Monday afternoon,

i got tonnes of miss calls from work..
hmm when ure on holiday or leave, this ppl always finds u..

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hmmm i just got a call from my "sayang sayang", Abang Mamad.. haha.. "sayang" sarcastic haha.. Really appreciate it..
finally he managed to try out tt new phone of his...
if not tk terkol aku nie, za n even his mrs chocz..
hmm hopefully he can msg me..
coz his phone eh, when sms or msg, namer tk kluar..
damn it.. kinda hate his phone yet i like it as it's like a handheld..
so computer...
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ok got calls from Chenie..
I have to work on Friday till sunday str8..
Friday got party.. 430pm im werking w Christine..
Saturday at 7pm same wif Christine..
Sunday 430pm.. im not sure wif whu.. i hope wif sumone clever..
hahah..

ok msged zara in n out..
chat about how we had fun.. haha...
fyi, im staring to miz yana, za, dan and mamad alry!! isk!! me ar..
todae evryone is werking..
za werk..
mamad at werk..
yana werk..
dan, on leave till thurs..
me... hmm namer jer free.. im like super bz nie.. im runnng errands..

bayak bills nk kenek bayar..
tot wanna go nyai house kan take $$.. beh she not at home..
tommoro la before training..
thank gudness ytd's weird experience, black figurine, tk ikot any of us balek..
Clearly stating here.. me, yana n Za, are sensitives.. strong ones are mamad n dan.. but dan is those typical normies as in he is a harmless normal humans..
mamad.. he can repel this things.. it's in his blood.. that's y if mamad isnt anywhere near me or yana, we panick! now u noe??? haha..

ok.. later im fetching my sayang bestie amira.. miz her mann..
from werk la.. at dhoby ghaut,
we're going to bugis later.. im so gonna splurge to hot ghost news..

ytd i was pretty shaken up.. even mamad had to sae " An, are you ok? What have the ghost experience done to u?"
he managed to comfort me, and got my mind off the ghost by playing games..

hmm im gonna blog again.. i know im suppose to blg something funny about yana....
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ok here goes..
she saed it was a birthdae chalet so instead of cutting cake they cut pulut kuning..
melayu style..

she sae "...dorang ptong KUNYIT..."
itu la yg meng-kekek-kan kiter sampai nak terkencing2 kiter dibuatnyer..

yana~~ c haaha.. it got into the blog.. wekwek.. bluek!! wakka..

The Last WeekEnd in MArch 08..

Ok. point forms yaeh.. im very tired nie..



Satudae



A.

-Quickly did indoor party at mcd. Me, Za n Mamad plus Yana, Syncronised Our Worktyme.. to finish.

-Suppose to meet at yana chalet by 10pm.

-Mamad suppose to msg me, meet me and go wif me. Za waet for my signal, Dan wait for her signal. But he didnt. Misplanning here..

-By 10pm mamad alry at the chalet. Asleep.



B.

-Yana msg Za tt Yan alry at Chalet.

-Me n Za were angry at him. waeted for hym n he never even bother to msg us.

-we decided to just go.



C.

From pasir ris, yana's dad pick me za n dan to the chalet that's where our lovely boy is sleeping peacefully.. So we ate, me za dan n yana joked our ass out.. over food..

-then at nite we went to the sungei api2 wout mamad as he is asleep n we didnt wanna bother hym.

-we toked, shared ghost stories. blah blah blah.. opened up, joked and had lotsa fun while dan went fishing.



PRE Sundae.still near saturdae nite..



yana fell asleep and then i played dan's psp while dan n za cuddled up one corner..

then yana wanted to go back to the chalet. so i tmaned her back to the chalet at looked at mamad sleep at the hall, me on the counch.

as i was listenin to surah2, i fell asleep... then morning came and standard mamad disturb me from ma 2 min sleep. i was kinda happy to see him la.. haha.. i mean see him awake tt is.. then we toked and he ask me why i never sleep beside hym. i saed la. i didnt wanna disturb his sleep. he saed he's cold, if i were to sleep beside hym, he's pelok me as a bantal... biler u got boncit, ppl think ure a bantal..when u sleep... trust me.. ahha.. i saed. nah.. didnt wanna bother hym..



Sundae morning



so we decided to see dan n za and this tyme yana was asleep. so didint wanna bother her.. i sat down. we cuddled wif each other and toked n sang and laughed... chit chat. then we had mcd breakfast by the beach. za blanjered us as usual.. thank u dear.. me n mamad had mcgriddle. the new hotcake's lookalike cum tastealike burger. and za n dan got hotcakes. pretty much the same la kan.. then we sat down and laugh n laugh and decided to venture out to sea and search for crabs, jellyfish, oyster, clams, starfish.. it was fun man we found quite a number and went thru bstacle courses. haha

by the tyme we finished it was noon., it was hot as hell.. yana was called and yan went to fetch her, while i bought hym red bull n za blanjaered us green tea n 100plus and we drank till it started to rain. we all crammed into the tent and cuddled again..

while playin psp "dragonball" la.. i know ma boy here likes to play computer games.. he has ma gameboy.. i gave it to him.. haha..



Sundae afternoon



we packed up n decided to go back to the chalet to bathe and refresh ourselves.. we went to this playground first and da boys played the place like hell.. it was awesome.. even the gerls joined us in the roundabouts.. haha..



then we headed to the chalet and i was the ferst to shower.

then dan then mamad.. we relaxed in the aircon room and sung, joked and played psp..

then we ate, rested summore b4 dan n za fell asleep at the top floor..



me n mamad was stilll in the 2nd floor playing the game dragonball together.. then i felt sleepy.. the room is cool.. hmm then yana went to tell us to go upstairs and rest.. we did..

then mamad told me to sleep. he knows im tired.. i did and fell deep in sleep..



Sundae Nyte



this is where it got scary......



ok woke up 2 hrs later. it was dark. yana's fmaily had gone home. it was silent, dark n im alone. mamad was nowhere to be found.. i panicked like fuck as i saw a saw a dark black figurine dash thru the room n went outside. im afraid but plucked ma courage to go out.. better than staying in..



went out, the balcony door was wide open..

i tot mamad n yana was outside but noone was there.. i freaked.. the whole bungalow was fucking dark.. i banged on dan n za' room.. the lights were on and i couldnt find mamad around anywhere.. forgotting about one more room.. dan n za woke up, we went downstairs and i was stoned.



moments later mamad came down from his room and asked me, why i looked pale. he asked me as if i saw a ghost. i just kept quiet. then yana came down. za sat wif me, followed by dan, then mamad n yana..



they saed "kan best kalo salu cam nie.. rileks jer kiter, mcm rmah kiter gitu.."

i agree fact is all of us agree..

we joked went to toilet breaks laughed then orderd KFC..

12 pcs of crispy chix, a popcorn chix and mash potato n coleslaw..

we ate then za reacted weird..



Sundae... 10pm



it gets weirder..



ok... washed our hands, dear mamad got me plain water.. aww.. haha.. ok then he saw a moth and freaked out..

then went up w yana changed to go home. then followed by zan n dan, i went along. took ma bag down and went downstairs to change since zara's in the room. yana's in her room. i dun wanna be alone in mine. so i went down. changed ma pants then, at e corner of ma eyes i saw e dark figurine. i pretended i saw nuttin and turn the tv up.. then i saw again. and again.. 3 times! the last tyme, i freaked out n dashed into yana's room and sat down. yana knows wad happen by ma look.. mamad seemed clueless.. i signalled yana to quicken up as i was gonna shit ma wae thru.. dan n za wasnt aware of it and was dilly dellying... then yana hustle them up.. thanks dear.. we went down and quickly dashed out of the house..



after we went out. i told evryone. actualli za saw it earlier one ready.. at e staircase.. yana's mum saw in the kitchen.. then we really freakeed out..



Sundae late night



hmm went home in the train with dear abg mamad. and played the game on his 'canggih' phone. we had lotsa fun..even as we were walking, in e bus n etc.. sad part. hab to separated ourselves la.. haix.. go home lor.. im tired, he's exhausted.. hope to see hym more often this coming month.. it's alry april know.. hmm.. miz za dan yana n mamad alry.. haix.. haha... loved the trip.. thx evryone!!



now i miz ayul n eyla.. nvr col or sms lor them.. hahha..

