

spent tyme with me, and even had the muses kicking in..

telling you i love having V as a fren??

definitely...

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Wed.

another date w V spent tyme from morning till night.

we ate, chilled and etc..

then i met bro for a while.

went a few rounds on his bike and he sent me home.

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Thurs.

date w miza to meet muthiah.

meeting about me having an interview w hua yi.

hmm.. then met w ma lovelies..

miza, ghani n yusuf.

we went to causeway point to watch QUARANTINE!!!

awesome movie.. but out of 5 popcorns, it deserved a 3.

pfftt..

mabok ader adelah after watching it.

hmm... i really liked spending tyme w them.. tk penah sey whole day w

them...

then im off to silat..

i was so excited for training..

hmm but training wasnt that good la.

as abg zul not ard and zaf n fad was taking charge.

yawn!!

but then azmi kicked in. then it got awesome.

i finally know wad to do.

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Friday.

the dae of the interview.

hmm..

okok la.. but the teacher macam tak nak uh.

im like whatever la.

he wants me to design a programme for lower sec n upper sec.

i tot become a pe teacher je..

mcm2 plak mintak.

anw im alry clocking in hours coaching n helping out with ma coach doing silats

and events.

alhamdulilah dapat. carine approves.

if i cant get a job, im turning into a fulltyme FOC silat coach.

I dun mind ah..

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saturday

the clinic..

i was soooooo excited for it.

met sherri at JP and had lunch, then off to bishan in cab,

the sparring was awesome..

ma partner during training was Azmi.

one thing i can tell u abt him?

He's an awesome teacher/coach.

he will literally make you understand wad to do n wad not to do..

unlike some people i know *roll eyes*

his instructions is clear, understandable and practical.

saper yang tk leii tangkap tu memang bodoh orang nyer..

he reminded me of bro..

**which the promise of training me, im still holding!**

i seriusly miss him la.

hmm.. he's always busy meeting others..

*wonders who*

like no time for me je..

haix...

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Sunday.. tomorro..

azmi ajak go for kompang..

macan's team.

i dun mind actually but morning i got pract and i may be meeting

cousin. hmm.. cousin or macan??

oh which btw, macan is work now.

work or outing??

dammit.

i think 50-50

but i'll explain to cousin...

see how..

i dun know wad other plans may cook up tomooro..

which me luck for ma 801.

im so excited..

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Hmm.. it got good.

I was suddenly in the mood for lot of stuff..

but

letme let you guys in on ma latest updates.

I took ma 601 twice, ferst time one was a careless mistake of

"follow-the-matsalleh"..

Went for a second round. matsalleh was in 701. darn!!

okok. so yeah.

i went and passed as he wanted to see independant riding,

so i showed him the independentness of being me la..

it worked! str8 away i booked ma 701! today. 2.10pm.

before tt i met Vyang who apprently

was very adorable!

he wished me luck! aww so sweet...

and then i met bro's sis to exhange the earpiece..

apparently she lost ma

rubber tip of the earpiece...

hmph!

nonetheless.. i got the extra picecs of the rubber tips and

replaced it,

hmmm since i passed 701, aka U TURN n Right turn,

hmm i bought maself some food to appease myself..

hehe...

then went to cousin's and KRK, yet again,.,

with flu n stuffy nose,

my voice sounds so Austin Powers!!

hahaha..

LOL....

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till here then,

tmr's ma 801.

wish me luck ppl!!!!

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BTW, hua yi sec replied ma email,

they're interested to hear about the internship.

hmm gotta call mR M!!!

inform him!

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Hmm.. not exactly ma thing.

Hmm, ok. so monday was sucky as i totally lost focus and did not

do well in silat i and i was so angry with myself and i felt as if ive let ma coach down as

he's expecting a good fighter in me.

To be honest, the silat clinic was kinda the start of me messing up.

Seems like im spiralling into a whirlpool of mass disorientation..

OK. monday was a start.

nuttin much in the day...

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My tuesday was rather dull too.

supposed to be ma ferst day of work at cathay.

yes.

i got the job that evryone wanted.

i wanted it so much.

but when i got it, im not sure if i liked it.

i signed some papers and set off home.

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I cant recall what i did.

but..

