Hmm.. last dae in april...

Having a ICE CREAM-OMENT!

It was school and school.. me and ayul fooled around playing catching and as a result i fell.. darn you ayul!! haha.. but it was fun.. then stayed back with eyla and was talking about our thoughts about attachments and changes and classmates to Ms Carine.

Obviously my favourite teacher.. duh! haha.. well ayul likes mr muthiah.. me, ms carine.. someone has to have a favourite.. but of course mr azlan is alwaes the most beloved haha.. the on super patient teacher.. wakakaka.. too patient.. we did a lot of bonding! wee thanks ms carine!

ok.. ive uploaded some pictures at my multiply. of course having a new camera phone, nids camwhoring, so do drop by and comment me yeah.. the link is located on the right side of the page... hmm.. so many things happend and too little time to tell about it. so im letting time phase thru, the werk phase thru, the school phase thru as im very letchargic trying to catch my breathe.. fuyoh! tired.. not enough rest..

ok.. wats up?

hmm,

ok if u tink im free? think again.

there's e usual werk, STAR duties, school and family problems. waet..there's more...

there's MAEC CC duties, as well as student councillor duties on top of that, im saving up for 3k braces and ma driving license.. i tink im overwerked.. simply no tyme for my silat nor excercise.. OR~ LYFE!

some things tt i need to catch up on.. darn it.. hmm.. how how how to focus? and how to balance?

see.. now im sick hmm.. ok lar.. till here.. below is some pictures im uploading.. to see more PLEASE VISIT MY MULTIPLY...

Me, Ryin N Daniq Archelis

Ryan N Stars n Restaurantuer:

From Upper Left: Cabbie Steven, Aunty Chenie, Amelia(RM) N Ryan

From Bottom Left: Shi Min, Christine N Janet

PS: tmr got ironmen!! outing w bgr n mr azlan.. wee~~~

After im gone for a week.

ok.. sorry for not updating for soooo long.. i had trouble with my internet la.. *deng* the computer..
hmm..

short updates.
-class planned bonding time. we gg movies.. this thurs..
-i had to mop whole of BB mcd as the pipes choke.. eww!! all STARs n Mgrs were called out to help.. darn..
-Went to BMerah mcd for STAR class. had lotsa fun..
-ayul had ACL omg!! still degil lak tu.. wanna strain summore his knee.. later operation than u know.. *deng*
-Eyla dyed her hair..
-Me, i got a NEW phone!!! nokia 5610 xpress music!! wee~
-bumped into nurul n anak buahku, daniq.. hahaha.. it was nice..
-bonded more with chenie.. aww so sweet..
-think im in love.. hmm another phase for ryan? we'll see..

today, did nuttin much.
ayul blanjer us ice cream.. yumm.. thanks bro..

then went to dentist for cabot gigi but tk jadi. doctor was angry at me..
waa~ ask me to go get braces.. wadda.. im saving up to get 3K!! anyone can spare me?
gotta werk ma ass off mann!! darn it.. hahaha..

ok im now at home officially sick. wakaka..
miz tt abang. nvr msg me or do anything me for 3 weeks. hmm..
dun wanna think much abt it.. feel left out n hurt? yes. but then muz be understanding tt he;s busy.. im oso busy w werk.. now im sick..

za.. save me.. 11th may jgn paitao pls... bring me tenniz!! pweesh..

ok my eng is crappy now.. im sick n cant focus properly.. had a tiff w ma dad over sms.. hmm very upset in hym.. tryin to give him a 2nd chance to love him but then he smushed evrything making me wanna hate him.. hmm not hating him la.. haha.. hmm im trying to be optimistic remeber.. haix..

Trying to accept lethargism as a part of my life.

Hmm the fact is that, i am losing sleep. was at BK today w miza, ryin, eyla, ahmad arab and some jan intakes peepz icld debbie n yus, and i was there, snoozing away. i even forgot i have to to to nyai hse today to take ma school notes money and money for school fees, of which i owe the school $15.

Hmm in class i had fun wif Mr azlan. he's extremely fun today toking about attachments. yes people. CGR is undergoinf preparations to go for attachments. hmm im super worried about the places that we can get attached too. ITE, not paying for attachments. For sec schools, cannot. school examinations and principal wont allow such Excercises happens in their school. so it's too bad for mates that wants to be attached at schools.

As for me, ryin and eyla, we are all trying our luck at JWT kindergarten Kids gym at Kallang. i hope i get it. i just love working wif kids.
*also a reason why i miz hangging ard daniq and why im stuck at mcd for so long as a STAR. Yup! KIDS!
hmmm.. apparently both of them share the same passion as me.. not regretting callin them BFFs. haha..

Hmm then got a highly spoken speeched msg by Za about some event this 11th May. Hmm she requested me to take OFF. im thinking about it. Kalau smuer da sah jadi, then i take oFF. OK za? Nnt i take then only me gg, i wasted my chance to bodek w ma boss. wakakaka..

Hmm..
I am actualli very KOCAK-ed in my head la.. hmm very busy..
Ok here's the thing.
1) i have regular updates from ma CA regarding class updates.
2)I am planning a class outing for the class, Movie nyte.
3)I am planning a class chalet this June. and i quote 'CLASS'.. ok..
Classmates if ure reading, jgn ckp i didnt sae ok.. and dun invite any people tt is not from the class or FT for all i know.. kalo da btol2 tk ckop org jadi, then last resort we bring our frens and stuffs kiez? lom conferm..
4) tmr i have meeting at KAP, the hQ.. Got STAR update class.. at 2pm!!! im schling sak.. chitod drg!
5) friday meeting at Bukit Merah Mcd. STAR updates 2.. hmm 4pm full tyme, 6pm part tyme STARs..
6) I have lots of housing agent thingy to do..
7) daily email request, by werk n schl..

peepz tt think im lying about being busy, take a look la ehk.. malas nk explain2..

ryan off..

FUN Day!!

At school, a fella was avoidin me.. hmm prob at home gak nyer.. nvm didnt bother.. after school jer ok balek.. wad e..
ok today was kinda fun.. we went to see nurul at kkh.. finally mummy nurul gives birth to baby daniq!!! happy bdae boy! haha.
went to see her.. ward 32 bed 5.. omg.. she looked super tired.. haha.. duh! wad a comment.. hmm omg daniq is sooooooo adorable.. i went w aini, eyla n ryin.. haha.. we went makan chix rice, yumm.. then bought daniq n nurul ELMO!!!! the helium balloon.. and a card.. CUTE!.. im posting pictures soon..

anw.. whu is "nameless" in ma tag? wad e.. sae ur name la.. sardine je blog letak "nameless".. wakenabeb.. kentot.. haha..

hmm.. after visit nurul, went to bugis.. wee~ shoppin!! wif ma bff, haha.. biler nk balek pnat.. wakakaka.. hmm today tho ryin banyak klakar seram nyer.. wakakaka..

#1 almost hit by a truck.. wad e.. i managed to save her.. chey hero pe.. the truck's a bitch!
#2 the train jerk she almost fell on an apek when she want to seat down beside eyla
#3 while eating the cream puff, "oreo" flavoured, she blew some of the bits off the cream puff, and had trouble biting off the puff.. me n eyla had a pecah perot moment.. hahaha

ok la.. i tink it's until here tt i can remember.. im busy.. lots of school things to do.. yawnz!

Hmm.. lethrgic rules ma week.. yet again..

woke up to 14 missed calls from eyla, trying her best to wake me up. thx for e effort gerl! *hugs* ma bff! hhahaha..

went to school.received a bad news regarding our class performances. hmm very very bad huh.. hmm i hope with the current 3 pointers and above may help to boost the class's reputation.. and the 'downsided' ones are kicked out of the course.. mr A is being too nice to the class la. he needs to be more stronger.

lessons after lessons made ayul almost late for his trg as the last class was dragged.In between tho i managed to masage Jonathan, a new intake person. eyla, yus, wan, ayul, elynn and miza. damned tired man. the boys seems to have problems near the hip flexors. gerls will definitely be the neck up..abt the class lateness, even eyla was caught up being almost late for work. then we dined at Jun's corner having the best nasi sambal goreng around. wif miza eyla yus n wan.

Visited ma store to check up on my beanies and was greeted by my beloved staff and mgrs, the gave me a unified "bye-bye ryan". Aww so sweet.. led by ma boss of course.. hahaha..
then off to 106 to go town, miza trg, eyla werk, yus n me too raffles hotel to see his HR.

then headed home in ma half hearted self as im so lethargic. caught power napz in class, in the bus and at gym but still, lethagism is still there. hmm the eckhart tolle book really opened up my mind. and i quote.
"The pain-body, that is suffering from unhappiness has an addiction to being unhappy. be it themselves or people around them to be as unhappy as they are."

*being unhappy is addictive unconciously.. peepz please stay happy!

from boon lay, i was greeted by the angry showers of the rain, beating against the metal zinc ceiling of the interchange. and the mrt plus bus was super jammed packed. i had difficulties breathing and on top of tt, BO!! god damned it!

to liyang, hmm take care dear. i felt so sad. i almost cried. dan n me shares the same fate with THE father; because of a B****?.. except i dun have any older sibs to bela me. that's why i am whu i am today. stronger and more protective. he doesnt dare to sentuh me now. BE STRONG. Stand up for urself n ur sibs. BE A LEADER. dont ever live in fear.. know that.. U have a right.!! know your rights!! take care..