Insomnia hits again

hmm apparently ive been blog hopping on the links i have.
rather bored.. as i cant sleep.

1)tomorrow im working.. yet im having insomnia. and im pretty pissed about it...

hmm i cant sleep. having trouble. time check is 330am..

im tired. i am. but it's god damn difficult to be in la la land. i tried to sleep i just cant.
all my frens is asleep.. darn it.

hmm i wonder wad is causing this insomnia.
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2)hmm im pretty sure that im saddened by the fact that i dont really feel good about myself, or something else for that matter that i didnt even knoe. holy, only god knows wad im going thru. i dont know waht or why. but i feel so sad.. is it the depression coming back?

is it the stress? hmm..
i dun know..

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3)hmm tmr there is a chalet by yana, and im not sure i can make it as im werking 2pm-7pm. i dun want them to waet up for me yet at the same time i wanna go. hmm wad if im late and i anger anyone or one thing is for sure im going to be there alone. hmm darn it.. i dun noe ar freaking dilema sak.. wadever..

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4) OMG im so freaking unhappy. and thing is im not sure why. urgh!! i hate this feeling!! ARGH!!

im out!!

Hmm lazy friday..

hmm im somewhat rotting at home now.. but i cant really blame anyone..
as after training yesterdae, i was famished.
ate donut after the long training, but it wasnt sufficient and soon enough, gastric came.
it wasnt till i get home did i gorge down.. darn it.. another guilty pleasure.. if eyla or mamad were to see this, kenek sebat kepale aku..

well i told them i wanted to lose weight but my hunger is unbearable. hmm dunnoe wad got into me.. i finished up the Ayam Masak Merah wiith Rice and ate some Raspberry Ice cream.. mmm... guilty pleasure.. this means, training kenek push myself ledi.. hmm.. so far, i havent start joggin on ma own as im really tied down by werk and such, insyallah if there's a will there's a wae.. i i've gotta stop eating mcd.. haha.. ironic.. werk there but then eat there.. hmm..

ok.. after i ate i watched Music N Lyrics. SOng: Way Back to Love. Sung by Hugh Jackman and this gerl Cora.. i preferred when Drew Barrymore Sang it.. but then i fell asleep, pushed maself to sleep, if not i wont.. anywae, slept thru and todae woke up half past 3. i was still lethargic tho.. i havent had any real food so far but i ate some chix wings n sommore ice cream.. hmm ans some choco bread.. hmm food.. n sugar.. haha.. guilty pleasure in life..

hmm im gonna have dinner right after this post.. while i was online just now, i was chatting with khairi. an old fren.. ouh yar ytd i met Anip.. OMG he's gettin more good looking and more kong.. i soooo darn miz him sia.. hmm me n ma old frens.. haha.. i miss them soo much.. haha.. and Khairi is in HTA, guess whu's e FI........yup... hahaha.. ma dear dear Mamad.. haha..

he was soooooo shocked when he found out tt mamad was ma bestfren ahahhahaha.., wad a small werld..
hmm now im starting to miz him alry.. hopefully we'll meet soon...
till here then.. tata..

Thursdae's the dae huh?

haha.. ok i woke up today. late as usual.. tired from tt idiotic BBQ i had ytd..
was chatting on e phone w eyla toking about the funniest things we can come out wif.. i do appreciate it love.. haha.. thanks..

it's the horoscope for the dae:
Someone needs you to slow down -- you're going full-steam ahead, and this person is feeling a little left behind! It will take everything you've got to quit working on what you've been obsessed by today, but you need to take a break -- at least long enough to give someone in your life the attention they deserve. They have some questions for you, and one or two of them might be uncomfortable. Answer them. You need to prove to this person that they still matter to you.

Anyone wanna ask me somethimg ke? haha.. im moving too fast hurmph.... haha..

Ok hmm thurdae.. met kak pa.. went and ate dinner at banquet at JP. i had carrot cake and kak pa ate tom yum noodle..
thne while waeting for ayeen.. which end up she never come at all..
in the train, kak pa and me made fun of some ppl and we came up w the term PUKEL.. hahahahha.. ask anyone of us.. u'll laugh like fuck..haha

hmm reached persisi, abd dzul gave me my uniform. i was so happy. skali sengkat pulakk.. darn it.. im so happy nie.. hmm i got it exzchanged but have to waet till next week.. alar... this tyme, trg was very vigorous.. but ppl are not many... there's onli 20 of us.. Ayin sick and Ayeen is not present. No reason y.. hmm..

We learnt vigorous kickings mann..
we ran rounds n rounds round the gelanggang, with different sets of kicks, runnig methods n etc.. of course me being me, very clumsy soooo i was like a darn elephant down thre doing the kicks.. hehe then we took out foldeble chairs and did a total of 40 kicks left n right with 2 rounds of jogging for every 20 kicks of each foot. damned im tired.. then
Eyla standard partner w aweng, me n kak pa.. we teamed up for tonjang depans.. with padding.. i only kicked siket jer.. without force n kak pa is alry in pain.. i felt guilty as kak pa e onli left out gerl but then her turn, wah.. she revenge uh.. she kick me like hell haha.. biler part lari je she K.O.. haha.. then she had to muntah... darn it.. so naseb baek there was Faisal.. he held the padding and this time i leashed out.. darn it tt felt good.. comparing my kicks to his, he'd be dead mann if i spar w hym.. apparently i had fun... we did more than 250 plus kicks all together.. my quads n calfs hhurt like fuck.. then biler buat split... OMG.. can die mann.. haha.. hmm we had fun la.. that's the main thing.. just tt im tired... hahaha..

ok.. hmm im so bored tmr.. anyone? bringing me out? i wanna meet someone la.. chill out ke.. haha.. k la.. bubbye..

Hmm my wednesdae night...

hmm lets see.. i got back from the BBQ.
hmm what i can sae.. firstly, i was greeted by Nana.. had a crush on her since like October...jus a crush sadly to sae not the one i still loves..
ok.. in was greeted by her.. man did i felt a gush of happyness..
hmm then Liah greeted me followed by Niyuki..
that afternoon Christine msg me the location of the BBQ. she told me to meet there la.. hmm..

As expected "her" was there.. i dunnoe wheter i shuld reveal whu "her" is yet or not.. so far the one that knows about her is onli ayul.. the only one.. i tink more or less mamad knows la.. but then im not sure wheter i told him anything yet..

OK, "her" will be in intial, T.. ok.. ok thruout me being at e BBQ, T was very clingy to me.. not tt i complain.. i mean, it's susah to get pompan to throw themselves at u wad.. skali tt Nana saw this and i saw tt she was jealous of it. That's why i tried to not be too huggy and touchy2 wit T.. but she is on me, like purposely doing stuff tt makes me uncomfortable.. she was trying togot my pantz off.. wtf... keep tarik2 it down.. cibai.. i sense cattiness between these 2.. in gettin ma attention..for once ppl fite over me.. kekeke.. T was making things hard for me.. haix.. she even ask me, "if u had to take me as ur girlfren, would u? alar.. u wont one la.. im not ur type kan?".. and she kept saying tt for the whole entire event. it kinda got to me.. pissed me off..

ok that was when we were eating..
when we played badminton, she teamed up w ady, nana's cousin.
then we played and me n nana scored a lot and won 3 games. T wasnt happy and perli me n nana a lot. i was like wadevr.. then wen we were about to play basketball, T was like trying to pull me away from nana.. then i tink nana got kecik hati and then dissapeared amongst my crewmates. so i sat w T la.. she kept taking my photos, taking our photos together.. i was like wadever la.. i like cam-whoring anywae.. then she kept saying tt i wanna kiss her.. wtf.. she is soo.. getting on ma nerves.. then when Amelia, my boss, wanted to make a speech, nana sat beside me, and T threw a tantrum at me.. i didnt do anyting wrong so i didnt bother.. then nana saw this n moved away from there..

ok.. was too tired to lyan anyone at tt point. then T was still throwing tantrum soo i went far away and sat w nana and hafiz crew n hafiz rider.. we toked n toked me n nana.. she got interested in the speech and we went on n on... T was nowhere to be found.. i felt as in im starting to like nana.. hmm... mayb, mayb not...
ok.. so. we toked and she shared the same interest as me, and then was called up and i took my cert as i was the STAR, was called up as a promoted STAR.. hmm can sae im proud la.. J____ was jealous of me wad.. wadever la....
ok.. still toking to nana, she got really into our subject then it was time to go home. we exchanged numbers and T saw tt, she grabbed me away from her.. then nana went home w ady n msg me. hmm so sweet... she saed it was nice knowing me, it's the only time she got personal wif me..take care :)...
i was, ok.. u too.. nights..