On wednesday,

ok today was officially ma ferst day, that i start work.

nuttin much really, i got into FNB, the line which i was trying to avoid!

concess they call it.

Surprisingly ma neighbour from ma block happens to be ma colleague,

and~

he knows my best frens.

amazing.

but, im not a fan of him. maybe not yet.

and then there's this guy, trying to be funny with me.

cmon guy. im not warmed up to the place yet.

uh-uh. bad move. the joked he cracked?

spoiled ma mood totally.

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Serving popcorn, hotdog and etc.

not exactly wad i had in mind.

as i aimed USHER job.

cmon la. FNB?

when was the last tyme i made a burger??

im a freaking manager la.

i manage people and customers not food...

use to but that was lyke 2 years ago!!!!

now i had to re-learn how to make a hotdog bun.

pfft!

damned.

okok. since newbie takpe i do it...

hygiene???

uh-uh. they're the worst.

it's like wokring back in shangri-la rasa sentosa..

back in 2007..

totally disgusting.

that's y i quit.

here, they

wear glove, to prepare food,

but theyre using the hand that's isnt gloved.

tok about gross.

On top of that the people there ate popcorn from the big box they serve people!!

im so never gonna buy food from cinemas ever agian..

never from hotel, never from cinema,.

dont start on airport with me...

eew~

I TOT MCD was disgusting.

but it seems mcd is the best in food business la..

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Thurday.

no work as we're celebrating ma dad's bdae.

kinda refreshing seeing the family again,

but i felt awkwardness.

i mean they're so "family"

and me and ma sibs are so NOT.

for me tho, sumtimes, i dun blend in

with ma family paternal and maternal side.

not just that, i dun blend in well with people..

what's up with that????

anyone explain it??

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Oh ya. i passed ma 6.01.

im heading for 7.01 soon.

hmm..

i hope i got it out of ma system as ma TP is on the 14 jan.

and some of ma fren's too.

hmm co-incidence..

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Hmm... till then..

Ryan ouT

I guess im gonna be a hanger.. Im hangin there..

Short of cash..

short of tyme..

short of fun..

short of hope..

short of life..

short of love...

short of happiness..

short of YOU...

hmmm..

Im short of evrything.....

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Hmm nuff said about this... Hmm last saturday was a dear fren's bdae, Ghani's 18th. Congratz bro. I didnt manage to wish him. But i did finally after i met him on one of the days...

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Monday i went to school.

evryone misses me. but hey they went back to square one after

reasling bff wasnt there with me.

Hmm wad can i say.

Went to clementi, met some of ma frens, conducted a NAPFA test.

Prolly the day time is not ma day. But

come towards the night, it got kinda awesome.

Got ma ferst fight at almukminin.

Opponent was Fad.

hmm it hurt man!

but well.. nak blaja silat, DONT WHINE!

da lepas silat, me azmi, naz and putra w loves lepak at jeast library...

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Tuesday

Dad's bdae...

Happy bdae Ayah...

hmm it slipped my mind but i managed to wish him anywho..

the day i was the captain's ball referee at wdlnds pri.

it was kinda fun then i had to leave as i had motor pract and didn t want to miss it

and amazingly, i passed my 502...!!!

syukur..

then i proceeded home.

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Wednesday

i was damned tired out from the week and had to report at clem to do

napfa test. again!

but this time, she was there..

my heart stopped..

she's even cuter now...

dang!

The morning i had a dream of late granma..

in telekong..

i miss you granma..

*sedekahkan alfateha kpd Allahyarhamma Hajjah Banon*

then after the attchment

i went for car pract...

hmm it was fun...

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i was practically at home doing nothing after in the morning met

cousin and then went to make our PDLs.

then bro called.

i miss him sooo much la..

love u bro!!

hmm then went to silat..

again,

there was a fight but not with me..

after that we went home straight wile on the phone w bff eyla..

i miss u honey!!

*hugs*

hmm.. i miss evryone la..

hmm..

then went home and slept the night off..

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Friday

Today if Hyrulnizam Jumaat of the Young Lions bdae..

hahaha...

happens to be one of ma close frens..

happy 22nd bdae bro..

imy a lot sia..

