Still in my sickness.

last saturday and sunday, disasterous.
Im guessing my temperature was around 38 degrees as i couldnt focus nor walk nor talk properly. ok.
woke up to monday morning. ryin was also sick. she didnt turn up for class and neither did i. My temperature was killing me. earache, blocked nose, painfully hot eyes, temple's burning hot. NOT my kinda thing man! *need to work on my immune system!*

even now as im typing these symptoms are also still around. but temperature was 37.6 okok. under control. with additional sore throat and my tonsils hurt.
Back to monday, i wole up around 12pm and was sweating cold sweat. gud one la. coz i lost a lot of temperature. i decided to get some fresh air and plucked the courage to get ready and to come to school. with eyla alry on the way, hmm gud. sync our timings. haha..

Managed to packed brg silat and off to school.
then after school met ryin n sherry. they had floorball selection. and... woah! the floorball population tripled the number when i first saw an actual floorball practice that day. nampak sangat all cabot training come for selection onli siak.. haha.. KNSCCB! haha..

ok. after their floorball, i was in a tremendous MOOD SWING, due to my sickness. added by sherry's anger from her work n floorball, plus, ryin's "phoenix" cause some fakkawi, who decided to shoot floorball's ball at her, phoenix shouted at the top of her lungs "EH NABEII LA! GOALPOST OVER THERE RYTE!"
in tt split second those boys stopped their nonsense, packed up and went home..

*Amazed at her anger outage, my anger n sherry's anger neutralised*
And we headed to silat. Z_____ wanted to train us (three), to be trainers at macan almukminin and invited us to train at cheng san for further "knowledge boost"..
*in ma hart, "WAD E! We just started sia"* Maner tak, we ourselves belo2 then she lantik us. haha..
we felt honoured and terharu and took up the challenge. insyallah we'll guide others to the best of our abilities.
(plus ryin had a dream of this, abg Z__ restu the idea. i dun see any wrong in doing so)

hmm tuesday, piss off day for me n eyla. long story short, we came when the day ended for evryone else. soo~ yeah. then went to library, none of us could borrow books. tuesday was terrible for me. haha.. i even had to cancell my pract, takot nnt huyung-hayang then accident. haha..

ryan out!
*nursing this bloody fever n flu n etc*

Clearly the week hasn't been nice to me..

Hmm. woke up to a monday blues.

tuesday also failed my 1.03. and flu was beginning..

just as luck was turning up, *which i passed my 1.03 wed and watched the dark knight* i was late for my class, and was late for the movie.
15mins-30mins into the movie, that was how late i was.
for the class? 45mins late!

thursday was the day i went for my 2.01 which tho i failed i had fun. Me n Along managed to dine at IMM tho, then it rained cats n dogs, *words that i havent use for so long*
oh yar. didnt go to school for this day. woke up late.

friday. symptoms of being sick started. mum went to msia. just as when im sick. hmm, *terrible la this mummy's boy*
i always need my mum when im sick. dunno why.
ok sick sikit2. then bro went for his 1.01, wen he got back, he started coughing in front of the fan. That's it! i got infected.

saturday. sore throat and fever was alry moving in. darn it. the day i paitao werk. i dun care. too sick to bother. i know they'll call n call i purposely switch off my phone. sibuk je. 4hrs. was the duration of them trying to reach me. then "she" sms me asking why i didnt go to work.
in my hart, no point of me explaining to them, nnt if they think it's alasan tk munasabah, they'll start to nag at me. no i juz show no interest at them.

Sunday, hmm today. woke up to 3 missed call and 3 msgs. from sae n dad. then dad called. i told him i got fever. he asked me to go nyai's house. **malas pulakk** not as if i can borrow his bike. his bike is in repair. then im too lazy to take the bus. so i just sat at home and rest and slept. i wish i have speedy recovery. i dun wanna be sick tomorro. tomorro got training seyy!!
i've been waititng all week for silat. i dun want this sickness to be my barrier..

insyallah i wont be sick. dear god please heal me... pweeessshhhhh!!!

ryan out!

THE POSESSION!

A lil thing i noticed on lil bro's blog. a clearer picture of wat happened at my aunt's wedding..

060708.

These are quotes from his blog. Definitely is malay is better than me. but read on. followed by two videos caught by me n ma sister.

read on.