True blue fun sunday,,

Today, werked at toa payoh.
amazing thing, i werk w aunty kam! wee~
had a lot of fun..
hmm wish i can werk with her again..haha..
TPI mgr, sucked la.. rude.. 1st asst dier..
hmm wadever. i had fun.. haha..

then dropped by at BB, met ma lovely boss. haha..
hmm kinda fun having a female boss.. i love it! waakakk.. very ON MY SIDE! wawaw..
hmm den tok2 to her, tok2 to shimin.. then im off to meet along..

had fun having chix rice at IMM,
tok3.. loved it.. wawaw.a..
then jln2 here n there.. hmmm finding a language school.. planning to learn a new language..
hmm.. wonder wad language..

anyway i msged u alry leii liyang. haha.. wasted leii pnjng2.. haha.. hmm, im gnna col u soon k.. as and when ure free, please call ma hp, im emailing u ma phone num.. take care dear..
smile..

track:
myra lost hp.
eyla lost hp.
liyang lost hp..

please look after ur phones peepz!!

What can i sae.. im really not in the mood today..

ok.. werk was werk..
did some major pack up for e renovation..
i did a lot of hostessing as party laz min cancel..
tmr, i'll b werking at toa payoh int.. TPI..
mgrs there arnt frendly. aunty kam cummin to observe me.. wadever..
damned piss w some several ppl.
i koled n koled n smsed n smsed. didnt bother to answer.. not gnna further cmmnt..
realli pissed me off la..

cousins came at mcd and surprise2 both were nice to me. ma sis was w them too. got them a job tho. werking as beanies. hmm. hope they dun paitao. really not in the mood to entertain tardiness. cousins was nice. very nice. in fact too nice. realness or masking up the bad? wadevr. tryin 2 b optimistic here.

hmm..
wokie.. after bff myra lost her hp, bff eyla lost hers.. poor things.. i pray tt u guys get ur phones back.. i can really applaud maself n bff eyla.. we're each depressed of each other's woes yet we nurse one another's wound. thx bestie!

hmm..
miz a fella, trying to reach e fella but i guess fella was busy.
took the tyme of dae, in ma busy werking schdule, to text e fella. nope. didnt bother to repli.
upset! very upset.. no worries. i pretend im ok with it..

the weeks' a killer. and the weekend is a major amputation of the brain juice from e body. the body aint rested enuf for the hectic week. and continuing for u e upcoming week.

msg: Liyang if u r reading this, give me a col i nid to tok to u.. urgent ayte. regardin werk.

My supposed free fridae..

hmm.. i was abt to relax, then came.... WERK!!!
haha..
ok la.. i woke up late.. at ard 1pm.. werk kul 2pm nie.. tk kluar2..
even managed to chatt with wan n yus lagik!! *deng..*
i saw them on web cam.. lamerrrr tk jumper wan.. rindu pe!
wawawaw..they ask me to view them.. webcam..
yus dgn tk pkai baju at the backgrd walking here n there mcm bangla, like bodo, jln here n there, wan lagik best.. suro ukor leher dier.. wadafark!! he sey, "can put rings or not?" bodo! haha..

ok.. then off to werk.. read the new earth.. trying to be "awakened"..
haha.. did the party at BECC, at bukit batok east com centre.. the place sooo reminds me of ma old store.. aww.. reminised.. the children? idiots.. whole time making noise ajer!.
darn children.. but i had fun.. tapi review kenek 'good' ajer.. darn it..

hmm.. after werk, had somemore werk.. paper werk.. darn it.. i hate the upcoming renovation la.. sooo hectic.. hmm.. okok.. so did all the werkk.. alek rumah... more werkk.. but mr azlan n amelia... woah!! ryan is a busy man.. whole tyme doing werk, was chatting w anna on e phone.. sampai panas telinge.. hmm.. i waeting for eyla nie.. nk joke ard... hahah..

check out ma class blog.. i made for all.. http://www.cgr-cgc.blogspot.com
leave ur tag yar!!

funny chat..

the funny chat i had w hyrul. dun bother tu undastand... we both tok crap hahaha.. towards the end got lotz of speeling error yg buat keke rabak!!! wakakaka... kebodohan kiter terserlah!!! wakakaka!!
hmm see lar.. now i cant sleep ledi.. haha.. hmm..
lethargic la sia.. hmm very very lethargic... this post serve no purpose sia.. wakaka.. see u tmr!!

ryan off!!

A blessing n a curse?

hmm.. werk and school has lately made ma lyfe miserable..
not tt it's necessarily bad, jus tt, im totally lethargic!!!
totally.. lagi2 when im havin sleeping problems, it so doesnt help!!!

ok today went for measurements for ma uniform. then the person sey, get the mgmt stamp plus your work order.. i was like WTF! leceh nyer.. tapi naseb baek they done the ukuranz and are already werking on ma uniform la.. it takes 30 dayz..
so gotta be patient.. and i'll have to send them those paperwork by mail ASAP! kalo tk lambat pulakk nnt..
then head to chinatown, labrador and then to West coast park lastly, for our lunch! darn titing dae!
hmm.. errandz.. tiring yawnz!

hmm im stuck w werk tmr, sat n sun oso werk. mon eyla werk, so cant bleach.. i hope can bleach mann.. tuedae silat.. leaves us with wednesdae.. harap2 can make it.. to bleach i mean.. haix.. hmm.. thurs silat.. damned.. fri to next sun im not sure wad's happening.. haix.. i hope im nt busy!!
im stll trying to fit myself into the new course schdule, new teacher, new environment.. new timings.. didnt know fitting in takes a lot of energy!! whew!

i am curently the top student in ma class.. proud of it sey.. hahaha.. yeah2.. a part of mine n abang's dream is fulfilled.. haha.. and im nominated my teachers to receive an GPA excellence award while ayul dapat, sports excellence award thingy.. kewl huh.. hmm...
THX TEACHERS!!!! ILY!!!

fridae no schl!! good thing is rest. rest from schl.. but bad.. im werkin.. haha.. good abt tt?? i get money.. hmm belah-bagi.. tiring huh... no rest argh.. yawn... i hate insomnia!!!

*for tt someone, please get a life.. ur are so pathetic lar.. pissing me off w ur love story when i barely know u.. u urself treat me like someone tt doesnt exist, so y bother sharing me ur pathetic life story? peh!

Thursdae Plan

hmm darn it.. even when im free, im not..
hmm tmr.. after school tot wanna bleach ma hair w eyla n ayin but then
here comes the chore.. looks like silat oso kene paitao lagi la nie.. darn it.. i
want ma uniform la.. i paid for it.. tk dapat2.. darn!!

dear eyla we do the hair thingy some other dae can? u forget huh? fridae no school leii..
can u keep for a while till mondae or someting.. sabar ye.. can not??

*isnt the schduling tight? i got werk on fridae.. at 2pm. unless u wanna meet somewhere after that.. in the noon time or something.. i doubt so.. confirm u have werk.. kan?
hate to be a dissapointment but then responsibilities comes rolling by.. have to sacrifice lar...

after school:
3pm- waet for cik abbas fetch me from schl w ma mum.
we gg to paya lebar..
1st, make ma uniform. at paya lebar la.. kapo factory near playfair rd.
2nd we head to bugis to go singtel hq to settle some billing stuff..
3rd we going to chinatown for making trophy for ma mum's CC stuff..yawn..
4th meeting MP.. regarding the financial assistance thingy..
5th applying for bursary.. at CC.. hopefully i get la.. im despo for cash sia..

i hope i can keep up.. im gasping for breathe.. too much thing squeeze into 4 daes str8..
somemore ma cousin nak ajak meet online frens pulak, im soo not into tt.. hmm..
abang rescue me! hhaha.. save me from this boring things i have to do.. yawnz!!

Why am i ever tired? -Ppl at werk is killing me! ugh!! so incompetant!

Ugh people at werk are so pissing me off.. ferst was the Star uniform thingy now it's ma boss trying to get liyang a job as a star..
tomoorow interview for liyang.. 530pm at king albert park, fyi, from dover mrt take bus 74.. algiht after u see e mcd.. when e bus is turning right.. ugh!! liyang is busy mah w school.. i dun get it y ma boss likes to purposely make interviews done during schl hours.. i mean wad part of school dont u understand?? this is not like keje ok.. not suker2 kluar.. *deng*
seriusly man.. sometimes ma boss is an angel tau.. sometimes mcm nk cekik ajer.. somemore her mgrs are aHoles... darn it..

enuf werk tok..
i would like to thank eyla n ayin for buying me the book by eckhart tolle.. A new earth..
as ma bdae prezzie.. i loved it.. and i would oso like to thank hyrul for having the thought to buy it for me.. knowing that, u guys would actualli do tt for me is sooooo sweett!!! aww.. thankz besties!! i love u guys soooo much!!!..

well eyla n ayin presented it around 10am.. i just opened the prezzie 8pm.. haha.. was asleep and busy w werk la nie.. they all shocked.. hmm me n eyla have a surprise for fridae.. wonder wad it is.. haha.. we're having a makeover.. wawawawawa... thanks to ayul for evrything yeah.. hmm..

i was online when i came across albania's IM.. she saed go to this webbie:
http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=18046

and give me a comment.. in her honour can evryone register n sign in to comment her article and give her the support?? cause her story is somewhat like mine.. i was actualli touched by wad her mums saed to her.. that's exactly wad ma mum saed to me..

"i dun care if ur dad nvr pay the maintainence, yang penting ma children are w me and he doesnt take that away from me.." now u'll really learn to love these people called mothers aint it?? haha.. and mother's dae is coming.. hmmm, wad am i buying her this time?? hmm..

PS: i just love ma besties.. wakakaka..

I Cant believe i cabot class for nothing..