Did pretty much nothin but i did went to 601 w cuzin

hmm, follow tt mat salleh sampai i fail w her. dang!

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SAturday

Today is ma fav day..

the silat clinic.

the day i quit Z for..

hahaa..

the day i got bumps and bruises..

5hourss of hell..

but fun.

then we went to causeway for MADAGASCAR 2...

w sherri n ryin..

then,

met ekin,

vanz,

zetty,

kak ct...

banyak nyer...

hahaha...

hmm..

went home, nursed ma injuries, and slept.

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Sunday

im lovin in..

bro met me at ma crib.. da lamer tak lepak w him sia..

i freakin miss him la..

hmm..

krk and watch movie at home,

played computer..

jalan2..

ma head is spinning like hell tho..

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I cant waet for monday!!!!

training, dapat rembat orang!!

wee~~

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To u, thanks for grabbing evry single opportunity to keep me at

bay and leave me lonesome.

you have shown me that wout u, i can survive.

you stole evrything i own and kept it for yourself,

promise shit to me,

makin me sad, heartbroken and angry all the time,

to think you called me a friend?

that's such an insult.

damn you hater!

once again, syabas bitch!

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Hmm updates.

Hmm sorry guys for the slow rate of update.

Im been pretty busy these few days.

FYI,

Ive quitted ma job!! wee~~~

but dont celebrate as yet. Im not free also,

coz the things that ive missed out when i was working,

i have to do in now.. family, frens and responsibilities caught up..

My pay? hmmph.. let's not talk about it;

im almost broke. im hanging on here..

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ok. here's the thing, after i sent the resignation letter,

a day later,

E sent me an email saying i was terminated..

pfftt. please la. grow up.

i threw u ferst. not the other way round.

anyways,

ngan padan muker dier. for those who have read my resignation letter,

yeah.,..

it was harsh.

i slammed it in that bitch's face.

I made it so sarcastic and professional at the same time..

maner tak member bingit..

haha..

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Not to worry as my lecturer supports me..

wee~

ok updates..

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Friday...

Vy called me and we chatted for a long long time.

4hours to be exact.

hearing his voice after long is like a sense of relive.

he's the penawar rindu...

of which the night before, we called and chatted for 3 hours straight.

hmm i cant quite recall what i did last friday,

but i did went for 502.

and failed yet again..

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SAturday..

BUSY DAY!

ferst ting in the morining, RC n 502.

which i failed. yet again..

then go to dhoby ghaut, met roxy,

then went round n round bugis searching high and low for a certain shoppe,

got ma gloves, bag and etc...

cousin got her helmet...

then met ryin and eyla..

hug them,

then off to cck to search

for food and went to cousin's for krk...

sang ma hart out and then off home,

made composition as requested by bro,

dad's letter and back to sleep...

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SUnday..

hmm..

woke up,

went for RC.

excellent.

502.

excellent. even the insrtructors ssays so

but then i fell at crank course...

FUCK!

nvm in coming again...

ahhaha..

now i know wad's wrong...

actualli by right i would only get 6 points je.. hahaha..

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tmr gotta report to FT dept.

hmm..

till then ryan ouT!

U've done it... U MADE MY MIND UP FOR ME...

I guess ***** being a b*tch in a way helped me.

Hmm i've made ma decision. yeap.

thanks. A lot.

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She tried to call me even on ma off day.

That was it. U crossed the line.

A very fine one i might add...

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Hmm wednesday.

Hmm i tot by taking up a new car instructor,

preferbly a chinese one i wouldnt clash into old instructor,R,

apparently i was calling up anne again and again worrying that

my is R standing near my new instructor.

Amek ko, HE IS MY NEW instructor.

My life in inter-twine wif his la!!

dammit. but thing is,

HE DOESNT RECOGNISE ME!

not one bit.

he didnt notice the name, the IC, the HP num.

WTF.

but ferst day je da awesome.

we started drving out on the road driving around jeast, gombak, bb.

hmm fun but then again, have to stop for me to buy his breakfast la wateverla..

haix..

practically the reason y i left him for another instrutor!

overall i did enjoy the drive it was refreshing.

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Went back home, changed and then headed to nyai's house.

Great.