""so listen, makcik aku nye first appearance as a Javanese Queen, pada masa dahulu, kedaulatan RADEN , royalty tak boleh pijak lantai, so kite harus prevent die from touching the lantai ah,using pakai kain batik..

example cerita puteri gunung ledang, kan princess raden tak touch lantai.Kene dengan atmosfera, pakaian, lagu pulak dah masuk, lagu mantera2 ah beb!Nyai aku mula fanatic, die alih alih jatuh ketanah, sembah makcik aku!

Berbual dalam jawa. Di hujung sana pulak nyai aku peh adik, berteriak kencang, pekik2 kene sampuk ah dok.. fanatic siol..

Yayi aku dah mantera2 dok, berbual2 ngan dorg dalam bahasa jawa,

So kasi minum semua, MAKCIK gua pulak, kakak pengantin, die salam pengantin ah, congrats ah gitu, sekali..., die pandang kepade matenye pengantin die mula "ROAR", jangkit, buka silat harimau, walaupun makcik aku ni takde background silat!

die paling rabak ah, semua tahan die.Kaki die angkat2 jari jemari macam harimau, lagu masih berkumandang,

TING TANG TENG TONG TING TANG TENG TONG...Semua dah okay ah after that, Datuk aku calm the situation, die pesan aku srh deejay off the song." ade pesanan, Diana jangan kasi pijak lantai, kalau tidak ade petir!"

makcik ku berkata dalam nada suara seram... pastu die kembali ke asal. so everything back to normal, sekali part pengantin terpijak lantai sebab nak salam guest die ah, luar alih2 ade guruh kencang, pengantin mula bertukar wajah menari jawa, makan bunga die ikatan rambutnya,alih2 senyum, selepas di baca2 die kembali ke asal. part ni salah satu sedara nyai aku dah kene pulak die fanatic, macam monyet ah tingkah lakunya.

di bawak kebelakang untuk "di ubatkan". Ketibaan pengantin lelaki, aku beralasnya dengan kain batik, sekali pengantin lelaki ter tendang sarungan lantai, hampir terpijak lantai! petir! directly sebelah die siolsss.. seram.... tapi tak sempat die pijak lantai bapak aku tahan die.. nasebbb!

PArt balik pulak ade pesan suruh alas pengantin dengan payung supaya elak dari petir, so aku disuruh ah, walaupon tak hujan kene alas ngan payung orbit dok.After that all was back to normal after they changed to their evening clothes at the pengantin lelaki's place. So end of the freaky day siols..

aku berbual ngan datuk aku, die kate " semua okay, cumer dorg2 ni ade "isi" ah datang ah penjaga dorg"yang sampuk nenek kau, " aku luper namenye DEWA something"nenek kau peh adik, "datuk aku pon tak tahu ape sampuk die"makcik kau, "Belang, the harimau spirit"pengantin herself,

"ade tiga masuk die, Dewi, something aku lupe, and Raden herself they are the > beauty, the pure and the kindhearted spirits"..aku speechless.. go figue ah dok.. seram. datuk aku relax jer.. cam dah biase jer.. kalau korg tak caye aku ade videos, enjoy...""

Below are the videos uploaded. on the top is the pengantin, rasuk by a queen or princess of the "gunung ledang" princesses time..

bottom is my Wak Nong. Possesed by a panglima. a pengadang a protector of the royalty. hmm... people just cursed our family.. eff u!!

Ryan out. Enjoy!

Im no longer working.

Hmm. truth is. ive been thnking to stop at mcd for a long long tyme and finally i have made a decision and has already done it. i applied for a "no paid leave" which also means 'tender resignation'.. it's the same thing in mcd, only, with no pay leave, if somewhere in the future i want to come back, i can just do that.

It's confirmed that this weekend is my last. But unfortunately, in a way, im sick and i didnt come to work.
Actually i have no intention to go either. No more interest.
Plus my mum n sisters is away for holidae at Msia. So nomore 50-50 thinking. Leaving the boys at home. so im alone as brother wont stay at home. Whole day is spent on sleeping. im down w fever, caught the virus from my brother la. haix.

But i dont think it would be too soon. And oh ya. dun think that when im not working im going to be free. Im not. perhaps i would be in the month of August. But after that, back to business as SEPT is a month of attachment and im hoping to get Innotrek. Hopefully w ryin n eyla or haikal or kip. or either one is ok. cause we cant tell our future. we see whoever gets innotrek. im bersyukur to work with that person.