Hmm.. i hate hate hate to cabot class because it
will leave me with a ever guilty feeling..
I rushed home because tt C star wanted to go together.. pas tu, when she call,
she sae she wants to do uniform today.. thing is both of us, have no idea where it is coz both of us, lost e map..
cut story short, i tot rush to store, i can take a new printed map from the mgr, skali si DKK B mgr tu pulak.. chitod, dier nk bbl ngan kawan nyer pasal suro aku tnggu, puki dier, im alry rushing nie, so i went in find CG mgr.. lagi tk lei hrp.. im gnna request for transfer la if by e end of june liyang tk jadi star.. aku tkd kaki sak situ.. serius man.. just cant wae for ma beanies to werk..
so i just went off msg aunty kam, lagi tk lei tlg, laen ku ckp laen dier buat.. but she col me and we managed to exchange e right things.. all i want is the address wad.. beloz!
sometyme i just hate incompetent ppl.. and DKK B mgr, im gnna complain to HQ. watch out for a letter.. nie da kali kedua.. u're gnna get it this time..

hmm.. 1pm i have a class.. 1255pm now.. how to make it on tyme? darn it.. i wan to go for class lar... haix..
hmm i have uploaded our CG074R1 timetable alry.. as below.. haix.. now the curriculum is soo soo darn darn tight.. at least better la.. no 2 hrs break or wad.. and we have yet to meet our new teacher kit ping.. hmm i hope this is helpful.. im emailing this to e whole class..

Tiring dae or wad?

Came to class elynn n miza sang me a bdae song.. aww.. thank u..
last nyte ma beloved brother bought me a IP ZONE shoe.. kool pe.. haha..
hmm.. prezzie prezzie.. i love prezzie.. having late nyte MErCI chocz makes me sick haha..

ok in class did nuttin much it was after tt i had fun...
instead of CGC, we're now CGR.. kewl pe?
then hong kah sec came, me n ayul the tour guide. wee~~
went out w eyla n ayul..
we went to makan at BK.. then after sick jokes we went to queensway..
at queenswae, we did lotsa shoe window shoppin then went to IKEA..

lighting section, ternampak Haikal werk.. wad a coincidence.. haha..
hmm.. nice to see him la.. at schl tk dpt bbl.. haha..meet there and cant stop tokin.. haha..

hmm next fridae mekk bdae.. i hope i can go.. scared laz min keje la..
like this fridae.. werk at 2pm..
hmm.. make money to buy HP.
ma dad da msok kan duit..
naseb fridae no school..
werking at BECC.. wonder where tt is..

ok.. once we got home, i started writing on ma organiser la..
tup tup ttdo.. wad e! haha.. i slept from 6pm to 1150pm.. omg..
kenek marah lak ngan abgku ayul.. " laen kali lepaskan magrib dulu sebelom tdo"..
sowie bro.. paiseh paiseh..
it's good to have a concerned bestie.. wakwakwak...

Just gt to know bestie myra lost her hp.. insyallah someone will return it k.. doa2 je..
y u so clumsy? *deng*

ok tmr, im off to schl then making star uniform so, im gnna mandi and sleep again..
then go meet eyla n ayul BB 845am. insyallah tak lambat..
toodlez..

My Actual Bdae Day!!

Ferst of all i would like to thank all ma taggers for the bdae wishes..
as per ytd, i was sleeping like a log from 4am after chatting w BFF eyla..

Ok was blog hopping.. one thing i would like to sae..
THANKS EYLA N MYRA FOR E MAJOR BDAE WISH!
on e phone, on sms, on msn now,........................................ on blog.. haha..
hmm the rest, eg ayul, shul n abang did but none of them has blogs so..
ur's the major bdae wisher..
thanks a lot.. haha..

Whole dae i was out at nyai's hse celebrating ma bdae..
ma dad paid for the makan n stuff.. ma cake..
cream.. yuck i hate cream.. but then nice oso..
coz inside is blueberry jam.. yumm thx daddy!
he promised to give $$ to buy HP!
so.. haha.. the rest also no bdae prezzie..
all give duit je.. wak nong: 10.. nyai: 20 yayi:10.. thx family!
hmm.. appreciate it.. clearly we bonded..
alhamdulilah at least sumtin kan..

Complains of the dae?
Hp flooded with SMS!!!! i have to delete a lot of msgs to
access the new msgs.. haha.. but i love the msgs..
wishes from:
mak teh, uncle lan, *abang like clueless like tt wahaha*,
mummy, zara, daddy, brother, cousin nadia,
elynn, hyrul, shulha, berox and lastly eyla..
these.. plus werk msgs..
and msgs from other ppl tt r nt impt.. haha..
hmm.. im alry planning for nxt yr prty...
this tyme, it's bigger.. more ppl..
one nyte besties, one nyte family.. chey.. mcm banyak duit.. wakakak..

Ouh yar.. ppl! pictures are available at my multiply.. thx!

Ma Bdae celebration.. 12apr-13thapr..

11th april Fridae

was super busy preparing for the chalet stuff..
hmm no werd from beloved bestie mamad yet..
headed to p.ris block C 1321 around 6pm.. Met yus ferst..
Ma all tyme staying buddy.. thx buddy..
BBQ some food and had some noodles n rice.. then off to bed..
when they all slept, me n yus had a great night of massage..
of course he enjoyed as im the massuesse.. prob w his knees and
groin area.. he had lotsa air in hiM!
control ur gatal vein yeah.. hee..
i hope ur injuries gets better dude!

12th Apr Saturdae (Celebration)

Besties tt came:
Eyla, Ayul, Ayin, Kak Pa, Anna, Shulie, Berox,Qahar, Yus,
and some of ma bros frens.. and latecomer Fazli..
Mamad wasnt ard and i was heartbroken.. sobx..
ma ultimate bestie tk dtg, hmm..
We ate, we joked, we laughed and we made lotsa noise..
This dae was a mass birthdae celebration dae!! evryone there,
fellow chalet neighbours are celebrants too..
CAKE: Banana n Choco Fudge w Choc Shavings.. Yumm!!
Personally made for me.. thx mum!

13th April Sundae (Kenduri)

Hmm.. was still hartbroken when Mamad didnt show up..
Woke up w a headache and sore throat, and lost ma voice..
hmm.. than a call..
yeah! Mamad.. he's coming.. he saed he has a surprise for me..
hmm.. he came we ate and off to see ma surprise..
it was his new SP, purple n black..
he share e same taste as me mah.. so it was his but it was also 'mine'
i was sooo happy!! haha..
pleasent mann!! thx bro!
my present? a ride home!! w ma abg! wee..
he saed he cant give much.. abang.. u gave e best prezzie!
it's e tot tt counts.. love ya!

we got to ma crib..
(apparently ma dad broke into ma hse.. he pecahkan the door, gate n window)
lepakz and we decided to surprise liyang as a wae to make up
for the lost time she didnt have at ma party..
after her interview, 2pm
invited her to ma crib.. planned a surprise for her..
her surprise? same like mine la.. ABANG!!..
she cried man! haha..
then we went down..
2nd surprise.. really got her knees weak..
a ride to umi's.. the bike is also her surprise..
haha.. had lots of fun making someone happy.. i hope u r..
haha.. lots of planning know.. haha last min planning..

at kenduri, i got emotional as the doas reminded me of arwah wan..
i cried non stop for a good 15mins++.. eyla n anne was on e phone consoling me..

to abang: thanks abang.. i love u so much!! muax! ur present was lovely and e most memorable..
to mum: thx for evrything... ur sacrifice means evrything..
to ayul n sayuri: thx for e mugs.. it means a lot.. very cheeky tho.. 'cool dude' n 'fitness freak'..
to eyla: im still waeting for ma surprise.. made me laugh till ever!
to yus: he utang prezzie.. i utang his prezzie.. *deng*
to anne: thx for e shirt.. surfer paradise..
to berox, Q n Shul: thx for the *ink bag! i love it so much
to ryin n kak pa: thx for MErci chocz
to along: thx for e shirts.. IP Zones
to busu n family: thx for cookin for me n e transport..
to zara, haikal, liyang n etc: thx for e wishes..

tomorro tho, im nt gg to schl.. me n ma possy.. haha..
ma bdae dae.. haha.. im gg nyai hse for family gathering..
ma dad promise me $$ for hp!! pweesh!! i want!!
hmm.. i hope i will have fun again!!

Wad am i thinking..

hmm..
suicidal thinking?
why?
wanting to cry?
why?
these feelings are harboured
in ma thoughts..
hmm.. i feel like im dying..
it it depression?
i expressed this to zhiti. she's
trying hard to make me happy..
i am trying.
i just cant..
thx for the offer at the beach..
i think i need some air..

suicide is wad ive been thinking
off the whole tyme..
zhiti was angry tt i haboured these totz.
i dunno whu to open up to..
this is too personal..
this weekend..
im gonna enjoy maself and let maself loose..
i hope it will help preoccupy me.. and
wont let me think abt these stuff..

was up chattin with her till 4am..
i got ma sleep.. slept from 11pm..
woke up at 2am..

mm..
things i think abt?
slithing maself? yes
jumping in front of trains or cars etc?
guilty as charge..
bdae coming near, death coming near?
yes..
hmm..
what e hell is wrong w me?
feel like i want someone to cut me open
and let me bleed mann.
really!
argh.. im depressed la..
why is it happening to me?

isk..
doesnt help tho when ma surrounding
is also trying to get me down..
usual strong n jovial me, is becoming the opposite..
i wanna cry..
out loud..
shout..
out loud..
sad..
really..
not healthy..
i knoe..
help me..
sobx..

im out!

Tiki dae w bestie myra n shulie..

Work:
was tired. todae's bdae child. 4 yrs old. v v smart.
name: Wei xuan.. aww.. so adorable.. from Just Kidz Kindergarten.
miss his cute laugh already..
*smile* (got excellent for the party anywae. e parents loved me)
Hmm.. so far none of the interviwers paitao me..
thank you a lot..
evryone got the job..
wad muz u sae to ryan? haha..
nolar..