T saw the msg, she then freaked out.. hmm.. im getting rather pissed off wif her.. ok then i assisted them to clean up, which i didnt want to.. but i did anywaes. then after we took the things to the cab, she grabbed me and them pimpin me. she saed. "walk wif me to store"
then i had no choice la.. she grabbed me and ran across the road.. i tot she was crazy at tt tyme. seriusly.. then she pimpin me and laid on ma arm.. she saed "im a very petty gerlfren u knoe.."
in ma hart.. im freaked out.. seriously.. i just ignored her and do as if nothing was saed.. then biler reached store only, she threw my hand away.. saed. "i dont want those riders think im attached to u la.." i was like wtf.... another fella???? hahah... fella is like tt oso!! see another gerl, dump his current gerl..

hmm then i went home la.. i was so not in the mood to entertain her watevers...
hmmm im so lookin forward for tmr's trg.. hmm.. kenek buat sapuan lagik ke??? in front of lotsa ppl???? paiseh la...........

PS B____, tt fat bitch is wearing shorts and spagetti.. eww... her cellulite is soooo disgusting!!!

Hmm im going on outing today..

ok woke up 1pm. the outing i tot it was 2pm. so woke up earli la. then i looked at the invitation.. see below..

belo pe? it's at 6pm till 10pm la.. hmm anw ayeen cancel last minute lor... aiyo.. haix..

hmm ytd while toking to zhiti someone interuppted and made me looked like im e sort tt cant keep ma mouth shut as i revealed somethin secret to zhiti. i mean im lookin for opinions here.. i know im nt allowed to say it out but in order to know wad is happening, u nid knowledge about wad ure doing rite? tt someone also saed she might have taken the wrong step. tt's y im getting as many point of view as possible.. it's critical tt i dont take the wrong step in life.

and take this in mind. My bestfrens know everything tt i do. and they should. that's y i called them my BESTFRENS. if having them as besties and i keep secrets to them, to da namer nyer tk nk socialised and u dun trust ur bestfrens.

so far 2 ppl has gotten the idea tt im the sort tt cant shut ma mouth to tell hot gossips to others. hey u were there wad. whu was i blabbering to? not just any tom dick or harry, it was ayin, ayul, eyla and mamad. only they know the real truth about our class. those extra yg tau to considered urself lucky tt u hear la. but dun give me tt attitude or face tt shows tt im the one tt bbl world. tk pcaye to wad i sae ur prob. all i know is im not lying and what im sayin is e truth. i can even ask the person tt im toking about if u still du belive me.. but why shuld i bother? ur nt my BFF.. the important ones are the besties. so for ur case, for all i care, F off.. da pasang telinge abeh nk buat muker.. please la..

ok enough about others... hahah.. ok on the wae hum ytd i saw zara.. hmm kinda excite me there.. haha..

hmmm.. the beautiful thing about earth is the werd "children"..

they are the purest of creatures and if they mean love, it's real love. if they mean hate, they'll sedaye upaye wanna hurt u.. true isnt it? but one thing i cant tolerate is naughty kids la.. wats worse is u cant scold them somemore..

grrr... haha.. my job la.. haix.. irritating kids.. ok im siaping to go for the outing now..

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here's a lil sumtin, from liyang.. appreciate it a lot.. thanks dear..

"Oooh yaa.. and a little piece of advice to Riyan, I think rite, that "her's" of urs is actually tring to play hard to get to u.. Or another... Just be wary.. Hmm.. Go with the flow.. Look at what else she's gonna do next.. Coz, from what I read from ur blog, Hmm.... This type of people is usually very cuunning... Or hyprcrite I can say? One time she says she likes u, and the other time she'll say she hates u.. I mean, Im juz stating this as an example.. Try to study her better.. Coz u noe rite, HUMANS.. They are capable of anything... And as a fren, I dont want you to suffer because of her.. Aitezz!! Whenver u feel comfortable talking about ''her'', do tell me ya.. Perhaps I can help u?

Hmm tuesdae..

Ok.. woke up to ayeen's col.
im meeting her 3pm at bnly mrt.
tot wanna have brunch wif her, then go persisi la.. hmm i ate chix rice w extra pedal, egg and extra2 ginger.. hmm da gastric still eat pedas2.. hmm.. nvr learn lesson.. hahaha..

hmm.. tmr, crew outing.. "her" is gonna be there.. hmm liyang, eyla.. i nid a gerl's point of view la.. i dun get wad "her" wants.. hmm jual mahal w me one moment, hug me one moment, then push me away another moment.. haizz.. these r practically the reason y ive been single until todae. tk paham btol aku ngan prangai pompan. but if ma frens, besties or their gfs i can unerstand plakk tu.. haix.. pelik2.. help me gerls!!!

*sorry as far as i can say, i cant reveal whu "her" is until im comfortable wif e idea of toking about "her"*
sorry peepz.. one dae wen im over her, i might tell u whu.. freaking pissed w her, she blew me off again n again.. tmr dunnoe how to tok to her.. haix...

ok.. lets see.. went around j.P, loitering here n there.. hmm our brunch date sucks la.. hahaha.. then got on the train and i fell asleep. caught some ZZZ since i had trouble sleeping ytd. even now... i actualli having trouble sleeping.. thx to the late nite guest i had.. haha.. fazli.. appreciate it tt he came and toked to me about cars n stuff.. werk.. family... but then uh.. makan maser till 3am in the morning leii.. now i cant sleep liao.. hahahaha...

ok we reached bedok and ayeen knocked me to wake me up. haha.. i was shocked.. practicaly wasted the whole tyme at bedok eat soya ice cream which ayeen hate so much.. wakaka.. the she bought Viceroy. smoke smoke.. hmm.. then we went to persisi... coz teraser nak berri. haha.. then the place gelap.. i was kinda scared noe.. takot kenek paitao.. never earli mah.. haha.. quickly called eyla.. my saviour.. haha..

upon seeing her only.. wow!! my prasaan rindu is like in an instant gone.. a good wae la.. haha.. omg i miz her soooo much.. finally see her, hug her then we tok3.. while she find getah rambut. wakakaka. noone carry extra.. funni thing is... she ask me kalo i have getah.. wad the.. hhaahha...

at least ok la.. dari some of my gerlfrens, ask me for.... jeng3.. lagik best... PADDING... lagik best.......TAMPON.. muker aku "female menses store" ke? hahahaha.. idiot.. i freaked out coz i didnt know wad the hell was a tampon. when i saw one. i tot it was a cotton bud.. beh besar lak tu... hmm things a guy shuld never see... later below like me.. i found it on the floor. i carri it around. i say whu drop this "cotton bud pen"??? all ma female co-workers laugh out loud at me.. fcuk!! ke-paiseh-ian like overwhelmed.. i was shocked when they say "it is inserted *here*".. masalahnyer.. dier bleh tunjuk nie.. some gfs even ask me to buy tampon or padding.. like fuck.. i dun even know wad to find.. sooo many varieties.. i can cry sia finding the right one.. slah carik kenek maki... hmmm gerls... kalo da PMS.. im scared.. hahahaha..

then trg.. i cheated hahaha.. abg dzul a bit sot w me.. kekeke.. then learnt some sapuan and tonjang, sabit... hmm i dun get e terms.. thats me... the silat-bimbo.. i saw ayu neyla sparr.. like fun like tt.. but biler guys sparr.. bola kat tekak sak.. hahahah.. so darn ganas... freakingly.. in a way i wanted to fight.. werid kan... haix...

then we went makan and teh ping while eyla is addicted to 100 plus.. coz of me.. wakakak.. okok... then joked around w new frens.. awww so sweett.. hahah..

then sent ayeen home and met fazli.. now im not sleepy.. thx to hym.. haha.. ouhyar.. me n eyla had fun disturbing ayul on the phone.. darn it i mis him already.. hahaha.. signing off.. bye...