Ayul is definitly going to FAS. so that's 6mths of not meeting each other.
And since im in a camp. this i wanna make sure. Food to be cut out. Half of whatever im eating. Seems like my food intake is getting from bad to worse. im ever hungry and im hating the bulges that is coming out from ma body. the tummy, the huge ass, the man-titties. UH-UH not a good look.
I wish to be slimmer and to look good and look better. For once, i dun want to be be fat one in the group. I miss being thin. I regret wanting to be fat. haix. since young i couldnt grow. i prayed to god that i wanna be fatter so tt people dun call me kudut la kering la cicak la etc. believe me. i was super thin n active till i was in secondary school and started eating beyond my usual servings. then now im fat. and am hurt even more. haix. names fat people get are more hurtful than skinny ones. hmm yet i am determined to be thinner, faster, fitter and stronger.

With a new health body and mind determine to get motorbike n car licence, insyallah i will be a more positive person and will be more optimistic. *wait, isnt tt the same?* haha..
hmm im waiting for the time. I dun want to be in NS with fat people now do i? Im working my way....

ryan out.

Butt-Cracks. Ugly or jiggly?

People nowadays. Haix. Sigh.

What's up with unveiling your cracks in public man?

It's not sexy at all!! UH-UH!! NO-NO-NO!

it was back last sunday that me syahin ryin n sherry were strolling along

the city link when tis lil mama walked across us with her butt crack in our direction and this freakin sL*t is pretty aware that evryone is starin at this ugly hole that is cellulite covered, darken by god-knows-what and is horrendous to even come near it.

It's like a negative force running up and down your spine giving you chills that really gives you the i-so-do-not-need-to-see-this vibe.

I mean wassup mannn!!!

EEWWW!

if she looks somewhat like JLO nevermind.

NIE, MUKER PECAH RABAK!!!!

like even 3rd world ugly people has nicer ass!

No doubt this happened last sunday the effing thing is, i saw it again today.

this time a male. WTF!!!

Secondary sch boy. b**N L*Y sec. OMG!

he aint wearin anything in those school shorts and his ass-crack is showing. ok maybe that's ok. His freakin frontal pubes is showing too!

and he is jumping up and down making sure that hair doesnt come back in, and making sure that rubbery stuff petruding out from his frontal zipper can be seen.

*think dirty and you know what im talking about*

hmm one more time i have to say, WTF man!!!

Havent these people evr heard of UNDERWEAR? Fyi if u dont wear one, it's one of those pieces of cloth designed to cover your u-know-whats so that it cant be seen! fakkawi! even matreps wear boxers tho it shows a lot. and minas G-strings. I mean STILL, IT's COVERED!!!..

nuttin is shown. and trust me those with underwear are way way hotter!

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Enuf tok about this freakin subject. it's makin me all nausea.

Oh yar. woke up late. so didnt go school.

*surprise2 ryin n eyla also nvr come*

whatever it is, i went for ma 2.01.

It's fun but then i got those fakkawi instructors tat always fail me. and ya. i failed. nonetheless at least now i knoe what im doing. names are Ch*ngF*i and H*rr*... i hate these fakkawwis..

But then i met kecique. same class kewl kan.. haha..

i even made frens while going downslope *SEMPAT!*

out of 10? only one passed. and the most blurr one that is.. haha..

next session is on tuesdae 615pm.

Lil bro also enrolled and tomorro is his 1.01.

wishing him all the best. Bought him a prezzie when i went out playing with rain w Along. haha

funni..

ryan out!

I love this day.. bro's bdae is a good luck dae for me.. haha..

Hmm first of all i would like to wish my lil bro HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY. May you stay happy all year long. and tag team take motor with me. kekeke..



i didnt get any photos cause i was at my pract 1.03 for the 4th attempt into gettin into 2.01. ans i passed. managed to go thru and im soo happy about it. It was MD TASHFIN again that taught me. Previous one was MD SUFIYYAN which i almost got it and now, ive nailed it. finally!!!

fyi rotten luck today was, i was super late for the session. it starts 615 i came 655! naseb baek they all let me in and had me doing round the circuit and as a result the instructors were very happy with my improvement and the chinese one which i didnt catch his name was smiling thruout the whole event. haha.. kewlness..



ytd was worse cause i fail the 1.03 but i know what went wrong and as a result i passed today. back to back kepe. oh yar. daddy got me helmet!! kewl ke pe.. ahha.. speaking of lateness just now, i decided to take a cab to BBDC. the fare was a freaking $9.50 lar!! from jeast leii! so freaking near.. FAkkawi driver!! but all's well that end's well. i passed.. weeehuuu...



ok.. after pract i called cousin to share the news and then mummy called.