More pictures in my multiply, under photo..: http://dralfariyan89.multiply.com/

Free tyme:
was out grocery-shopping w mum, busu,
shulz n myra.. had fun tyme camwhoring at the giant supermart..
*yesh, guilty as charged. camwhoring's ma thing*
went to nyai hse, got some interesting stories..
then went to shulx cribz and met her family.. was fun..
her sis.. her bro.. her mumz..
then off to home in 99 w berox.. was v tired..
hmm.. after updates, im sleeping.. tmr's got a big dae..
PS: i actually touched n carried a live crab!! 1st tyme sey!!

update soon yarz..

Tiki Room

Welcome to our tropical hideaway
You lucky people, you
If we weren't in the show starting right away
We'd be in the audience too

[Chorus]
In the tiki tiki tiki tiki tiki room
In the tiki tiki tiki tiki tiki room
All the birds sing words
And the flowers croon
At the tiki tiki tiki tiki tiki room

[Chorus] In the tiki tiki tiki tiki tiki room
In the tiki tiki tiki tiki tiki room
All the birds sing words
And the flowers croon
At the tiki tiki tiki tiki tiki room

The bird Paradise is an elegant bird
He loves to be seen and loves to be heard
Most little birdies will fly away
But the tiki room birds are here everyday

Da da da da We're singin' in the tiki room
Da da da da da da Crooning in the tiki room
Da da da da We're singin' in the tiki room
Da da da da da da Crooning in the tiki room

The show is delightful
We hope you'll agree
We hope that it fills you with pleasure and glee
Because if we don't make you feel like that
We gonna wind up on a ladie's hat

Hmm.. tiki dae?

I was chatting wif some of

ma peepz and gotten feedbacks..

hmm..

american lyfe..

give up the only american dream?

hmm.. those of you whu dont understand..

dun bother..

Family in constent bickering..

justice is not served..

mishaps happen..

im thinking..

hmm.. what shuld i do..

hmm what?

crappy feeling..

tmr meeting aweng..

maybe late.. maybe early..

meet at ma place can? i collect ur thing from u..

hmm tomorroe's training..

suddenly like dont wanna go..

dont feel well...

not in the mood..

not really wanting to tok..

evry good that i do,

mistook for a mischeif..

hmm.. alwaes..

something to ponder about:

somthing i found in the net.. kewl aint it..

Forgiving Friends
by Hunniebe

You are my best friend

You always will be

Yet sometimes I get mad at you

And you get mad at me

Sometimes I don't understand

Sometimes I don't know what to do

But remember always

That I will forgive you

Hmm.. wad a super tiring dae..

Hmm, i woke up at 8pm.. woah.. slept thru the whole dae..
got msgs and miss cols..
mis cols: ayul, rain, liyang and mekk.
i got msgs from mekk, zhi ti and from amelia to name a few..

Got a really heartbreaking news from one of ma fella saying i got tt fella into trouble..
i tot it's our usual conversation on comment boards?
my relationship to all ma besties are all super super professionally "bestfrens"..
pls do not let anyone think oterwise.. i know ma limits.. n hope it's vice versa..

to that fella:
" im so sorri fella. hmm i didnt know werds like that can cause such a major ripple."
"i am truly sorry, explain it to _____ for me ya.. hmm thx.. changes will be made..those werds wont be used ever.. thx for pointing it out.."

-i now know where i stand, please dun take it the wrong way.. but changes will be seen yeah..-

-------------------------------------------------
I just hate misunderstandings.. haix..
hmm ouhk.. here's the thing i was really superbly tired from werk.
the children at YMCA were super noty and neither of the games played got their attention and as a star rule, if the children are not paying enuf attention, we'll have to change the game. Ended up we played four!.. usual games onli take two.. omg these kids uh! *smack*

hmm today kenek topcat was j____L___ darn it.. standard la.. she and her effing face, konon2 dun like being ard me.. wadeve.. thank gudness chenie was there, she trained me again for outdoor party, was kind enuf to pack up all party stuff, food order as well as settle the bill. unfortunately it wasnt on a fresh drawer and kak belle gave us a small 'angry' warning. wat the..

i was sooo tired from it.. losing sleep effects ur thinking mann.. thank gudness i packed up 27pax for tomorrow's party.. evrything prepared alry can cum a bit late..rumors has it tt im doing with christine.. hopefully la.. she is a neutral star. so evrythin can be done ma wae.

ok got to bnly, went to banquet got food for ma siblings and i'm off to la la land.. was asleep till 8pm.. woke up cleared up ma hp msgs n cols.. this afternoon top up ma hp.. darn it im getting shortage of money.. hmm tomorrow i will have to finish of werk asap.. so tt i can meet ma interviewers by 2pm.. heee.. okok.. till tmr then..

reminder..
beanies
myra, shulha, ammar, mekk, mekk cousin, raffian....
thurdae, tomorrow 2pm..

star
liyang..
sundae.. 2pm..

thanks..
ryan out!

New updates on the jobs..

I managed to get in a few knots.. and voila!!

Tomorrow 10th April 08

Interview at 2pm.. instead of 12pm, slight changes..

ok.. the interview is at 2pm.. for the following people..

good for u guys, kebetolan ma party finishes at 2pm..

i gonna come back earli if possible..

-Berox

-Shulha

-Sabri

-Raffian

-Mek

-Mekk Kuzzin

----------------------------------------------------------------------------

For Liyang.. Congratz.. U r the ferst person i know tt scores this..

U are to come for interview too..

Your post is a STAR.. congratz! i managed to get it for you..

wad muz u sae??? hehe..

Sunday 13th April 08

Liyang - 2pm

for this dae i wont be ard as i have kenduri. soo be ok on ur own? ur fren yg nak jadi beanie tu pon ajak skali, sign up skali.. referrals to ma name ok.. ryan.. dun forget..

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

*for mariam.. thanks yar.. ur werking date 17th april thursdae, 4pm.. take note yar..

that's all folks.. for now..

just got back from werk. very tired. havent sleep since ytd nyte..

now on ma bed and im super tempted to fall asleep.

but im eating ferst.. nnt i starve pulakk..

PS: any enquiries please text me.. im available.. if sms tk repli, gimme a call if both tk repli, tt means im asleep..

Insomnia hits yet again..

Hmm it's now 530am in the morning..
i am having trouble to sleep..
darn it.. haix.. again? insomnia? i am sleepy. i am tired just aint sleeping..
i hate it so much..

hmm im working later at 8.. now i feel sleepy.. but then i cant sleep, later i overslept.. today's party, im cutting short. since it's outdoor. 2 games, food. no lucky draw. cut cake and im off to home i just hope todae's topcats arent idiots, as i wan this done quick, fast easy and asap for me to go home asap and get some sleep. and i dun wanna engage tt weird freeloading cabbie named S__V__N..

the stars soooo like to use hym.. i soo dont.. so kpo, evrytime like to werk wif us.. im not the sort.. hmm im getting cab service, and hailing one down.. i wanna keep extra change.. me running short of cash liao.. darn it.. luks like i cant blanjer ven anything this month.. haix..

hmm i still owe yus a movie.. for his belated bdae.. money no in lar.. aha.. hmm ok.. i wonder wad ppl getting me for ma bdaae.. hmm... handphone? car? haha.. expecting too much.. i want bags or watches or perfumes or books or camera or choker or shoes or i dun know.. i want something tt reminds me of the giver.. haha..

hopefully i get great presents.. wee~~ cant waet for ma bdae.. i expect a HP from ma dad.. haha.. i dun know wad crap he';ll give me this yr.. i just want a phone.. or camera.. no no.. phone more more important.. as an earli gift for myself, i ordered thallium from john little.. expecting a call from them.. hehe..

no one is still helping me w e remedies uh??

Hmm ma tuesdae nyte..

Ok.. im still up.. doing some updates here n there..
hmm my mcd is pretty busy nowadaes.. hmm this thursdae on the 10th, all Stars were called to attend an update meeting about price increase of the products on the Mcd food.

We'll have to explain to customers on why the food items has been more expensive.. haixx.. MORE werk! yawnn!! im tired la sey.. da la this week cover chenie.. haix.. tkpe.. buat duitt...

hmm.. okok.. hmm im really missing abang ryte now.. dunno why, withdrawal symptons kot? haha.. two daes alry meet papa pat werk dier.. haha.. mondae i went down to find ma mum, sekali arung curik2 jumpe papa la.. rindu la.. hehe.. then tadik i had a meeting at CC regarding the new waes of the MAEC ppl.. im now one of the Malay Action Group members as well as the Youth Action Group.. kewl huh.. i didnt even know im actualli in it. tkder meeting called for pon.. hee..

hmm meeting at persisi, da la.. mlas nk layan.. cant be bothered.. im tired from travelling la.. now i know how eyla feels like.. see la.. go to school, travel, go to werk travel.. naek train pulakk tu.. and if sumone were to commit suicide, "we are sorry to sae tt our blahblahblah will be in delay" haix.. sott ajer.. we are paying more for the stupid transport fee, get something done lar! for instance make a barrier or sumtin.. a wall or sumtin.. isk! they're so disturbing our flow of gettin the dae done, on tyme.. isk.. wanna die, die somewhere else la.. in the sea ke.. in longkang ke.. places where no one will be disturbed or bother to look.. durr.. hahahaha..

hm. ok tmr im working 8am.. party at 10.. haix.. tired la.. i hate werking morningz.. coz later afternoon i'll be sleepy.. hmm.. im so gonna come earli and do everything super fast.. i hate if we're late or sumtin.. haix..
hmm that have to face tt ex-star J____Li___.. one more bitch there.. i guess the female stars or ex-stars named start with J prangai macam buto tk?
hahaha.. hmm i hope tt bitch wont be werking tmr.. whu e hell she tink she is bossin me ard.. im soo gonna lash out once i got ma uniform n when ma frens are werking there.. haha.. moral supprt mah... wakakakakkaka...

anywae. Congrats to Mariam for gettin into McCafe, i welcome u to the Mc Family..
dun worri i will jaga u..
her werking date is on 17th of April..