No one's at home.

my dad's asleep.

i sat down, fell asleep,

woke up to a heavy rain outside and being almost late for pract.

naseb baek can make it on time.
for RC instructor Nastron is very nice and very likeable.

i learnt a lot from him!

then 502...

Md Azhar.

i tot malay kan, can pass la..

fakkawi!

he failed me medadak.

from a 2 imm failure n 26 demerit,

to 1 imm failure n 20 demerit,

to now 0 imm failure and 32 god damn demerit.

i was like WTF!!!!!!

he never see i check ma junction n stuff uh?

he failed me because i didnt check blind spot. 12 dem points there!!

if i never check blindspot, which i did, often, can i be driving out at public road in a

car 4 times the size of a motorcycle?????????????

isk this guy uh so ridiculus tau! pfft!

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then i realised shit i was late.

my date w cuzin was at 7pm.

it was alry 8pm.

that guy bbl drag2 until 8?!! no wonder the place from kosong become full when i

was a bout to leave the rider's waiting area..

then a called her apparently "cuz" paitao cuzin...

haix...

on her bdae??

i was so like angry at "cuz"

urgh!

then i decided, im treating you to a birthday

dinner at Siam kitchen.

we ate to our hearts content and left.

yeap.

we had fun, and we even toked the whole nyte....

haha

last train from cck to bn lay, 12 midnite.

must take note of that...

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went home and bro msg me..

aww.. i soooo sooo miss him la..

that guy needs urut big tyme la.. badan asik cramp je,

ask him to come ma house i give him full body for free tak nak..

jual mahal.. nak *8888* yang urut...

watever..

nak suro urut pn nk pilih orang, here i am, gud at sumting,

he dunwanna make use of me...

dumbo. haha..

anw we talked on the phone for sooo long,

me missing his voise so much finally got a penawar just by hearing him speak,

hmm did i actualli went to sleep.

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today,

im sending anne to JB w he Bf..

going by train and

then im fetchin myra from work..

yeah...

see how this best fren tries to make all his sayangs happy?

hmm..

i love all my bestfren..

how i wish i can marry them all..

all at one shot..

haha.. deng...

or.. marry someone that has all their traits!!

im waeting...

hopefull god grants me a girl that has all my bffs traits...

i'll be head over heels man!!!!

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tiilll here then,

Ryan Out!!

It became a hurricane of negativity..

Just as i tot things' cant get any worse, it did.

this is my story.

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SAturday

the past week was so much of work that i fell sick and today didnt

help at all. I was so sick that i tot today was a FRIDAY. So i woke up at 10am not realising the timing at all. Cousin gave me a ring followed by my bro.

Both were shocked that i wasnt at werk. They were asking

"What time you wokring? arent you suppose to be at work?"

My reply?

"no la today i work at 2pm."

Them.

"r u sure? hmm klah usually u werk morning ryte on weekends.."

Me.

"what d'ya mean? it's friday wad"

Them.

" friday?!! it's freaking saturday alry la deyy wad have you been doing?"

Me.

"WHAT????!!!!!!!! Shit im late. IMma have to call you back.."

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So i tot the responsible thing to do was to inform the supervisor ryte?

WRONG!

With a BITCH as a supervisor, ur life can nver be easier!!

I text her.

"Sorry ****** Im super late as i've overslept. Do you still need me to come? As i may take a longer time to reach Bedok at this timing."

SHE.

"YES. What type of question is that? Now the question comes back as How many off days are you about to barter off? Be here by 10.30am"

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**dear readers please take note that i stay in JURONG WEST EXTENTION. The deepest part of JURONG. half an hour to get to Bedok? No no No... EAST COAST PARK!

Syabas! I salute the way she thinks! Clearly that Masters in Sports Management taught her how to be "CLEVER". Yeap! REALLY "CLEVER"**

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Da abes keje? She gave me a earful of 45mins, thus making me loose sleep for SUNDAY!

WTF kan? common sense tak you waste my time, i come home late, i wake up late.

BTW, she ended ma work on Friday at 10pm.

By the time i reach BoonLAy? 12.25am Just nice for me to miss the last bus home.

I had to walk home.

CB!!!!!!!!!