"we're watching movie. r u cmg?"

Definitely. what a question!
haha..we went to catch........ THE DARK KNIGHT!! my fav hero of all times.


out of ten? i give a hundred!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ONe of the best movies ive ever watch!! the villian THE JOKER played by late Heath Ledger was sooooo scary that this DC comic flick is like watching a HOrroR movie!!!
It's not like the other superhero movies like the incredible hulk or ironman where you go oooohhh and ahhhhs at the powers or the gadgets only but this one! IT's gadget plus horror plus joker plus everything awesome there is to decribe a movie...
THIS IS A MUST WATCH FOR THOSE WHO HAVENT CATCH IT!!!

ryan out!

fcuk dae!

Hmm today was super horrendous. no doubt yesterdae i had fun with ryin sherry n syahin but vibes werent good. thru the night i had trouble sleeping..
woke up to a super MONDAY BLUE..
So far i have never felt monday blues as i alwaes look forward for it.. coz got macan mah.. hehe..
i was so freakin angry thru n thru the whole dae. easily irritated and easily irritates others.. hmm.. Clearly not my day..

and during training expect to get some padding action to release e tension but then none of padding today.. IDK why. i want padding n vest n etc.,., i wanna fight... it seems to be the oonly way for me to feel relieved of ma daily stress..

and oh yar. i guess my time in mcd has come to the near end as ive decided to stop working in aug. concentrate on skool n silat then attachment n silat. i dont care.. tis time i wanna all out..

ryan out!

ps.. still aiming for tt 4.0!

Spending time with fellow Fitness loves are so my thing!

Spent my whole day at Science Centre 'learning' about water, human body, electricity, marine animals, dinosaurs.... the list just goes on and on...
apparently attendance from my class is super excellent!! only 6 ppl!!! me yul eyla ryin arip n jaga. that't it. full stop!

surprised? watever.


wel we were brought there to like actually learn. but ended up, everyone just started fooling around and camwhored throughout the whole trip. Riyan is expecting an email from liah n pictures from his bff Eyla. but for now, riyan is only going to upload his share of the pictures.
some "trailer" pictures for you here..


visit http://dralfariyan89.multiply.com/ for more pictures n videos.

"*videos of FT clowns, trying to immitate the silat athletes there.*
riyan ryin ghani arip n esp eyla! haha.. funny stuff!"
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The most irritating children from HELL! Making uneccessary noises!!

On our freakin way to MAKAN!

Hmm.. eyla's worried about sumtin tt ryin is suspicious of... hmmmm...

The macam "pahamness" of the FT students..

Thanks for reading.

Do visit my multiply...

Ryan out!

Clearly, my language has been deteriorating.. (im having problems spelling this mind you!!)

Iwas blog hoppin, multiply surfin, ketchup-ing (mcD's frenster) and what i notice is, language used by other fellow singaporeans are getting from *bluerksz* to *va-va-vooom*!

I mean i feel like as if my english had been going from 'acceptable' to hell's hole.i dont know what's wrong with me. i think ive spent to much with people that doesnt converse in english for way way way tooo long. im even starting to either speak like apekz or pakcikz. the english either very cina or very the melayu.

See what i mean? hmm despite all these, i still have the ability to pick out other people's bad english and to those who practises excellent english, i salute you! i know how it feels to be around people that cant converse properly. thing is, im becoming like them. my english is becoming *cimpalakkk*

But of course those who do "speaking" i urge you to stop. you're embarassing firstly, yourself. next your family, then your friends and not forgetting your race. then there's the whole kaum. be it islam or watever. you see my point here? starting from now on, im practising good english. i dont care..

Cannot tahan leii like this.. singlish is soooooo not my thing. darn those singlish speaking people... they just made me stoop to their level of intellegence !!!

BEFORE ANYONE DID ANYTHING,
RIYAN DID EVERYTHING... Im Out!

PLEASE STOP ANIMAL CRUELTY!

Hmm. i dun get it with people. why result to animal cruelty? Why are you so hartless? why? why must you harm animals tt arent harming anyone? u castrate bulls, mark them with hot rods, cut piglets tails and ears, cut of chicken beaks and etc.

how i wish someone will do that to you!! i hate people whu treats animal with disrespect!! they have feelings too! fark la!