**tmr.. crew outing.. meeting ayeen 1pm at bnly...***

My sleepless night..

OK i have one guilty pleasure.. ate a total of 4 bread n 4 eggs. From 5am onwards. i guess it's ok la. as morning is approaching. i am tired. seriously but insomnia got the best of me. i was sleepless thruout the nite tho ive told eyla tat i was about to sleep when i chatted with her jus last night.

ok. after the afternoon post on mondae, yana called me, saying tat she has a chalet at pasir ris and since zara wants to go mancing might as well we go together as her dad oso wanna go fishing. darn it. i dunno if im werking or not. plus sundae have the Heroes season 2 marathon, and i hate to miss it. But if it's for mamad, i dun really mind. as bestfriends comes first before tv.. like durgh! so im in part guilty part plaesure.

i wanna have fun w za, mamad, yana but hey wat if im werking and i have to blow them off?
maybe i'll just meet them the dae after or wat? hmm see la how. im not to sure of my future planning, as wadever i plan sure conferm got something on.

April is drawing near and Mr Aries here is turning 19 soon. He's rather scared to turn older yet hapy in a wae. Being 19 sure gave me a whole lot of thinking..
With NS drawing nearer and nearer and i aint losing weight at a good rate slowly to be exact height isnt going well either and my stamina hmm.. hate it.. my oxygen deficit and oxygen debt is not in proper range. i need that athlete's deficit n debt. i wanna at least get a PES B. it's the only thing that is like 'normal'.. Other PES is limited. Of course if possible PES A is.. a true wow.. u know.. a dream come true for me la.. haha..

hmm im really excited about tomorrow's training as im meeting ayeen at bnly at 3pm. eyla has errands to run w din, fixing their ipods. hmm so im actualli excited to meet her after long tyme. Practically eyla n mamad are the bestfrens that i have trouble meeting ever since MArcH. But april i expect mamad n eyla to be there for me. as many times as possible. not forcing but at least there for me more as to make up for lost times in march..boleh gitu? haha..

hmm.. i wanna have another movie nyte w mamad at ma crib on Star MOvies.. This Saturdae at nine. but hmmm the fishing cum chalet... it's his fav movie is on.. my super ex gf.. darn it..

ok im trying to sleep now. but i cant.. hmm tired yet.. hmm soooo lethargic....

P.S
thanks eyla for being there for me last nyte.. it meant a lot.
thanks mamad for the lovely peach tea, tho it's a simple thing, it's the tot tt counts. it has sentimental value.
thanks ayin for the hugs youve been giving me. helping me have a sense of being love by a fellow 'barney-lover'
and lastly...
thank ayul for supporting me all this while.. wout u i might have cracked up already.. peace out!

Sickly Mondae blues yet..

Hmm this song.. Hot by Avril Lavigne makes me wanna fall in love haha...

hmm im am totally tired. as i havent had sleep for the last 24 hrs. so definitely im drowsy, as u can read the last post was 'full of shit' english language. haha.. i was so drowsy but i need to update this blog daily for ma faithful readers wadd haha..

ok.. woke up ard 8am, i got a call from Zara.. oMg!! i sooo darn miz her..

i tot it was 'her' cause the voice is somewhat cute-cute wadd. i was like omg.. this girl uh.. never give up one la.. haha. see i like 'her' but she seems so be jual mahal yet trying to make me like her, get jealous when she around guys. purposely cling around other guys lor. wadever. im not playing ur games.

ok back to zara.
R:harlow..
Z: hey riyan..
R: not her again... ugh!
Saper nie?
Z: aku la zara...
R: thank god!
ouh.. aper nak? hehe.. sorry aku ingat saper tadi..
Z: haha.. aku nk ajak ko gi mancing this saturday.. nak tk?
R: Insyallah aku blei kalo aku tk keje la..
Z: oh ko da keje eh sounded dissapointed.
R: didnt wanna dissapoint her OK la aku beli amik leave kalo ko ajak mamad skali uh k.
Z: ok aku kol dier ngok aper dier kater.
R: eikk jgn, dier ngah trg. sms jer da ckop. tapikan dier ngah busy ngan intake baru dier la. dont think he can follow tauu..
Z: eh. hmm takper aku try. suare rock and roll pe?
R: i had sorethroat, so i sounded like ramli sarip. uh-uh la.. haha.. suare ramli sarip sak.
Z: haha.. tkpe, idop mesti rock and roll dok.. kla. bye.. apape aku kol ko lagik..
R: k bye..
hangs up.

Then i went back to sleep. tiredness was still hanging around me.
hmm then i woke up 3pm.
hmm showered and ate the obat tt manage to kill the gastric pains. im gg to get more of it.. finally sumtin that can kill the pain. practically the reason y i can sleep. ok. ate maggi curry and then jus rot at home la. people think "hey staying at home is fun wad" for me.. NOT SO.. coz im at home... ALONE.. yawnnn.. im bored! that's y when tt fella came over em wanted to bring along a girl to fcuk. wtf! im my house? ure asking to get castrated u fcuking aHole! haix.. some people.. only sexual minded.. eew disgusting uh!!

so practically im at home, watchin ellen, tyra, doing emails and etc..
hmm hope someone calls me and we chit chat or sumtin.. hee

My fine sunday..

**b4 anything, i'll like to sae.. dear peepz, dun wori. fellas that i rant about, are never that have access to ma blog, are my besties, or have any association w my besties eg: their bf/gf. Dun worri. it's not abt u guys. i love u guys too much to hate u haha.. ok.. hehe.. ask me, i'll tell u whu... even as im writing i picture the fella's face... so yeah.. ask me dudes n dudettes..**

i couldnt sleep. the gastric pain got the bez of me. gotsome shut eye.
time: 6am. woke up:7am. been rolling up and down side by side ever since till a personal miracle happened. if u tink so, about hym... ure right. i dreamt of mamad again.
this time he just stand there as tho he's bragging abt something but in a good wae.

finally after nearly a month mamad called me using papa's cell. i was totally in pain yet somewhat relived. im so freaking happi. yet in pain. i dun care. went str8 up from bed, mandi and went out, packed up all werk stuff also.

9am, time check. went to mamad's crib.
wow! mamad slim down ledi uh? more inspired to run siaa.. haha..
but one flaw. im sick. got flu,phlegm,gastric and sports injury on my left knee. darn it but the urge to run was there..
and of course eyla's werd of wisdom, " do it slowly, it is possible." the losing weight lar..
my aim.
current weight: 79kg. to achieve 65kg by end of e yr. height 1.73cm. by end of year at least 1.80cm.. must do lotsa jumping n streching.. ayul da tinggi, mamad da tinggi, eyla da tinggi.. humph! im jeles u!!! haha.