Expecting the worse? yes. Sunday i was 1/2 an hour late. she gave me a farking look!

i was sick and i have to face shit from her.

Clearly i dont expect people to understand me but most people are.

Some are just difficult to get thru.

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From my crap, readers, you may think im playing victim.

you think like that??

how bout one week of you in my shoes?

you hate the place that you're wokring,

you hate the boss,

the boss despises you,

you hate the job,

the boss throws her job at you,

when you did it she went thru evry single mistakes saying

you are a careless human and is never good at what you do,

and you're reporting at five,

MIND YOU,

FIVE!

freaking work locations.

at your own expense,

having to deliver heavy products thru n fro centres,

at your own free time,

even that you get reprimanded again and again by this BITCH that barks

at you 24/7,

and you trying your hardest to make ends meet,

hold in your anger SOooooooooooooooo much that you are at the brink of crying,

again and again,

that kinda stress,

which is depriving you from sleep, and mentally torturing you,

and when the mental one is continuous,

another tortures you physically,

and on top of that, top of my "WONDERFUL" list of NEgative 'sundae'

the cherry, FAMILY PROBLEMS!

now see who's the victim and who's giving their sugesstion

telling me wad i shud have done.

Tell me your opinion now.

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Hmm saturday nyte, i called bro whu happend to be out with my love.

then both decided to punk'd me.,, nice thought. if i wasnt angry i would have found it funny.

AKU BARU KENEK MARAH DENGAN BOSS FOR LIKE THE WHOLE DAY ADN YOU GUYS ARE PLAYING A PRANK ON ME? ARE YOU FREAKING STUPID AND OUT OF YOUR MINDS?

I was so angry at them i screamed at bro and wouldnt answer any of their calls.

*round of applause to you guys uh*

apparently i was ok when i cooled down.

we all forgave each others and that was that.

hmm never i was so angry and these two people and they broke the record.

bestnye korang!

tapikan, we'll look at this one day and laugh...

we were laughing that nyte itself btw.. haha.. silly mistake...

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Sunday was kinda normal but i had to make a lot of phonecalls.

cutting it here.

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Monday.

alledgely my official off day?

postponed.

work at tradehub and storhub.

location?

thub-jeast, shub-kallang.

start at 8 ends at 3pm.

4pm rush to bbdc for my 502 which i failed again.

darn it.

but better.

26 points and 1 immediate failure.

i could have gotten 10points. i know what to do now. hehe..

then rushed to silat.

i have missed silat for so long that im losing a lot from it.

it is ma passion and it is a responsibility to attend it.

my kewajipan.

competitions or friendly are coming up close and for our base,

none of us can even fight properly.

abg zul came out with a Clinic.

intensive trg. 15 nov. *nnt u read abt this*

so i signed up paid for it. 5 hour clinic and is expected to can actualli fight by the end of

the clinic.

and we may have to go JB for friendlys.

then i had to chill out.

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Tues.

worked at Storhub.

VERY TIRING.

Physically i was drained. Mentally, im dead.

so i just did wadever i can.

then went home at 4pm.

i was so tired.

i slept the moment i touched the pillow.

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Wednesday...

IM OFF.

still i got lots to do.

morning. car pract.

afternoon motor pract.

i noe im out of cash

out of energy,

out of spirit.

but this i HAVE to do.

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Regarding the silat clinic.

I txt that bitch this.

"Hi ****** i have confirmed the date of my intensive clinic

15 nov, 2-6pm

please take note."

SHE.

dier punye dengki!!!!

" hi farrian it is not possible for you to go as im gonna have

a roadshow to attend to and need you to change the training date to another day"

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Once again i salute how she tinks uh.

apprently when you're that smart,

youre STUPID.

Your DUMB.

an IDIOT.

Evry single possible about you is DENSE.

you've practically degraded your brain into a brain of a homo sapien.

dulu mcm ye-ye ckap,

and i quote,

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"We as sportmen shud understand together, and should be flexible,

so i agree to let you off for competitions, trainings and etc."

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My ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Such a liar, a hater, such a hypocrite!

you know wad, im going to teach her a lesson.

it's about time i break out of my shell.

I tot i wouldnt wanna be a bitchy jerk anymore, but this i must do.

pompan jalang nie memang kene ajar..

kurang ajar terlebih...