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hmm for ma peepz. i am updating ma multiply pics. visit my site yeah.

anak2 macan n nabila huda

Ryan's girlfriends.. Berox orion fern N shullie

Beloved aunty Kak Yan n Hubby Abg Luqman Hakim

Please visit: http://dralfariyan89.multiply.com/

ryan out!

Today is his last day..

with a heavy heart. ryan bids mr azlan kames farewell.

all those time we spent time together.
when we joked.
when we fight.
when we had problems.
when we faced discriminations from others.
you were there.

you even had to face the music to your superiors thanks to some of the bad apples (amongst us) and didnt even whine a bit.
but it wasnt in vain.
you thought us the skills to survive in life and now you are leaving us.

thank you so much for being there. u even helped me personally on accounts one time too many.

with that i would like to bid a good farewell to my beloved class advisor aka lan kekek..
XOXO.

we'll always cherish the memoirs created.=)

ryan out. ;(

my weekends

hmm wad weekends exactly?
boring ones.

friday. was forced to work la. i did party. this BEEGEEs family. saket hati uh. the children so effing degil. haix. but then when i get feedback, they saed it's excellent. altho i was so pedas to her and i was so kurangajar with her children. oh well BGs are like tt i guess.

saturday as usual werk. haix. met along ferst tho. early morning for brunch. we ate OCK. yummz. hmm then had to go to work. plus i have a lot of things to do. and i left at 6pm. and met bestie anne. we went to city hall breeks to have dinner. bestie anne, berox n shully was there. even a stranger was w us. faizal. man u r sooooo awkward around us lorr.. haha..
we gave anna a surprise MASSIVE ATTACK chocolate icecream with candles and such. IT WAS HER BDAE SURPRISE!.haha, hmm overall experience? i love it! onli tt it hurts my pocket la! haix.. i only had 30 bucks, i spent 20 bucks. my fish n shrimp lafayette is 16.70 plus anne's oce cream was 5 bucks and that's about it la.. im damned broke. tak per. once in a while. even my calories were above average on tt day.. haix..

now. sunday. im heading to PSK. watchin abg fite.this time i aint missing it and i wanna record it ryte in front. the one ryin n eyla record was shaky.. haha..
*but thx tho. i didnt miss the fite. i still get to see it*
now im meeting them at sports hall la. haix.. the ticket is 10BUCKZ sia!! freaking expensive la.. i hope todae abg will like lepak for a while or sumtin. hmm.. im bored la.. then da lamer nvr lepak w him kan like rindu like tt.

ok then. till here.. will update again.
ryan out!

You will never know tired unless u try circuit training.

Ok. so my week was a supra tiring one.

Mon, i didnt go to school as i deceided to not go. none of the bffs went anyways. but i took my FTT and i pass. finally after failure of my fte twice! so next stop, PRACTICAL CAR! the waet at bbdc is horrible man 3 hrs of waeting!! i was almost late for macan lor and i was dead famished. oh yar bumped into this ft jan07 guy i 4got his effing name la. damned it he seems like a nice guy.

tuesday yeah. my ferst dae of school. as usual i was late. overslept and caused eyla 13 missed call. last call i picked up, she screamed in anger at me. i was too sleepy to hear, all i hear is blahblahblah, rain. haha..
ok after school, i was bored. lepak 4 a while and then went for my RTPs. i booked 3 sessions. all worth it lor! haha.. i tell u y later.
A nd then back home to sleep.

wed. i big dae for me. school end at 11am. lepak w bbfs. after HELL CIRCUIT TRAINING!!! im having my 3rd tyme running repeating my 1.02. i know. pathetic ryte! this time im more expert at stopping n etc. haha.. while awaiting for the results....... then finalyy with the help of instructor johnny too i was able to pass the subject. and *thanks cuzzin for the arm warmer.* i came in handy. i was sooo overjoyed!

thurs. nuttin much. eyla n ryin paitao me to school.. so practically evryone's clique wasnt there la. i was with ekin, ais n jaga. of all ppl? i know. haha. so we went to class, strength training.
*btw im still fat! dammit*
then selling technique and then off home after lunch. went home, slept and went for my RTE.
i passed!!! wee~~~ ferst try. 90% min. kewlness..

fridae. bffs came. ryin had stomach upset and were merlion-ing the whole dae. we met R__ sooo sombong lor. i mean he seems like a nice guy, a looker, gr8 features skali SOMBONG! and to the max. i mean, u r frens w like FT ppl man. tk perlu aper smbg. biler ahmad arab ader je ko nk step maner nyer baek. oh yar. ahmad was there. kewlness.. i miss him kepe. then i went to work.. now im sleepy and im turning in.. nights!

ryan out!