ok so we ran. the phlegm got to me.. i choked to the thick gunk! the phlegm!
towards 4th round the track, i gave up. the tireness was..
OMG i can soo do much better, as usually i 4th round, im still ok. the plan was to run 6 rounds.
totally upset.with maself. then headed to his crib and eat wif him n papa.
then i rested whiles trying to doze off. then at last papa doze off. hmm went to his room and chatted about greek mythology.
he stroked the right nerve. the right passion. i am soooo IN to greek mythology.. pandora's box, titans, olympus, zues, cronos.. name it.. i knoe. he was seriosly having a celebrity crush on the god of war, Ares. ma favourite 'god'.. hahaha

ok then we siaped and went out as i had werk at 2pm n he has pract at 210pm.
went to gombak, he bought me peach tea.. aww so sweet aint it? haha.. ok i love peach tea la.. then dapat free somemore.. haha.. excited sejap. tot wanna buy apple tea. then he bought apple tea ledi so i dont wan same2, coz wanna jamah here n there. tapi tk sempat. coz the rate we were toking, sampai terluper smuer.. hahahaha..
ok then was walking then he saed "thanks for sending me to bBdC yeah. you really dun mind?"
"nope. i dun mind. i;d do anything for my bestfren." i smiled.
"ape je ko nie.." he saed. as he wekk by him self. then i pujok hym lor.. kekeke.. wekk a bit muz pujok back haha.. he same like ayul.. haha..

ok then sent hym off to bbdc then im off to werk.
foe the ferst tyme, ppl actually LOVE me being around in work..
Siti actually screamed my name and hugged me.. saying she miz me this and that.. awww so sweetttt.. haha.. i feel so good.. hahah..
the mgr shawn also veri inviting.. of course noriel was superb. he greeted me from far.. i feel so touched hahaha..

ok today aunty kam cmg again for verification number 2. for me n christine.
darn it. 2 parties, 2 new STAR, 2 dumbo topcats and an irritatin annoying bee-yotch tt is writhing up our ass as we werked.. i tell u the party is sooo distorted, i got idiots as topcats and evrything bertrabor!!! and i got good again! isk!!! 85% only.. same as ytd.. 1% more n i'll pass.. n get excellent.. fuck la.. i got goos christine got 'needs improvement.."

im sooooo tired from werk than stay in store, evaluated, chit chat, meeting, toked to mgr ant time was 11pm. so msg mamad b4 i went home. ask hym to take a rest.. hmm tomorro ayul turn for me to look after. sayuri gg camp.. hope u have fun babe! haha.. past 3 daes liyang ask me to look after her yangyang mah.. hehe.. i did a good job ok.. i love my bestfrens.. haha.. so i treat them like diamonds. theyre diamond wad.. have to be found not made. i found the most valuable bunch of diamonds here.. hahaha.. smiles..

till here then.. tmr im gg store, nyai hse, see mp, go court.. hmm mondae blues... wakakka..

I hope u guys are happy, my A ok day turned ugly at night!!

woke up late. i woke up at 11am.
wewrk at 12pm. darn it. yet im so darn sleepy, so i slept longer n texted Janet tt im cmg later at 2pm. woke up at 1pm, dragged maself to werk. apparently, im no longer like e old me, im actualli happy to come to werk. surprising. ok. punch in, and shawn told me tt aunty kam is cmg for my party verification, damned! im unprepared, i was shocked, i didnt bring my whistle, etc, my SDP is with kak Faridah.. darn it.. evrything is sooo unplanned, i hate things done unplanned, at least if it is at least im prepared to face it but this time it caught me by surprise..

saw aunty kam, in case u were wondering whu aunty kam is, she my SAE, my executive, my big boss..

i did evrything of couse impromtu. then i wasnt left to do a party alone for soo long. since nov 2006! then Janet suro buat sendiri. i was like wtf!! im so like caught unguarded. so i just acted normal and 'bumped' here n there and scored a 'good' for my verification.. that's a 'fairly pass' in STAR terms.. a normal STAR scores Excellent or Outstanding. so i actualli failed...

anw aunty kam cmg tmr for 2nd verification i hope this werks.. isk..

then i tried to call ayeen, she didnt answer. then called again afterwards and she answered.
hmm ok la.. she told me evrything, one thing lead to another, now im freaking angry w tt fella.. whuever u are.

ferst it's silat, then madrasah now it's werk?
u just smudged my good name by not attending for the orientaion day.. fuck u!!

of course im angry about some other stuff but i cant exactly say.

one fella janji with me then cancelled laz min.
one fella tink's im angry at em then pester me, now i am angry wif em.
one fella nvr tell things as they shuld be and got me i hot soup.
one fella dont wanna take the tyme of dae to listen to wad i have to say then take it the wrong way.
one fella is so bz to even return my col or sms.
one fella is alwaes online but when asked to face e music, dun wanna face.
one fella is testing my patience by trying to be funni when im not in the mood.
one fella didnt wanna listen to my life story during phonecalls and then keep claiming that em is bored. how to satisfy ur boredom if u dun wanna listen to anything i sae.
one fella i saed no ______ allowed still bring.
one fella ask me to look after this n that and this and that when im bz and dun wanna ask another fella that is free to do it.
one fella want me to go to a place that i clearly dun have the time to spare nor do i have to urge to go. but no choice im have to coz em got wad i wanted.
one fella knowingly know that im broke ask for $$ to go doctor. After 2 yrs of dissapearing.
one fella think that im so free to layan em's babbling.
one fella expect me to forgive em when im angry with em.
one fella really cant understand what i have to sae and then goes angry with me.

all i can say is.. fuck all of u fellas!!! im freaking pissed at u guys...

watever uh!!

My Night Out!! Good Fridae cum Maulidur Rasul!

Ok.. here's the thing.

i was laughing my heart out today when i watched Pesta3.. haha..

woke up earli to rmind mad of the happenings today. he saed he's gg cycling w papa.
ok.. so i tot he'll b back on tyme. but soon after he didnt repli and ard 4pm when i was about to go out to meet hym he saed tk jadi. bedek kan kalo ckap im happi bout it. sigh!

called ai ying, gg out w d. called zhi ti she had plans. called yus, gg out w wan, call berox werking.

not tt im hated them for not cmg jus tt i hate it when last minute plans got to a halt. like this and e ppl i need ard me werent ard. dun worri guys im ok. jus a bit annoyed.

so i just lazed at home till 6pm.

Anne called me so i was sharing my possy life. ups n downs. of which of course downs beat the ups. i chatted with her about her life blah blah and toked to her for almost two hours of which when we stopped talkin was when i met ayul at jurong east mrt. he was waeting for me there with a stoned face. aww.. i bet he was tired as i can still see exhaustion in hym.

chatted wif hym all the wae to harbourfront and waeted for sayuri, i kept on chit chatting until she came. i hope i didnt bore ayul.. hehe..

ok first thing we do, eat at BK. we took pix and stuff..
then we went walked here and there window shopping and ayul wanted to buy air max. haha.. that was fun. hmm i really had fun shopping ard..

hmm then after that, we headed to haagen daaz and had a good guilty-pleasure sweet treat f expensive ice creams. yumm.. we had belgian choc, lemon sorbet, mango sorbet, straberry, strawberry cheesecake, and both were topped with hot choc fudge and cookie crumbles... yummmmmmmmmm.........

hmm then we walked here and there and decided to watch a movie.. yeah!! i wanted to watch 10 000BC but sumtin caught our eyes.. at least mine's better, ayul wanted to watch water-horse/horton.. total waste of money!!! haha.. ok we watched VANTAGE POINT!!!

IT WAS AWESOME!!! i loved it soooo much!!

then we headed home and in the train we actualli toked of plans we gg out or wad.. plus ayul's un-stopping fart-a-thon.. hmm... until sayuri had to sae "naek sedap ehk kentot2kan org"..
haha
i think his farts made her sick cause she was weak.. and sleepy.. hmm take care peepz..haha..

hmm tmr im working at 12pm.. darn it.. till 7pm.. there's a party.. hmm im making money!!!

should i or shouldnt i put hopes to meet my hopefuls? dissappointed! realli....

A pleasent surprise

Wad do ya know.. just when i tot all else fails, mamad actualli msned me.. really surprised me tho.. i was about to shut down when the small yet annoying Messenger pop-up..
it says: "An..................................................."
I thought it was a virus as this super old version of msn is so unused in my life. haha.. then i clicked on it. it was MAMAD!!! oh my god.. i was soo darn excited i was ultimately shocked. i quickly invited him for the haagen daaz.. i hope he can come. whu would have tot. i dreamt of hym and the next thing i know, he contacted me.. fuyohh..kinda scary YET a pleasent surprise.