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-Pictures at multiply are updated.-

http://dralfariyan89.multiply.com

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PS im now constantly angry all the tyme!

turntable...

Previous post really explains how "happy" i was ryte?

Hmm well it got better apparently.

Jus that i needed some time off wif SOME people.

Hmm but well im not regretting the tyme off, it's rather useful...

I've began to forgive others and take things rather positively i must add.

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Monday.

PHOL.

Got the day off. spent tyme w Vyang.

Rather a considerable one.

Not gonna go into detail.

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Tuesday.

Hmm kinda okok day for me as ive received some rather

good news from a fellow fren about some things.

and at BAL, WL doesnt really disturb me as ma job was only

to label the Uhlmann and China Sabre, Foil n Epee masks.

And i even l;abelled the cupboards.

So practically that was that.

And WL even taught me how to do sanding on a weapon,

which, i forget. wahwahahah..

wateve..

then i got a call from ms teo.

a rather good news i might add..

I'll be working at the Aramis Warehouse w Kurt for the whole weekend,

*which in the end 2 days only.. will xplain. read on*

ok i was jumpin w joy coz the warehouse is at tradehub21.

JURONG EAST..

so near..

hahaha..

I dun mind working there for a month!

ok.

then went home and the day ended there.

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Wednesday..

1st day report to tradehub.

lagy best i was late.

i text kurt saying that im gg to be late..

he replied "Nvm, i oso late haha"

idiot ryte..

gini pon jadi mgr? haha..

ok la tuu.. at least not like E.

da late bukan nak apologise or wad, buat suke ati nenek2 dier je muker masam..

ok.. wad i had to do?

pack all the breeches, plastrons, lame, jackets, shirts

socks, shoes, mask, blades and etc..

i took 2 hours.

kurt was shocked. he took a whole day to do wad i did in 2 hours.

we went down, got komala's

and he blanja me.

kewl ryte..

then, he sent me off home. early..

between us je.. wakaka..

i work 4 hours je.

so, met up w berox for her haircut and makaning

before heading to USQ for free fencing..

haha.. it was fun...

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my opponet salu win the few rounds.

little did i notice, i did guard my arm. that's their scoring area..

duh!

after a few bouts, i got to fence with dearest eyla..

hahaha..

1st round.

5-4

i won.

2nd round.

4-5

i lost..

ahahaha..

idiot.. eyla noticed my unguarded arm..

i noticed she didnt guard her torso..

i aim torso la..wakakakaka

up till we went home she felt the pain...

anw, i fenced w this person, so hard that the epee bent.. hahahaha..

marah tuuu namernye..

then we took pictures and goodbyes..

haha..

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Thursdays.

standard. do job in 1hr and im done.

wonder wadddd that kurt do can take days..

i took less then an hour to complte a lot of things.

he sent me off for home,

i went back siap2

met anne n berox.

again makan n jalan2 then we head home.

myra n me had an awesome time and we chatted all the weay home..

i love u myra!

haha

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Friday.

dammit..

im sick

again!

then while otw to work,

left leg salah urat..

dammit..

waaahh..

E pile me up in paperworks and work and work..

she went makan n etc,.

i didnt even go for breaks.

practicaaly was busy the entire 9hour shift!

i did a lot you know,

tolong sly, kak nora, WL, T, Kurt, her job and etc and yet i manage

to complete everything on time and finish evrything pronto.

she can still terhengeh2,, padehal i was the one that do month end,

settlemetns, switch off lights and aircons, clean up the salle,

clear storeroom, close shop, and u know wad she did?

still packing her bag.

wtf!

i was sooo angry at her la..

im wating to lock up the plc alry she dilly dally mcm bapak dier punye time..

pfft!!!!

then she sent me off..

i gladly leave her..

CB!

i msg za and met her.,.

dearest za blanja me makan nasi ayam at bedok...

awww

*hugs*

miss her leii....

hmmm than i had to rush home kejar kan last train,

how i wish i have a car.. or bike,,,

tkyah rush2..

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ryan out!

AM I SUCH A BOTHER?

Im having mix messages from people i love most.