Thursdae..
Myra, Shulha, Mekk, Mekk Cousin and ma brother will be having their interview at Mcd as Mcd McCafe's beanies 12pm..
Dammit, if ure reading this, please give me a call asap so tt i can slot u in... ok? love ya'll..

And thanks for those whu supported me in this.. but i still need more..

hmm just now, had a dinner date with berox.. i cant believe i actualli spend $15 bucks on food!!! beh tak abes lak tu.. hmm.. i ordered crispy noodle and char kuay rojak, berox ordered fried fish rice and popiah.. then tt idiot lost my 2 yr BANQUET CARD!!! chitod kamu! haha.. 2 years i had it tk hilang, she held it for less than a minute and it's gone.. shuckz gotta waet for JUNE to apply for another one.. thank uh eh!! *deng* wakaka.. hmm we actually had to force down the food as we were full.. hm.. then we take pictures of the food.. kewl huh.. bun nvr camwhore la.. wasnt in the mood la.. but i did had fun cracking jokes with berox.. she laughed n laughed sampai dier giler.. line up naek bus pon leii jadi joke.. aper maciam tuu?? hahaha.. when besties have fun...

hmm was walking to JP when we bumped into Shulie.. with tt sweet thang.. haha.. hopefully he's the next MR Shulie.. haha.. he's actually gud-looking and nice for ma ferst impression of someone, by me.. U all know me right, ma ferst impression salu bad abt ppl.. from this guy, evrything positive.. wakaka.. shulie hit the right note la sey.. hahahaha..noty2.. his name is Sabri.. hmm MR Sabri Shullie.. sounds nice aint it??

Better than MR Berox or MR Anna.. So awkward.. haha.. ard me theyre soo awkward.. u know i hate awkward ppl ryte.. weirdos.. haha..

Confession: Speaking of bestie's "Mr"s.. im actualli afraid of Mr Eyla.. haha.. dunnoe why.. haha.. he ard only, i freak out.. i scared later he angry at eyla for being ard me, somemore i hug eyla la wad la.. hmm.. they're not like Mrs Ayul n Mrs Mamad.. haha.. these Mrs are super close w me.. haha.. hmm..

PS: Liyang.. get more frens for me pweesh!! abt ur job scope i have yet to tok about w ma boss.. hold on yar...

Wad a dae...

Ok so far, ayeen hasnt repli me anything nor been online *smack-smack*
paitao me 3 times ledi lerrrr.. *smack* haha..

ok.. got a msg from ryin.. tk jadi meet oso.. dee got involve in an accident.. *smack-smack*

hmm got msg from kak pa.. not gg silat.. *double-smack* hahaha..

ok.. kak pa tk gi, ryin tk gi, ayeen tk gi, im not gg so, eyla, da penoh semagat, tk jadik.. hahaha.. she sae she gg do physical at home... cheychey eyla fit sey.. hahaha..

okok.. hmm culdnt make it to mcd bb oso as i was caught up at home w ma sis.. hmm.. i was alry going out when the "mother" siren went off.. darn it.. haha..

hmm.. so i didnt meet mariam, but i did tell her wad to do.. and i did message amelia about her coming down.. hmm..

looks like im meeting berox la later tt one oso dunnoe cancel laz minute ke tidak.. smuer las minute changes je.. sott ajer aku.. hehehe..

hmm.. let me see..
hmm what am i gonna do today??
alermak my mum ar.. ongoing la evrytime somthing problem only..
"gi tinggal ngan ayah ko la..", " custody gi ikot ayah ko la",
when is it gonna be stuck in her mind tt i cant be bothered.. i cant be bothered to listen wad she had to sae oso.. so i turned up the music.. bbl merepek, sapa mau dngar.. sala siket je, gi ikot ayah.. tk kemas je, gi tinggal ngan ayah.. eh.. im getting bored by ur cheap threats ar.. YAWN!..

if u wanna revoke custody then i will find a wae to live on ma own la.. why would i wanna get stuck wif ma effing dad? please la.. he is a bum that is better off rotting in hell... suro jual rumah tunda2.. ma mum got an agent, he saed, "i dun wanna use tt agent, tt agent is ur mum's fren.." that means wad? he wants evrything done his wae kan? then ma clever dad got his agent, his friend.. got her to call ma mum, can sae this summore.. "hi im ___, im not daren's fren"... haha.. bodo pe? whhu the hell are u calling? a 5 yr old?

which idiot gnna believe tt?
that means i oso can call her
" hi, ____ im ur new landlord.
please forward $1million to ma accnt or move out by today?"
than wad?
she gnna put in the moneY? bodo..

hmm i cant believe ma dad and ma mum is behaving like some ningchapoop.. LAME la!!
ma dad da giler talak..
masalah nyer nye.. the court.. the judge, boleh percaye ma dad ni. his proofs. it's not in black and white. it's in his writing.. judge believe. my mum got official receipts sign by whusoever.. then ma dad saw this, he sae ma mum pick up junk from dustbins to get fake receipts and bring to court..
the magical thing is.... THE JUDGE BELIEVE HYM!!! mak kao.. bodo pe???

they study till degree n masters and they believe this baffoon?? omg!! somehow, nie macam tumbok rusok aje?? hmm...

wad do u tink of this?? tag me about it.. im just too freaking pissed..

Major Replanning..

Ok.. thing is..
liyang and her fren and asilah's answers are to be confirmed..
asilah will give her answer on weds.
hopefully enuf tyme for the thurs slot.

liyang.. hmm i have another plan for her, cant reveal it yet..
hopefully her fren can make it.. prob for her is tt she stay at bedok..

ok.. for mariam confirm tmr, im meeting her..
at MRT BB tmr..2pm. one person. safe!

ayeen.. hmm no response.. paitaoing me again ke?
i dun want to face another scolding already tau..
u want u sae u want ayeen. i cant get thru u nie..
if u dun want sae dun want. c
oz gettin ma boss to consider u again and again is not as easy as it looks.
i get into trouble if u dun come.
plus tt guy pulakk put me on the spot alry. i got bad reputation tau..
now they dun wanna hire guys for the beanie post alry.. thanks to hym..
see the ripple effect??

hmm.. so far i tink tt's abt it..
berox n shul will come on the thursdae 12pm.
dun paitao me horr.
trust u guys!

hmm ok thruout whole dae todae, i slept n slept.. hmm..
beauty sleep disturbed by a rude awakening by some idiot banging on ma door.. finding e owner of the house.. i think he's promoting something la.. then i went back to sleep.. woke up.. hunger got the best of me.. cooked and ate.. and watched high school musical.. hmm.. the movie got me all teary.. haix.. the love scene makes me weep la.. haix.. sensitive btol aku nie... *deng*

ryan off!

Thanks for the support.. Please tell me when u're able to be interviewed..

OK.. ferstly i would like to thank all the blog visitors.. very much appreciate it..

I have very positive feedback from ma blog readers, thank u for supporting me..
lessen ma burdens sejap.. haha.. hmm.. thanks thanks thanks a lot..

OK people, i need to do a follow up ok..
Please take note..
Details is as follows..
I will be around dun worri i will assist u..
Slots are open for beanies that are 'any time any day basis' as well as 'weekenders' basis.. available.. dun worri pls pls pls give me a call.. thx..

Interview:
*please take note, when u go interview. under "referral:______", put ma name please..
Ryan..
higher chances.
never forget to sae tt i refer you ok? important!
___________________________________________________

Tuesdae 8th of April (Tomorrow)

Mariam-2pm
Ayeen-2pm
***-2pm-3pm (still can selit..)
***-2pm-3pm (still can selit..)
Shulha n Fren-3.30pm * cannot be late. important huh.. for this slot.

*i can still slot u guys in the 2pm timing.
Can anyone be in the slot?

for 3.30pm slot, sorry no more as my boss has an urgent meeting 4pm sharp.

Thursdae 10th of April (Thursdae)

Myra-12pm

- I have slot ranging from 12pm-1pm onwards.. make it ASAP as she also has a follow up meeting later on.
- i will be werking in the morning and i will be around to assist you. dun worry..

Sunday 13th of April

Timing is from 6.30am till 3.30pm..

My boss is werking.... Liyang n fren is advisable to take up this slot.. can or not? the onli weekend slot tau.. i wont be ard as i have kenduri tahlil the whole dae..

please try to be there by urself.. sms me when u do, and the outcome of the interview.. and please never ever forget to mention my name!! please take note! MAKE ME PROUD!

Asilah? Liyang? Liyang fren? when can u do it? faster interview faster we get to werk together... i nid to do it ASAP as the Mccafe trg starting out soon..

_____________________________________________________

Currently she's been busy with meetings of the renovation and the building of ur Mccafe facility so, slots are rather tight.. please grab it while u can before school reopens... can?? my sayangs?

thank you sooo much...
currently im busy being at werk covering for chenie's shift as she is on rest. Overwerked ledi..
if u wanna meet me, can.. after ma werk la.. esp wednesdae.. im soo darn free.. haha
gud thing tmr im OFF. i can help out ma lovely jobseekers..

Cute Shots of Me n Bestie: Myra

Me and ma bestie myra...
On a dinnr date at Raffle's Hopital's Banquet..
HAvin the most delightable FISH N CHIPS from mainland England..
YUmmm, too bad shulie werent ard.. durr..

Ok.. Here are the updates for ytd...

Ok before i update anything about yesterdae, i wanna sae something...

This is an official opening of my new look..*yey me!*
hmmm i was really having trouble getting XML blogskins la.. all so not nice.. then the nice ones are all so difficult to upload.. ok.. here's the thing, when i uploaded the new skin, the pictures of my bestfrens were taken away too so.. hmm.. nvm.. u guys dun nid to see their face la.. my superstars u knoe.. haha.. their names are listed at the side.. hehehe..