Hmm i wanted to meet up wif him tho but he declined as he wanted to do something at home.. even papa called me.. omg! i fcuking miz him la.. i had dreamt of him too remeber.. and today new boss called sherri and the rest for a meeting.. i cant believe new boss didnt call me.. deng!! watever.. hmm.. okok.. i freaking excited as tommoro is Good Fridae and i hope my haagen daaz evening will be fun as there's ayul, mamad, sayuri.. eyla, no sound from tt day lor.. haix.. relli starting to miz her.. hmm.. and i koled ayul, he didnt answer.. woiii... answer ma kol la.. im bored sia..

okok..
ryan signing off...
tata..

Hmm a sleepy thursday..

Im somewhat depressed.. SOMEWHAT! not totally..
hehe. due to training... darn it.. no training!!!!!

***one thing i wanna say, Tyra Banks Came out with a new campaign... the "So What?" Campaign.. i am supporting this campaign!! i mean we are not perfect.... Sooooo what?! hahaha..

hmm. okok my thursdae...
i woke up 430pm as i was really tired from training the day before and even tho im tired, i cant sleep, that suck.. i do.. i do have insomnia.. darn it.. it sux big tyme mann..
ok i woke up after a somewhat refreshing yet weird dream.

my dream...
i dreamt of mamad. we were going home, in a bus. Bus 185. weird that i can remember this. ok.. bus 185, but the bus doesnt go according to bus 185 in reality la.. ok. me and mamad were at the back of the bus. mamad got home from training..the bus originates from HTA.. how weird is that? i actualli went there to pick him up. So, he was asleep with a couple of rude chinese guys, young guys around, 16-20, they were also sleeping. practically evryone in the bus is. so so we reached our stop. which went past CC, we saw papa at the CC. In real life. bus doesnt pass there..We actuall stopped at this ulu place.. so scary.. thing is before we alight the bus, i had trouble waking up mamad. again in real life, im the one that's liat. I scratched his head, like how he would if he woke me up. Then i slapped him lightly until he actualli did woke up. when he did he was drowsy and i had to carry him and my side. then then bus halt and he fell on the ground and fell near the grabpole. funny bit.. his pants actualli fell off and exposed his cartoony boxers.. in the dream i laughed at him. he was too sleepy to realised. i had to smother him. hmm then i woke up with a rude awakening by my sister's playing Soulja Boy crank that music.. in chipmunk!!! darn.. hahaha..

Woke up and was super hateful towards my stomach. it hurts.. plus my hand are still aching from the puching. da tumbok naek sedap.. haha.. when i was a 'punch virgin', it hurts till my hand were covered in blisters.. Ayin was covered in blisters tho.. hahaha..
hmm realli missed mamad didnt i.. and this eyla.. nvr col me yet!! eylaaaaaa!!! haha..
hmm.. now im really bored cause no training, no fun im bored rotting at home.. damned!!!

P.S I HATE The Naked Brothers Band.. the music they produce are like SHIT!!!! fcuk uh!!

ryan signing out,
for now!! smiles..

The sweetest ad yet somewhat funny..

Wednesdae night..

Ok.. here;s wad i did the whole dae.
Woke up earli. 1pm, forced myself to go BBDC. Darn it.. i Have to complete my FTE!!
darn!.
ok.. so went to BBDC, i actualli failed my FTE by ONE qn!!!!!
Im so freaking pissed. now i have to book another time slot to make it work.
haix.. it was raining i was wet.
hmm..

Ok met my mum at jrg point and time check it was almost 5pm.
Im meeting ayeen n sherri at 6pm. not enough time for me to complete all the chores and errands mum ask me to do. hmm.. so bought stuff. and headed home to change and then head off to Bnly mrt and met sheeri her bf n ayeen. hmm..
thruout the train ride, im super lazy, but a part of me die die wanna go silat trg! since tuesdae da cancel!!

ok reached bedok and we waeted for ayin as i siped on my green tea and ayeen and sherri puffed up. i was bored. then ayin came wif a super black face. im guessing she had a tiff wif her gf. well it was true. she explained wad happened.

when we got to persisi, abg dzul call for us, then ditched the four newbies aside. im like wtf! we're like tk pkai like tt. since all 4 of us, had no perguruan. darn! he just tossed us to the seni people. the seni people took us at first. Firhan, took the streching part, then they tossed us aside and we were dunked! abg sheik saw this and got us to put on shoes and did physical, i mean at least we're doing something. we ran 6 rounds at the perimeter of the netball court cum carpark, and as i ran i heard "YOUNG LIONS" at the soccer stadium, i was like AYUL!!!! he's here in bedok!!! hahaha.. i was excited la but had to focus on the run, which ayin zoomed pass us and sherri took the 2nd lead while i decided to motivate ayeen. she gave up quite a lot but i managed to push her. i was telling her..
'it's a miracle i can run and motivate others, i usually the loser whu gives up.. hahaha.. i guess i nid anak2 papa jumali beside me than i can run uh'
then ayeen laughed.
haha.. that's funni.

ok after the run abg sheik personally trained us punching the sandbag, kicking the sandbag where we hurt ourselves, bruise, blueblack, scratched, peel of skins at the horrible sandbags but he realli took us in and trained our asses off!! i mean, right now, im shivering while typing as my flexors hurt from the vigourous punches. my plantar flexion area is bruised!! im in pain... thing is IT IS FUN!!!!!! hahaha.. i didnt know pain is fun.. hahah.. okok.. tmr trg cancelled due to malidur rasul.. damned!! i wanna train.. i guess i'll be doing joggin.. maybe.. hmm eyla werk lor.. nvr go trg.. i super mis her.. speaking of miz.. the whole persisi reminded me of mamad!! waaaaaa.... i miz my bestie. hmm he not free ke to meet me? keke.. i wanna eat haagen daaz this fridae w ayul n sayuri, mr n mrs ahlau. i wan hym to join. hehe.. if cnnt nvm. i jus hope u can make it for e event i plan tau!! hmm.. okok.. we trained n abg sheik offered us to join grasio. i agreed. hmm at least ader perguruan.. hee.. i love abg sheik.. my inspiration.. i tot he's like sombong n stuff.. hey i was wrong.. hahah..

cant wait for next week's training!!! weeeee.....

The truth about my Tuesday!! kinda kewl!

Ok.. didnt catch any zZZZzzzZZZ since yesterday..
ok. plan was to siap, and go to school around 9am.
i went to shower, go readi, changed then waited for qahar's message.
apparently i smsed ayul oso ant told hym i may not come to school as sleepy and told hym by 10am if i get no message, im catching some ZZZzzzZZZ! so i did. and i woke up around 1pm.

me being lethargic and not being rested enough, i was really tired yet i went to meet him at BB. timecheck was 2pm. we talked and talked. while waiting for ayeen. the interview was 230pm. ayeen kept us waeting till 4pm. of which, my meeting is suppose to start. so i had to leave them first and went into the store.

Standard, awkward silence was the actual thing that kept us waiting as C___ is late. And the STAR, Y____ was promoted to a Trainee Manager and there are dozens and dozens of managers around. My boss, A______ was training lots of managers due to a new system in the MCd which is MFY. Made-for-you.

It's a new order of how to serve customer better. Ok.
So me and my four other Stars joked about it. the CMI manager. "cannot make it" manager.. haha.. there'e this indian malaysian manager that i think has esteem problems and i personally find him a loser! haha.. hmm then tt B___ was around, showing of her fat ugly face trying to impress us with her "Beauty"..

Omg. One think to think about.. Some people are beautiful, but are not showing off. But why are ugly people tries to act beautiful and show off? B____ u are soo weird.. U backstab. U sabo! ur a bitch arent you? hmm just watch out and just dont cross me ok!

Okok..
so the meeting was held and A_____ held the meeting professionally, we all were. None of us showed any anger and resentment, DEspite the message that was sent to us, which apparently shock the other stars. But hey, the matter was resolved. i was granted the taxi fare. and we talked things out. So all miscommunications were resolved.