My BFFs, my family, my frens, my co-workers, mgrs, and bosses....

I feel as if im such a bother to them, i am not the usual me,

no longer noisy and etc..

But why people treat me as if, "Oh here he goes again!!~~"

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This whole week ive been sad as my heart is churning as the one i love is

giving me super mix messages and im hating the feeling that im getting.

On top of that, i my dear besties have been excluding me from things,

with or without their knowledge,

giving me that kinda look where they have to be forced to listen to me,

or when talking to them or texting them and it seems their not interested.

some even went to the extent of snapping at me and shutting me off..

family members have been giving me a lot of "WHY ARE YOU SUCHA ******* SLEEZE?"

kinda atitude towards me.

Then when asked about it they say "NO LA WHERE GOT?"

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I dun need the unwantedness la.

hmm making me feel like im a fifth wheel is enuf, makin up

lies to say that this is this, that is that...

apparently some people, when going out with me,

be it frens or family,

hp busy w messages and call...

and instantly they reply those. without caring wheter you are there or not,

wheter u are toking to them or not..

they just go *click-clackaty-click*

but...

biler part me yang message or call,

aLmost Impossible to ever reach them,

even da dapat, they cant spend the time of day to actualy give

me a chance to have a decent chit chat or sms...

it's ok..

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I get it.

I know when im not wanted.

This week im going to shut myself off..

Im tired,

exhausted and falling sick.

again.

im taking up responsibilties the size of america and

im not getting enuf pay.

work is hell.

i hate working esp if it interfere with my social life.

i feel so pathetic and

feel pathetic at myself for feeling miserable.

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I dun enjoy good life huuh..

well yeah..

i need REST.

from everythin.

maybe it's just me or what.

i also dunnoe.

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IM shuttin off evryone.

dun worri if u guys message i'll reply.

but im not meeting anyone anytime soon.

aku kan macam menyusahkan korang kalo jumpe.

hmm.. only that im meeting Za for lunch tmr, and that's it.

i will be out from your life till which you find that i have a need for you.

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today, at Vyang's also the same.

sudahlah.

i give up!

bye!

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Last day alone at work.

Sunday! finale.
hmm i wanted it to end soon. as im much anf far too tired.
working alone and travelling here and there on public transport is a really tiring and
exhausting thing to do..
The struggle to wake up at the right time, get the right train or bus..
im not likin it...
hold on there ryan... 4 more months aje...
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ok the day has not ended yet but early morning da kenek ngan nasty customer
hmmm naseb baek kak nora telepon..
evryone is expecting sly pat sini. but then bimbo tu tkd.
me alone la. only 6 more hours to go and i can go home!
ytd str8 after work went to Fajar ader salam lebaran,
there's taufik batisah, which reminds me so much of bro,
aliff aziz, mcm fake gitu but i like his voice,
ziana zain, my ever ever ever idol!,
natasha,
ravelina,
dato m daud kilau, he is a corny one,
ali world frm anugerah, deleriously hilarious..
i was enjoying the nyte, in ma sweater and in that hot place tapi
tak dapat raser pnasannye. fact it is as if
im sitting at salle ryte nw. cold as hell.
hmmm LRT ride home and then me maklang, makbusu, her children,
mum n desy went makan at mcdonald's je24(entertainment centre)..
Service rating 2 out of 5.
sucks big tyme.
nonetheless i was sleepy and was in need of a shower as im sooooo sticky
went home in a cab, shower, shaved and packed ma stuff,
the off to Vjyang;s hse. He went down to get something and i let myself in
surprisingly his family treats me like ma femily treats him,
as if i live there.. hahaha..
mcm tk sadar im a guest.. it's a good ting..
that means im family!!
aww...
stayed over and had a sleepover...
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Anw ive had a gr8 news and have yet to reveal it to the world.
stay tuned for that.
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tonight im going to Vjayang's house again...
insyallah can sleepover again.. sok kan diwali can rest longer..
plus today is ma sister desy's birthday...
HAPPY BDAE DARLING!
Ur present kenek tunggu sampai i abg ader gaji k..
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Being alone at work is fun as i can blog n yada2 and noone disturbs me,
but i have to handle crap from people a lot.
alone!
i hope somedays at BAL dapat work w kak nora again
and at PWP dapat work alone.
with no corny customers.. idcare...
haha..
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wadever..
i also cancelled mcdonald's as i need rest!
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plus there;s no silat tomoro.. alhamdulilah dapat rehat and meet Vjyang agian ke...
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Busy week.. im alone at work!