Ouh yar.. this song, One Last Dance by Sarah Conner so touchin.. Mamad la.. made me listen, ask me to find the song at imeem or youtube and listen.. then i wekk la.. wekk, then become hooked ledi.. skali liyang oso got the same song on her blog.. alerrmak!! *slaps oneself*

okok..
story about today ferst.. dun worri.. since ytd i was having a hard tyme at werk, and was really tired, i finally, for the ferst tyme, fell asleeep!!! *applause*
yeah2! it was something triumphant for me.. as insomnia got the best of me for the past few weeks. yeah.. i was up earli.. 4am.. My body nie da tak sabar ke nak start berpuaser? haha..
Weird thing is, im looking forward to go fastin again.. i mean for the whole month.. no idea why, but to me, fasting is fun...
i know, WEIRDO! *deng.....saucepan smacks on the forehead*

So i'm stayin up the whole morning keeping ma self busy.. later i'll be working la at 9am. so might else well dun sleep. and maybe later in the dae, i'll have a date with Berox.. Since Shulz cancel laz min! belo gerl.. but how to hate her? i love her too much.. haix.. fariyan biler part bestfren dier jer, cair.. hahaha... not it's a bad thingy la.. ryte?? hee..

ok ma tall tale about ytd..
i came to werk *ehem* **clears throat**... LATE...
and that's when i realised.. none of the stars packed ma bdae party stuff for mie.. chitod korang.. peh!
okok.. so, to be honest, im a super fast worker.. i managed to finish packing up evrything on tyme. 2 problems!

one. NO TOPCATS.. had to steal janet's topcats.. poor her..
two. packed wrong food item. i packed CHENIE's morning outdoor party!! WTF!

hmm it was resolved and the party host was happy.. the birthday gerl, Niki Ann also had fun.. except for this one irritating gerl whu keeps rubbing her *u-know-wat* on ma lap when i was sitting down on the floor toking to the children. she even kept touching ma nose..

the bdae girl saw this.. she saed " __(name)__ are you sick? What's wrong with you? You like him is it?" Woah! moment of cat-fight there huh? Only 8 years has cat-fights ledi.. The 'rubbing' gerl just jeling.. Of course me, being uncomfortable.. NNt her parents sae i rape her pulakk.. i walked away la.. Ended the party quick..

CHenie came to the rescue by the wae.. our STAR mama.. haha.. realli appreciate it..
she tot the host is gonna suan me as ferst, i was late 4 e party, second, i was late starting the party.. but so far evrything went smoothly, aunty chenie even bought us ice-cream.. yumm *loves u*.. aww.. isnt it gr8 to have caring co-workers?? excpet for tt one star la.. i cant stand her at all! isk! dunnoe whu la uh.. isk!

okok.. went back, got extra cash from the customer, from the taxi fare la.. hehe.. i never give it out to ma topcats.. never help me ajer.. peh! haha..
ok then aunty kam came... big bosses came.. wah super bosses travelling dae uh??
Niyuki n BEn ask me to help out, wayang sikit, work till 8pm..
and amelia approached me about ayeen n tt guy.. about the beanie job tt they got. but yet didnt turn up.. aiyo..
set another interview tt particular nite oso ayeen cant make it.. but i manage to cover for her..
ok then i went ard got BB feedbacks from customer and apparently made frens with a bunch of them hahaha.. *pramah nampak, pramah nampak*
hmm then there was a STAR-mgmt meeting regarding the renovation of the store. the location of party area, mccafe blah blah blah.. cool new mcd give away toys for parties.. soo inspired to werk now.... got ma form to go make uniform... yey!!!! finally!! crew n beanie hiring.. many more..
then makan with christine, niyuki and shi min then went home in a cab with them oso.. **wahhh... banyak duit???** hahaha..
______________________________________________________
*weii ayeen.. u owe me big tyme leii i covered ur ass twice..* hehehe..

Ayeen's next working date. i mean meeting date is on Tuesdae.. 2pm.. i will be there too.. PLeease come.. do not be late... they really harapan for u.. dun know y.. think u got potential la.. hee.. chey2 kembang.. haha.. dun worri ur ass is safe if im ard..
btw, tt guy is rejected.. dun bother telling hymm.. the mgmt saw something in his records i think.. husssh!!!

okok.. joining ayeen for interview on tuesdae is maryam.. yeah.. she's interested.. 2pm oso..
then followed by Shulz n her fren.. 3.30pm.. pls do not be late!!! my boss has a meeting 4pm SHARP!. okok??

help me uh.. help me to help you.. u get money, i finish my job.. can? ayeen n shulha?? thank u sooo much...

for berox. im gonna set up another date for her.. as on the tuesdae she cant make it.. woii gerl, tell me when is ur free days? i liase w ma boss.. tag me ur free daes!!!! thx.. lub u!

Hmm tiring dae..

work was a killer.. there was a massive cock up in the outdoor party as i accidentally packed chenie's order instead of mine..hmm..

ok.. that one uh.. haix.. naseb ben, norli, liah, xiao yun, shan lian help me out.. tt J___ standard la.. being a bitch around me.. ko tunggu ko sialan... waet till i get ma uniform.. c wad u can sae.. puki! nver help at all..
critic ajer..

hmm im super tired n i expect to get asleep b4 1am. soo this is a fast post.. ok online chat with dear eyla ayul shulie yana danial n myra.. hmm.. tmr i'm gnna put up more post. now too tired..

ok.. meetings w big bosses, amelia, aunty kam about the new look and facilities at ma store.. update this tmr...

tmr werk morning.. covering chenie's shift.. with christine.. see ya'll tmr.. nyte..

hmm.. im off to bed..

realli miss mamad!!

Hmm.. fine satudae..

OK.. hmm i was too tired after the previous post.. guess i vented ma anger online huh?
ok this song suits the previous post.. wasnt it?

hmm.. ok after tt post, i ate mee rebus and voila, instant hibernation..
i slept like there's no tomorrow.. haha..
of course woke up late.. coz i tot, eh. todae werk at 5pm wadd dilly dally la..
skali 6 miz kol.. from store, janet, and nana
i was suppose to werk at 2pm la dey!
Saper yg belo nie go n anyhow change ma timing? Hmph! angry tauu.. disturb ma Babi Sleep. haha..

ok.. woke up ard 3pm. went mandi and answered the 12 msgs in ma inbox from nana
ok.. hmm ven kept me accompany la.. thru msg, from mandi-ing till im out for work..
Ok so i was late. i mean siaper ntah ckap aku start kol 2pm! isk! miscommunication again! later? emergency STAR meeting.. again! belo! ok.. got there on time.. wahliao.. all e stars go makan siak... chitod.. left me with the workload?? skali ma guest came.. wtf.. i did evrything maself.. ma topcats sooo irresponsible.. go makan.. i ask what time she punching in.. she sae.. Dunnoe?!.. babi siakk geram ajer.. my party host was pretty enraged by this..

but they did have fun la.. hmm the bdae gerl, Ezel.. SO CUTE!!!!!! then got this kid name's Justin.. SOOO CUTE!!! they're all filipino.. ouh i love tagalog.. haha.. so cool.. hmm.. okok.. enuf... im so in love with the adorable kids.. but then the adults also hyper la sey.. gerek pe? i had loads of fun.. no food order cock up.. see? my wae of food ordering no cock up.. u follow si chenie, star tue tu mesti la.. *deng*

i learnt from the best of the best sey.. ma mum.. the old Star at JW75..
selalu dipuji by ma SAE..
that's how i got promoted..*double deng*

Ok.. the party went dengan lancar..
ok family feud? mak lang too coward to come down.. nie la org.. brani bbl in phone aje! belo!

ok whole tyme that was happenin, i was hitting the 'snooze' button on ma mobile.. wakakaka.. being ma alarm clock or phone leads a sucky life.. haha...
*no wonder ma maid resigned.. wakakakakak.. susah nk dikejotkan..*

hmm after that stayed in store till 10pm plus, update stuff, comms in the mgr's comms book, update party, ate ma mcwings, went stationary shopping for ma boss.. then im off to mak teh's house..
i come in they sae, "baru bbl psal abang.. teros abang datang, panjang umor"
in ma family, im called abang, abang yan or yan. so dulu when mamad called me An, punyer la kekok.. beh i have to call him yan... now i call him mamad.. lagi best.. haha..
then cukop tyme balek..

hmm i actualli chatted wif nurul. QQ's ex..
learnt a whole lot abt QQ.. and the whole TRUTH..
tsk tsk..
but hey, im staying neutral nminding ma own business..
hmm sad la.. he even toks bad abt me..
shared ma personal probs to e general public..
wif bedulie oso.. haic.. very dissapointed in QQ..

ok.. when daniq is getting born for his 1st bdae, nurul is gg to engage me as a star to do his party!!! weee!!! im excited!!!! reallYyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!! haha..

hmm.. ok la.. i wanna sleep. no one lyan me on msn je.. yana's comp rosak pulak..
hmm im off.. nights loves!

Wad a depressing news i found out.. no wonder aku slalu tak sedap hati..

ok here's the hitch.. i did sleep the whole of laz nite.. standard la.. INSOMNIA! im having trouble sleeping and it looks like i aint getting any for the rest of today.. It's no wonder that i cant sleep or watsoevr.. wad is this a sign? ive been having bad tingles on ma back.. today i found out an UGLY truth behind my family.. When it comes to harta.. omg!