Hmm Bukit Batok being a party Hub, Mcdelivery hub, normal Mcdonald and a upcomin dessert kiosk and a Mccafe, we are always aimed by lots of other stores, esp the stars.. We are labelled the "5 STAR Store" Literally.. there's me, S___ M___, C_____, C____ and J____. I mean we are proud to say the most lucky store ever. We are made of lots of strong people. but we lack of the party topcats (helpers). And because of future plans, we are aimed at.

Hmm.. ok thruout the whole meeting ayeen and qahar was outside, went to westmall and etc. And i took down the Minutes. Haix. then i have to type it out. and send to all STARs a copy. So A____ told us about the future plans of what's gonna happen.. Hmm the future 2nd kitchen.. wow! im really excited. apparently ppl that aim us is stores like ant toa payoh, kallang, King albert park.. places that is impossible for us to adjust to. hmm i'll see how la.. i wanna help but with trainings and stuff.. hmm kinda impossible to plan my wae la.. haic.. since january sia.. the difficulty to wield my timing with training timing and working timing and spending tyme with loved one timing.. apparently the spending tyme with loved one is very tight. if i werk, i cant spend tyme. hmm i dunnoe la.. then the people i wanna spend tyme with is also kinda inconsistent. im thinking of picking up graveyard shifts. if the new mccafe is opened, and qhar or ayeen is werking then im gonna werk graveyard. at least i have friends around.

hmm.. ok. A____ ordered our Uniform and will give us the paper back on the 26th of March ans there'll be a Crew Outing and STARs are invited. So it's from 2pm to 6pm. There's BBQ. this is so gonna be awkward.I dont realli know the crew there.. im only like closer to the STARs. hmm..how? i would come, eat then i think im gonna meet someone after that..i wonder who..
ok the interview did happen. both qahar and ayeen got it but at a low rate of $3 an hour. as crew first. so. hmm sabar eh.. pelan2 Beanies (baristas) earn a lot. 1.6k a month. as a crew, u earn lesser. so tahan for a while. until the store closes.. hold on there.

Once mccafe opens.. that;s when the magic happens.. haha.. ure money will grow.. like mine.. till i get an actuall timing. Planning to work weekdays i mean on floor. then hmm work at night, matbe.. see how.. evrything clashes..
Hmm, after the interview, we went to have our dinner, during the interview tho i met anna and pakjad. haha.. ok.. ok after the interview, we ate, i ate nasi goreng paprik thai and qahar ate mee hor fun and ayeen scraped off my food. good thing tho, i was full halfway thru. that's weird.. haha.. went home in 174, and i slept the whole journey thru.. hmm.. im realli tired huh?

ok.. so.. that;s the whole plan. ok let me see.. i was sleeping. slept at 9pm woke up 2am due to the gas pains ive been having.. damned it.. now i cant sleep as im nursing the fcuking gas pain. made hot Milo, and ate some chicken.. and now im somewhat sleepy... hmm watchinh Tyra and Ellen.. hmm it's fun! haha.. hmm..

I got a fcuking kekek of my life!!! watch it!!

Mondae nite.. Not so bad.. it was fun..

Hmm ok.. so i went to commonwelth.
reached there 8pm sharp. yawned. noone was there yet.
text sayuri n ayul.. ayul at tnjg pagar and sayuri was walking there.
hmm.. so i sat down and started to sing in ma head..
-la la la la la-
haha..
then sayuri came.. omg she's getting thinner.. and apparently darker.. *deng*
ok.. then ayul came. chey wah abg2 laz nyte nie sachok pe. haha.. ok he's getting taller.. omg..
evryone seems taller now. eyla taller, ayul taller mamad taller. hey are they taller or am i getting shorter? but i noticed i am too getting taller. and i lost weight too.. from 85kg to 79kg now.. woah! big shocker huh?
hmm.. weird..

ok so we went to the kedai mamakz.
sayuri ordered maggi kuah, ayul nasi ayam penyet and me maggi goreng. been hooked at it since tt dae training at tampines ite, remember sey, the dae i didnt meet mamad. haix..
okok..
so we ate, as usual, ayul and his usual 'child-likeness' that u'll never get sick off.. haha.. they got me laughing the whole tyme. hmm sayuri holds a close resemblence to my aunt, Kak Yan.
hmm.. yeah. weird. yet kewl my family call me abg yan, and my aunt kak yan.. our age gap is not tt far. she's only 24.
okok.. hmm so after food, ayul ordered thosai. then me n sayuri ordered kerang. which is so damned overcooked. but hey it's nice. sayuri blanjer me.. haha thanks sayuri..
hmm then after food we went to send sayuri home. where ayul n sayuri we toking about their future and stuff.. aww so sweet.. haha..
then sent her home, me and ayul chit chat while we go home. hmm him? standard, everything oso scared. i wanna go to the last cabin of the train but he insisted to go to the middle. tkot hantu pe?
kekek ar lu!
haha.. ok so in the train we were joking about 'DKK' darah kel**g K.. cant sae ledi haha.. too many m***kz ard..
hahah.. hmm.. ok then he went off at jrg east abd i headed home..
i have a big dae ahead of me tmr..

9am- school. im gg in home clothes. juz gnna be there to watch ayul coach.. gg there w qahar.
230pm - qahar n ayeen interview w amelia. damn it i hope they get e job!!
4pm - the dreaded confrintation cum urgent STAR meeting. i hope i
'win' n not embaress myself.
supposeably 4pm i have student councilor meeting one i wanna go coz i wanna collect my SC jersey!! darn it!!
i hate ma job lar!!

went thru some jobs.. suggested by berox n sayuri.. hmph! no avail.. all want full tymers..
wtf!
hmm k la.. wish me luck for tmr.. i hope i 'win'.. darn it.. hmm... how? how? how?
hmm da la saket... haix....

hmm fridae me ayul n sayuri got another date. Haagen Daaz date haha.. hopefully at Vivo.. i like Vivo.. haha.. hmm.. see la how.. c u guys ard.. EYLA!! wanna join us???? col me!!!

Hmm.. Mondae blues..

Ok.. let me see..
i was up till super late. woke up at 2pm.
so i managed to eat lunch when my boss smsed.

"Hi all, pls note, there isnt claims 4 attachments to stars esp requesting for taxi claim to n fro. This is not part of e entitilment 4 crew, stars n mgrs. it is our part to help out others. in the company standing point. Do refer to me if u have any doubts"

i was like.. wtf! janji laen, cakap laen.. cibai!

i replied this, i dun know which part eh im being rude.. i am not..

"What about the taxi fare i went home in? i was instructed by B____(my mgr). to take cab back home. i got the receipt. Will i get to claim?"

then she lepaskn tanggungjawab, of coz i angry.

"i dun knw wats e agreement w u and B___. pls chk out w her."

**hello? arent u guys suppose to like COMMUNICATE?! Good thing i went according to posts. kalo tk sae im insurbodinate! CB!

I saed this..

" Now they already promised me two way ok. Ok never mind. next time no more attachments for me. I dont want to help out. Thanks for the information though..

teros dier bingit.. i tok abt different thing, she tok abt different thing. u see uh..

"Pls b discreet. As i said i dun know wat's happening btween u n B___. and u r a Star, i dun xpect such behaviour fr u either fr e rest. Who is e one WHO sae stars can claim taxi fare 4 star attachments? ? Pls b mindful wat u hav juz said. C me tmr at bb, 4pm since u hv great doubts."

Im like. wtf!! im toking abt the ckn5 store not abt the money w B__.. prangai sak nie boss! iskh!

i repli

"Thing is already saed can claim.. I will forward u the message C___ sent."

fwded msg fr C____ : "rian 4pm to ckn5 blk 533 outdoor 23 kids 2 way taxi can claim."

She replied. sott sendiri.

"Let's clear up tis mess TMR w all e stars 4pm!"

I replied
"Ok"

Then F_____(my party manager)

"Hi stars, pls meet me(Boss) at bb tmr, 4pm 4 urgent meeting. txn. F_____ please do a follow up on the stars. Txn."

**btx txn mean thank u in ma boss language.

then boss smsed again.