THe truth about love..

hmm you'll never know they true meaning about love until uve met people that shows TRUE LOVE to you. i read deary eyla's blog and wad ady wrote about her really made me wekk..
i have never regretted declaring them as my bestfrens.
i have never been exposed to true love until ive met them.
i love them sooo much..too much in fact..

my bestfrens:
to sufiyan.
the big brother i nver had. i love u so much. uve shown me wad are my true potential thru ways that can be seem harsh. but at the end of the dae, it's ur werds n ur teachings that really make me use my brain and think!. we've been thru soo much together, and we manage to stay brothers thruout, despite of all the fights n anger felt between us.. ure still there for me. i love u sooo much!

to eyla n ryin.
each of different personalities. but each with her own stregths. ryin with her robust waes but at the same time a gentle person and is the most flexible person ive been with.. i love u hunnie.. hmm i treat her like my adek ok! anyone dare to hurt her, i swear i'll curse ur whole damned entire generation. and then there's eyla. without her, im a wreck! she's my brain, she my hart, she's my laughter and sometimes my tears. and i am that to her. she is a twin of mine. but a female version of me. hmm i really appreciate her alwaes being there for me and always sorting my problems for me. thanks hunnie. i harts u!

to ayul, shul, myra, anna and sherri.
hmm u guys are alwaes on standby to listen to my evry woes. ILYT!
of which wout u i cant stand on my own 2 legs.

to my dearest aunt, kak yan.
i love you sooooo much. uve helped me thru and thru and in ur family ur then only one i love next to nyai. but you know theyre full of lies and deceit and i know that theyre lying as i am of their blood. but u, u r the most sincerest person and the most honourable human i can ever look out to. and i hope ur husband will treat u well. i love u kak yan

to my mother.
the bestfren that ive had since i was just a bloodclot in ur womb. i love you ibu! i will never wanna see you cry again. after the 19 years of hell uve been thru w my family n my frens n my enemies and my crap u r STILL there for me. i love u soooo much.. may god bless u...

to my late grandmother.
wan, tho uve moved on, and after that 5 mths of hell of depression i was in, finally i and u are at rest. i no longer feel the lost. i accept u as one of God's now. we shall meet one day, some day, in heaven. love you so!

hmm.. readers. u'll never know how much ppl love u till there taken away from u.. so.. take care of them. u are blessed w them. and they re blessed to have u.. god bless!

hmm.. take care yeah!
ryan out!

happiness followed by anger..

ytd, hmm well i did the evaluation and i did awesome! and also managed to applied fo the provisional.
that really made my day.
met cousin spent more than 20 bucks on food.
from b.gombak to b.batok to cck to b.panjang to jelapang to cck again to jeast to bugis to toa payoh and back home. aint happy about the travelling trying to find sumtin that obviously is difficult to find. i give up. not bothering to find it anymore.

today, had ma practical..
the damned instructor is giving me a hard time plus the goddamned hot weather and the jacket and im wearin contacts and wadever that can actualli go wrong la.
ugh! so fucked up.. i was soooo pissed at him i swear to u i can just knock him down mann.
. damn that apek.. worlds apart between strict and rude la.. he saed his teaching is strict.. UP YOURS!
and then ended up i gotta repeat tt subject.. i was also angry at maself coz i did expect maself to be soo kaku.. well i did and then finding the right gear is also fucked up.. cibai.. yellin and yellin how to learn. naseb ma 1st tyme. malay boy 2nd tyme. chinese auntie, FREAKIN 5th tyme lor!
with tt kind of instructors, noone will maju.. haix..

to destress, i met beloved eyla n khalid. to have dinner. at zamzam.. we spent freakin 31 bucks on briyani n murtabak la.. fakkawi!! angry sia.. but then nice meal la.. and then we went shoppin.. me bought star pendant and khalid bought tt female pants. haha.. hmm.. wadeve.. as long as u can flaunt it.. and flaunt it well. it's irregardless of sex. haha..
hmm then sent princess home and then off back home. hmm.. i lost ma mood right after the train headed to boonlay. i think abt today. poor khalid, tried to be nice to me but i was 24.7 checkin the phone. as i was angry my whole planning disrupted due to the failure la.. hmm argH!
i dun handle failure tt well dont i? hmm..

i am a perfectionist afterall.. see what i mean. hmm.. angry angry angry!!!

ryan out!