Manusia nie semuer ilang ingatan la.. ilnag diri.. im actualli embarass to call them family.. they're actualli fighting over stuff we SHOULDNT fight about.. HARTA!!

ok here's the reel... my late grandma, in our family we call her Wan. ok.. arwah wan stated that the harte is to be given out equally. but more precisely to 2 of her so called 'favourite' daughters, ones that helped her a lot in her late days.. theyre none other than ma mum, Mak Uda is her tittle. And MAk Busu..

ok.. our family, the uda n busu are the ones that actualli are entittled to lots of stuff,i mean, we took care of her a lot, spend a lot of tyme with her, we are her hopes.. she loved us most...
because there is a saying tt saes if we fite amongst family, about harte of a loved passed away ones, they suffer in alam bazarkh.. which is the cemetary.. that's y we didnt put up a fight.. for her peace.. we still love her even in death..

so busu n mum decided not to fight over harta, and if we were to claim anything to the males of the family, it would be after my family move out of this fcuking house.. that, was the plan.

here is wad they did.. ok.. let me tell u the ranks in names.. this i gotta sae..
ferst.. PAk Long Sani, Mak Ngah, Mak Lang, aka anak2 tiri of ma late grandfather Allahyarham Hj Ali, then came Mak Long, Mak Teh, Uncle Bu, Mak Uda (my mum),Uncle Lan n Mak Busu. So far i dun think i miss anyone out.

Pak long sani, long gone.. hate our family and had his own life.

Mak ngah n mak lang disputes. so they cant see eye to eye with each other.. but they decided to do it in peace. (fighting in quiet)

ok. so. the whole harta thingy, of giving out equally is given to both ma uncles, uncle bu n uncle lan. both are, ook generally all are religiously not handicapped. so they know islam at the tips of their fingers but dun behave like one when comes to harta..

ok, this is gnna get complicated soo.. pay attention.. lots of family members involve.. waet.. ferst. there's gnna be a family meeting later todae at 1pm sharp at mak teh's hse. it's regarding wad im toking about.. looks like i aint getting a wink till tnite.. 1pm meetin, god knows wad tyme it ends and then 5pm werk!

ok story. uncles hold wan's harta. dun wanna give awae yet.
theyre responsible to set dates of the kenduris n such.. not doing a good job of it!
they, refuse to give it awae. keep all to themselves.

the grave? still as plain as it can get.. bare.. just mud n tanah there.. WTF.. this angers me.. i guess u can see whu really is my late grannie's favourite huh? the ones yg claim la yg the ones cant be bothered.. cibai!
yg grave laen ard hers, da siap..

their reason?
kenek tunggu satu tahun.. saper ajar? pukiwak btol..

then the harta. 2 parts. one bank $$ one more is gold.. pure solid gold.. cant be bought but can sold.. it's priceless.. it's supposed to be pass ard rounding.. cause arwah saed pass ard.. noone owns it.. it's for u guys to pass ard n try out..
no.... mak tehs gorges this up by herself...

harta bank my uncles in charge.. argh!! beli kreta lagik.. wahh. fancy lifestyle nampak?
jgn sampai aku la eh engage lawyer!

hmm.. then the harta barang2 in rumah mak teh n mak busu, org laen yg nk claim.. fuck u ppl u n down.. WHY are u sooooooooooo kemarok pasal harta n duit???
My family is the ones that are co-currently not well to do we dont fight for a dime.. u guys are working assholes and bastard earning up to +-8K a mth and not counting ur bonus...

smuer dapat bonus senyap! puki larrrrr!!!!! urgh! angry!!!
im gg down there n state my point.. problably losing point is im a grandson not her children! DREADED! im the onli one in the family that has werds spoken louder than the rest!! ugh! my hands are tied!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

now im mad!! dear god please help me out here.. please.. please save ma grandparents from further torture...

__________________________________________________________
readers kindly, as a small favour for me, baca kan la al-fateha for both ma grandparents..
Hj Ali bin Hj Nor and Hajjah Banon binte Yusoff....

it would mean a lot to me.. may god bless ur soul and ur family's...
amin...

fridae nyte..

i was busy doing housewerk the whole damn afternoon cum busying wif ma computer..
hmm was sweeping and wiping and organising then...

"treeeetttt treeeetttt" goes ma phone..

damned in there were at least. not lying to u.. 8 unread msg.. the last msg was from Ven.. OMG!. i soooo mis Ven.. so long nvr meet him.. haha..
i got msg from mamad, ayeen, qahar, STArhub, mum, berox and etc.. others i 4got..
hmm really miz mamad.. haha..
*when am i meeting mamad again?*

ok.. i was messaging ven. he sae he coming over ma house as he so long never see me.. hmm let me see how long is tt.. quite long actualli.. last tyme i met hym was months back..
ok so ven complain that he is hungry.

so i perked up. went to the kitchen and start cutting onions, breaking eggs, doing chix stocks, cutting carrots, fishballs and parsley.. hmm.. yumm *i tot*..
fried omelette and made clear soup and Voila.. instant dinner.. my cooking skills were gettinf bad to werst..

**Sidetrack***
anywae.. tt time i overcame ma fear of animals when mamad handed za a jellyfish.. i was withdrawing the whole tyme but then managed to perk up maself and actualli touch the creature.. haha.. felt like agar2 wakakaka.. next will be crustaeceans then fishes.. eww.. hmm slowly.. with mamad, im losing this fear of mine.. insyallah...
****

ok soup make me think of the sea.. wakaka.
ok.. let me see.. ok we ate, made hym ma famous green tea.. and settled down chit chatting..
while toking,
(ok ven has a same dream as mine, being in fitness line.. but because of insufficient money he is stuck as he is.. taking a course he hate..)
he saed this that made me wek like hell, i almost cried..
" congratz on ur gpa 3.7.. continue to werk hard, be in a good poly in the fitness line.. carry on my dream for me.. make it happen.. tho it's for ur own good. do it for me too.. i wan it as much as u.. then go NS, make me proud.."
i seriously almost wept.
i miss u real bad dude.. aww.. see la.. now i wekk..
chitod!

haha..
hmm then after some movies on HBO, Starmovies.. he went home..
hmm.. mis hym already...
now im chatting with ayul.. another dude i will alwaes miz..
hahaha..

hmm anw, happy bdae qahar.. haha.. here's ur bdae kiss again! *MUACKZ*..
eww.. gay! wakaka.. dream of me yeah....
then we can ehem2.. haha..
...

....
......
......
.

....



WRESTLING LA!! haha,, try out ma silat on hym! wakakaka..

tcare!

This somewhat boring fridae..

hmm.. let mie see..

today.. it's 4th April..
2 ppl i know thaat were born of this date..
Sae happy bdae to our frens Qahar n Muslihah..
yeap.. i dun forget their bdaes as it's 10 daes b4 mine..
he is turning 19th n she 20th...

so far neither of them has replied ma msg. i wish them happy bdae..
ok let me see.. seems like yana's too excited to blog. hmm been doing some blog-hopping.. Hmm some people uh nvr update la.. im bored and need to update myself on ma frenzie's lyfe.. gettin updates excited me somewhat.. hmm..

ok.. today i was up late, as usual. Slept ard 7am as standard insomnia. And within that timing, i actualli ate 2 pcs of bread smothered with Nutella. Some Oatmeal cereal and a Tahitian Pizza.. nice or wad? calories! aaargh!! i swear to u im the only guy that thinks about calories tau! isk!

im trying out this font for ma post. it looks much neater and more visible.. it's Trebuchet. kewl huh.. ok.. i was watchin MArtha's cooking school 5am in the morning.. she was teaching how to make pillards. pronounced as (pie-art).. it is a cooking 'verb' which they made up, named after a restaurant. this particular restaurant only serves pillard goods.

_ryan cooking tips_*hahaha*

( that dae i learnt pan searing.. gareng on the outside, medium rare on the inside..)

ok.. here's how you pillard something.. take the meat.. eg chix breast, beef portion, veil or mutton, cut it thinly, around 1/4 of an inch, slice it. Seasoned it w pepper n salt. place it on a soft plastic (one u wrap sandwiches in) , cover it over, use a butcher hammer and pound it thinly.. put it on a grill for a few mins, take it out. Served with salad and onions. Voila!! Yumm!!

_end of tips_

hmm ok.. im now currently bored. and happy at ma marks.. we.. 3.7.. we.. i was hoping 4.0.. haha.. nolar.. i was actualli hoping 3.5 but hey, 3.7 is something huh? Mary got 3.2.. i tot she oso scored 4.0.. *deng*..
hyrul's was a bit dissapointing.. i expected hym to get 6.7,
coz he owaes bodek wif Mr M, bancoh-ing Mr M's bulu telinge making a teh tarik khas buat hyrul haha.. for hym to share with Mr M and his co-workers.. haha.. eww..
no lar.. actualli he did good by achieving a 3.6.. my competition huh???? haha..

currently rotting at home dunno wad to do.. this morning got an sms by dad. on ma bdae, 14th Apr. A mondae. Our ferst dae of schl.. how ironic, the dae i wan to look forward to, my bdae, and a dae that's somewhat making me lazy, school reopen.. i actualli dun like to wear e uniform, coz nk kenek gosok la this la that la.. haixx.. ma fan! but then hey, i get to meet up ma frens annnnnnnnnnndddd!!! WE'RE GG TO BE 2ND year people!!! how cool is that?? that oso means NS is near.. alar!!! haaaha...

hmm..like i saed, i dun mind having army or police. i hate CD. as most of the people i know tt is gay landed themselves in CD. Army, banyak gangster la!! Police, i see, abang msok, wow.. im very inspired. PLUS plus plus.... they study LAW!!! wee... one thing u shuld know about me, i love studying about law.. it is important to be a civilian who knows his rights and knows which things that he is doing that is right or wrong.. ehem.. dulu pon ader la prasan kan nk jadik policeman or lawyer.. that's y im fascinated by police force..

army oso.. i oso wanna handle rifles and stuff.. meke it look cool one me.. ouh ouh.. boys and thier toys.. haha. i wanna drive a tank, or at least a helicopter.. how cool is that.. tapikan.. must loose ma weight and build up muscles n stamina la... haix.. currently im striving to lose at least 5 kg by the end of JUNE.. possible? anyone care to help? RAIN, make this happen.. i wanna go jogging... haha.. then i wanna complete ma 2.4km at least by 12min. no more no less by JUNE. possible? i saw a lil bit of improvement but i wanna see more.. hmm that;s kinda it for now.. hahah..