It has really been a busy week aint it? Hmm wholesomely spent my time on work and nothing else.
Hmm on monday i had ma 5.02 pract after 3 weeks of not coming to practs and surprinsingly i can ride without falling and almost 8 times i almost fell but managed to handle the handlebar properly.
That was close!
Hmm thing about my pract is, i failed. *deng*
i got 2 immediate failures and a total of 26 demerit points.
I dun know wheter i've blogged this but here it goes, yet again.
just read on.
For pillioning, i got a pillion the size of a mother-effing hippo. he's 4 times my weight and the slightest movements he makes wobbles the whole bike causing us a lot of danger. fakkawi him. told him to stay still degil, da accident baru tau. it was during ebrake, ngah speeding that fello moved! 3 times plak tuu. while changing gears, i almost fall of the bike. naseb tau counter that c-force. idiut siak.
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Tuesday.
Hmm. great and awesome day.
work with kak nora at BAL can never be better.
i loike!
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Wednesday.
1st day alone at PWP then have to go USQ for lesson.
OMG it was hell i tell u..
the students at PWP wasted a lot of time playing soccer and that deprives me of my fencing lesson. they took so much time that when i got to USQ, i was an hour late into the class. DARN it.
but the coach is awesome. It's ms teo.
she's funner to be with around.
hmm then i had a dream of Vyang. weird.
i muz be missing. i do actucalli.
oh well..
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Thursday.
i didnt sleep the whole nite ytd.
thinking about that 'love' so..... much so.
hmm..
then morning 1st day of dual working. been years since i done that and never
clashed like this before.
McD: 7am-12pm
Z: 2pm-10pm
i was sooo tired i almost gave up.
I was at the verge of breaking down. Tired from work, no sleep, thinking abt 'love'
I only ta pao sausage mcgriddle and that's practically my breakfast-lunch-dinner.
at Z.....
2nd day alone.
nothing happens much as the salle is practically open for enquiries.
no payment, no classes, nothing..!!
i had fun tho.
as i had a lot of phone calls and my hp is busy wif ppl i love.
Vyang even called me. Spent the time chatting with him.
and surprisingly, Vyang wanted to meet me.
I was tired but i dun care i went str8 to meet him up.
met him and he and wanted to have a light run but then it rained.
NO it POURED!!
heavy sia. from east to west!
NVm la so i went and had a sleepover at Vyang's as my clothes are all wet and
i was famished and tired so just sleepover. I miss Vyang a lot sia.. finally dapat lepaskan rindu.
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Friday.
had to wake up early as both Vyang n me work morning and i was late.
Mcd at 7, i woke up at 645.
bgos!
went to work but noone said anything.
mcm2 cutomer i face.
i was the runner.
hmm then pucnh out and manage to talk to ma MCd boss,
she symphatises with me and she's ok that im busy.
thank god. went to work and wanted to close shop early as ma dear bro picking me up from work.
but the budak2 saket ati. suro brambos tknk brambos, maen bola pulak. i switch off evrything pon masih maen bola. aku tendang bola2 pelih satu2 aru tau...
then one more irritating thing is, i close the POS alry, ppl wanna make payment.
wtf!! arent u aware of the timing. naseb baek she wanna bbl2 with E.
i cabot, met bro, he actaulli waetd for me for 2hrs plus. kesian kan. and send me home.
and he's off to meet his fren.
i went to Vyang's house and stayed over one more nyte playing Patapon. haha..
it was cute.
he had to go out to run errands so i was too tired to waet and fell asleep.
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this morning woke up late. not so late la. but not the timing i aimed and
i didnt press snooze instead i pressed cancel.
oopz!
then i just rushed to work la.
Vyang send me out.
Now im at work and im bored.
thinking that the worse of the worse cant happen,
ytd ma GM, T came down to check up on me.
He's impressed that im doing well.
but he says i have to be more observant.
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Ryan OuT!