*currently chattin wif ma old boo, noii.. haha.. i mizz u hunnie.. haha.. she's still my 'wifey; n im still her 'hubby'.. aww.. haha.. i miss hanging out wif her la.. haha.. anywae she's linked.. check her out.. love ya'll!

will update soon cheerios...

OUH HAPPY DAE! OUH HAPPY DAE!!

Wad got me excited baybey??

RYAN>>>> GPA: 3.7 Baybey yeah... ouh behave!!!!!

AYUL>>> 3.6.. hell yeah baybey..

EYLA>>> 3.167 Baybey yeah!!!

YANA>>> in RP baybey yeah!!! starting schl this mondae baeybey yeah!!!

AYIN>> 2.167 BAybey yeah!!!!...

Didnt we all did well???? and this doesnt include CCA which is 0.2 baybey.. ouh.. i feell SHAGGY babby... gotta MOJO... yummy!!!....

a very very same sleepy dae... thurdae..

ok lately, insomnia has been kicking me to hell! i am having sleep problems.. ouh, sleep deprivation sure made jack a cranky boy.. yeah im actualli easily pissed off... please.. anyone.. anyone at all, give me sleep remedies?? petua2 org2 tt sae we can sleep better if we do it.. any ideas anyone??? pweeshh!! i need sleep!! haha...

ok.. got to sleep ard 8am. woke up ard 4pm. hmm... then got 9 msgs.. from werk, mak nana, ayeen, ayin, aweng, mum and many more... 5 missed calls from god knows whu, mak nana and the rest i forget.. woah, woke up with a hangover and gotta answer all the msgs.. actualli i like it when ppl call or msg me.. haha.. makes me feel busy.. then, called yana..

her attempt into enrolling into SP was rejected. she was quite hartbroken as neither me nor abang is there for her.. i was asleep. abang in NS pe.. hmm so sorry dear i woke up late..
ok then i comforted her, while lyaning, tonnes n tonnes of other smses by ma silat frenzies... she asked me to doa for her. i did.. guess wad....... she got into RP!!! Congratz dear.. Ku ucapkan selamat bagi kebahagianmu itu.. hmm..

ok then enot was msging me.. standard la psl blog thingy and such. so hab to help her. maklom la, blog-virgin.. haha.. okok..

ok then went down to go makan with mum, ate hokkien mee. unexpectedly, 'she' was there with sister. managed to go home and ravage thru ma computer. ugh i just hate ma sistern 'her'.. bee-yotches.. jus guess la huh.. a cousin of mine...
cant stand them. i actually had to pretend i like hanging out with her nowadaes as wad she, one mo cousin, ma sis and her frens did to me. im scarred. and me, once scarred, dun ever ask for help from me. u wont get any..

then she managed to use ma lappy, ravage thru ma stuff yet again. kpo.. hmm wonder if it's her lately that has been hacking into ma msn acct, evry now and then.. but i managed to change all passwerds and delete of all abang's passwerd from ma lappy.. darn it those bitches..

hmm today im lepaking at home.. darn bored.. guess wad.. no silat.. ayin n me wanted to lpakz then tkkan two of us.. anywae, i wan firhan n lala's contacts.. frenster ke msn ke.. something.. eyla? enot? any idea of their contacts?
ok.. eyla werking, kak pa menses cramps, aweng c how.. hmm.. AWENG!!! i wan ur camera... borrow me leii.. haha.. wen can u borrow me?? hee..

hmm i guess ayul is kinda bored with the match ytd.. hahaha arsenal 1 liverpool 1.. haha it's a tie.. soo.. my thoughts of wanting liverpool to win, just to see that arsenal kala, to rub it in his face tak jadi.. it's a draw soo.. yawn!! haha..

i checked out berox's blogskin.. i envy her evry photo la.. she alwaes hav them editted.. enot's oso.. teach me leii how.. im a bimbo in edittin.. pweesh!! anw, berox, ur blog is so darn plain.. one thing about her, she likes plain blogskin.. change it lar... n i wan yat's blog, if he have.. i oso wann read knoe!!! haha..

*Small details*
-made a fren thru tagged. named D. from mlaysia. 21 yrs old attch w a good gurl. in college.
-made another fren. yunniie.. from ma brother's blog, while blog hopping. hope u linked me. anw, she's linked..

maybe i'll update again summore tonight.. buii!!!

my wantz...

If some of you were ever ready thinking wad the hell is riyan toking about.. hmm Thallium?
wad the hell is that? here it is... ma perfume...






here is it.. it is a Eau de Toilette by Jacques Evard. It is the obsession of both Mamad and me.. our secret is out. This is our most priced possesion. One that we want to always have in our dresser table... hmm
this is wad ive been trying to save u for.. i'm trying to get it.. as my current Casablanca ran out..

_____________________________________________________________


now this is another thing ive been dying to get at least by the end of the year..

it's the Olympus camera, Mju 1030 SW.

It's shock proof, crush proof, weather proof, freeze proof and........ water proof!!
ie been dying to get tis of course... EXPENSIVE!!!






i searched he net.. it cost $600+-.... hmmm working ma way thru...

nie belom lagi beli HP lagik.. isk.. darn it!!

ryan off!

a true sleepy wednesdae..

ok.. pratically i slept thru the dae...

woke up at 12pm. was still tired therefore, i went to the net, went to BBDC site and try-sell my slots.
i'll jus go aome other tyme la.. even ma date w enot oso cancell..
sowie dear.. hee..
but then date w shul n roxy cnnt cancell, too impt.. haha..
hmm.. ok woke up sleep at ard 8pm, after i got ma 2nd nap. helped out enot making her blog. n her tagged n wadever.. part nie ru carik aku.. swaruk bin mas slamat tol.. haha..
hmm then i was off to cut ma hair pat kedai Cik Abbas..

after cut hair bought some razor. and when to have late supper.. banana prata.. yumm...
then went home.. now im off to bed..
i miz ayul, yus n mamad.. hehe,, evrydae mus miss someone.. hee..

Sleepy tuedae

Hmm since i didnt sleep ytd.. i am lethargic the whole dae..
managed to catch some winks.. from 12pm to 4pm.. Ayeen gave me a call for silat..
thank goodness she called if not terlajak..

ok.. wad a dae.. in the morning, sayuri punk'd me like fuck as it's april fools dae..
darn it.. she made me feel concerned.. concerned is ma weakness haha.. but it was a good joke tho! darn u!! i swore revenge.. muahahaha..

ok after the call i logged in to the net. updated mamad's profiles and such, chatted w mak nana and chatted with ayeen. i even made ayeen's tagged myspace n etc.. expect a blog from her tho.. im making one for her..

hmm.. like i saed.. "mamad is lucky to have us, me, za and yana.. as he gets evry single love squeezed out of us, and he is showered by different levels of love by e 3 of us.." yana saed. she'd lucky to have hym.. come to think of it.. arent we all lucky to have each other? wout yana, i wont have a fren to tok to.. wout za, ma lyfe would be laughless.. wout mamad.. death is a way of life.. see? we need each other in life.. hmm then i start to wonder.. wad if ayul was taken. or eyla. or ayin? hmm depression will be the fren i will have to learn to love..

hmm.. ok.. so, i went out, met ayeen and chit chatted wif her.. without realising we reached simei! wtf!
we were suppose to alight at bedok which is 3 stations away.. Kushyuk pe bbl.. haha..
ok.. we alighted and took the next train out.. that's where we saw Firhan, Lala n another gerl. 4got her name..

Today's bad news.. No training.. instead there's a trial pertandingan..
good news.. i met ayin, ayeen and eyla.... and kenal2 more wif firhan n lala.. firhan is a veri interesting character.. he's like me. straight forward and he is a nat player.. so.. that area kinda humbled me down otherwise.. hey, the wae he discribe himself and they wae he handles stuff, is actualli in ma clique! haha.. me ayin n ayeen chitchat w firhan while waeting for miss eyla.. the star karat.. then we headed to perCC and watched the try outs..

we had fun kekeking wif each other.. while watchin ppl fight. and looking at their bloopers then ayin realised, firhan n yat was touching each other's hair, huggin each other.. yada yada yada.. it almost looked gay. haha.. i didnt realised la.. coz, im actualli, my type of person is like tt.. with gerls n guys.. until ayin saed it looked gay that it became a joke of the century.. as siti adds the laughing gas into the room making me laugh my ass out.. bout the yat n an thing and the silat stuff.. the JJCK stuff.. she disturb her BF, farhan, aka An oso. Jantan Joget Cukor Kening.. ahahhahahaha...

while watching, i managed to get a semi power nap.. i slept and woke up then we went out and ate chix rice.. me eyla ayin ayeen firhan farhan n one mo guy.. it was awesome.. haha.. da lapar.. ngap je..

hmm wanted something ti happen this week but it's super bz..
wed- im free. maybe gg out w ayeen see ferst as tt afternoon i got FTP n FTE.
thurs- insyallah trg..
fri-werk
sat-werk
sun-werk

and following up mondae...
me berox n shullie planned a picnic trip at sentosa..
a tyme to spend ma last daes as an 18 yr old.
haha..
me n shul bringing tikar..
we r manding there.. kewl huh.. wish mamad were ard.. he loves the sea..
plan is to meet at jrg east mrt 10am. proceed str8 to sentosa.. we picnic cum mandi laot..
we're camwhoring..
then after mandi and etc, we going vivo.. window shopping, camwhoring and lepakzing.. we'll be home b4 the end of 8pm.

i hope evrything goes as planned..
tue-trg.
wed-free.
thurs-trg.
fri-free
sat-??
sun-??

so here's practically the plan haha...