"let's clear up tis mess TMR w all the stars 4pm! I dun xpect a star to hv such behaviour n wil nv accept! stop e SMS talk outfront!"

hmmm tngok uh ko. see how tmr, nvr accept? accept ma ass..
promised laen criter laen. u think wad ur e boss u cn do anyting u want?
fcuk la. u see la tmr..

_______________________________________________________

hmm thruout i was like pissed,
then i msn sayuri.. me her n ahlau gg for a dinner later at cmmwealth.
as below.. me n ahlau.. wee~~ excited..

Riyan: Sayuri invited me to dinner wif u guys tau.. u dun mind? if dun mind nvm coz im super super poaiseh to intrude..

Ahlau: Eh? Datang uh. Nak paiseh buat pe?

Riyan: haha.. tk biaser la.. hehehe nnt tk kcau krg ke?

Ahlau: Takde lah. Its just having dinner je.

Riyan: hahaha.. ouh ok. hmm.. u dun mind eh.. later u msg me uh k.. tell me wat tyme to go out. meet u at cmmnwealth mrt?

Ahlau: Hmm. 8 at commonwealth.

Riyan: ok u finish wad tyme? sayuri sae meet at 730 tauu..

Ahlau: Me finish 730 lah. 8 k.

Riyan: okok 8pm cmmwealth. apaper ku kol ko.. she ask, hw cum u finish so late?.. i msn her. ok 8pm then.. ok she oso agree

Riyan: lpas trg sms me k.. i log off ledi. apaper text ma fone. hmm.. cant waet for e dinner.. wee... excited sia.. wakakaka..

We agreed. Sayuri agreed, ahlau agreed. kewl.. im having dinner w mr n mrs ahlau.. wee.. at least sumting good is happening for one.. tsk tsk..

Hmm.. Late yet im still awake..

Holiday's is not much of a holidae..
hmm..

---fyi---
ok lately kak sayuri is STILL online even at this hour.. u know wad.. SHE's ASLEEP!!! kekeke..
kekek ar lu kak.. listen to kenangan terindah till she went dooosy..
i msned her ard 11 plus if im not wrong and no repli.. tup tup he bf call her, never pick up.. *gedish*.. must be realli tired huh? take care kak!!..

haha..
ok.
things that kept me up..
online wif eyla till the crack of dawn, where she mutters about sneakers..
she and her dope sneakers.. her "im going to get ...." and "IDK".. me n eyla use acronyms.. hehe..
so she felt sleepy, force me to sleep coz i didnt wanna.. kekeke..

oh yar, finally swallowed pills cause both ayul and eyla demanded that i took it..
aww.. i have the sweetest bestfriends.. no wonder they have sweet gfs n bfs.. hmm din? sayuri? yana? hmm.. hahaha..
*thug-thug* i knoiw u guys are smiling as im typing this.. **gedish** kembang uh tu.. hahaha..
okok.. before ur heads explode..

ok i was reading thru liyang's blog and i almost shed tears. im so sorry honey, i didnt know you went thru a lot. i can relate to ur problem so much cause im facing the same ones too... day in and day out, family problems. and sometimes i feel like giving up on life too.. so i guess God meant us to meet to console each pther i guess.. hmm.. same person being removed from both our lives for a temporary tyme. U know wat.. hold on there.. im holding on too..
Take care....

When i went to watch Disney on ice, the show started to show my favorite cartoon. Lilo N stich. i couldnt really recall why it's my favorite until the phrases struck my heart. Spoken by Lilo herself. Young girl. Yet she is going thru wad i am. Hmm.. a fictional chracter tt is like me..

phrases goes:

"Ohana means family, famiy means nobody gets left behind or forgotten"

"We are a broken family arent we Nani?"

"Get out, a shooting Star.. i wanna make a wish.... Dear God, i wish that you would send me a good friend. Send me an angel as my friend.."

Hmm.. thruout Lilo and stich segment,i was caught in tears.. but my sister n cousin didnt see that. thanks to the lighting, it shadowed me..
hmm..

things are true up here.. the quotes..

for one thing, not to be proud of it, it still hurts, i am from a broken family..
wad u expect. i may look all jolly and jovial but look properly. behind my evry smile is a tear, waiting to burst out. Loneliness becomes a friend in this case as i dun realli know how to approach my problems. im scared to. i ran away from it before, now that it's caught up with me, im chained to it!

next thing, and besties, please dont be sad by this, you guys know i love all of you equally but this i have to say..

"send me an angel as my friend."
i guess i have made this prayer before. yes i did.
before i was backstabbed by the ppl whom i trust. the actual thing that kept me from trusting ppl.

I guess God did answer my prayer. I found Mamad. My own Guardian Angel. he is. No im not bragging this because he's big bodied, has looks and stuff. No. Ask him. he was once the most hated guy i know. In fact all my bestfrens were once hated.

But hey, now im changed. Mamad Ultimately changed me. that's y im able to see a bigger picture, find good friends, which i did and love so much. But of course the love would ultimately be for him. i owe him evryhting.

God answered my prayers. and i pray to God everyday, telling Him to bless Mamad, for he is a good soul. Of course ppl those out there who dont know him personally, please. Stop it. Stop judging him. Stop making him the Bad Person! Ask yourselves WHY?
Why r u doing this? Please stop it. He is like my abang. The one i respect most. Get it in your head. The fact is there. you cant change it, walau brape kali you guys brainwash me to hate him, i wont. I cant.

And now you say things about Ayul plak? WTF!
Stay out of my life! My friends atre my friends. Where were you when i was crying my hart out?
You were out dating ur BF! Fcuk U! he's been on my side all along. Calling. On the phone. The one who console me that week. My brother.

I am thankful, bersyukur and could never ask for anything more. i have them. get it in ur heads.

and now god granted me a sister. Eyla. One who i pour my hart to too..
can u imagine if they found out about Eyla. and what they'll say about her?
im keepin Eyla n Ryin hidden.
play safe.

i am thankful that i have them as my friends and i hope our friendship last forever. I love all of you! treasure u..

im out..
Ryan

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Sickly sunday..

OK today i was pretty sick!
woke up to the morning, having BB mcd to call me, asking about yesterdays
incident.. Caller n Me.

C: ryan, who authourised the 2 wae cab thingy?
M: C___ lor.
C: ok. really her?
M: ya. and the ckn5 RM.
C: RM oso?
M: yeap.
C: ok thank u. bye.

then i went back to sleep. as usual, mornings are filled with hangover.
apparently mum is sick too. eyla also sick..
hmm.. macam wanna die like dat. im sick, then im not. sick then im not. haix..

msn w ___ ytd. she sounded sad. i asked y, she retaliated fiercely. hmm.. think she miz ___ uh. my advice, take care dear. hmm i may have been a lil bit hurt when u retaliated tt wae when i wanna help u but hey, i was intruding. sorri ya, and take care. i miz ___ oso.

hmm.. ok today's story.
i didnt realised tt todae was a sundae,
i mean.. sundays suppose to be fun n relaxed. but nope.
haix..
and i owaes spend tyme wif ah yang. if not wif Ck.
but hey.. they're busy.
even zhiti was busy. was expecting her to call me whole dae. but none.
hmm..

so afternoon
went to makteh's house, and that;s practically what i did..
spend the whole dae at makteh's house.
hmm.. yawn,, im so damned bored.
da la sick, bored. ugh! damned Pissed off!!!

hmm went home msn w ayul, eyla n yus. tt's all..
anw. next tue.. 24th mar is yus bdae.. damned dunnoe wad to get hym!!
hmm...
any ideas or suggestion??

Sumtin Stupid to ponder about

Came across this idiotic commercial!

Saturdae's fine..

ok.
got up real late as the usual 9 to 2pm has been altered to 2pm to 730pm.
hmm..
so got up at 10am, showered, cleaned my room, changed my bedsheets
and left for work by cab at 230pm.
today my store has attached me to Limbang Mcd's CKN5.
they have agreed to pay a two-way taxi fare, thus i agree to go there by cab..
common sense kan?
got there they saed the party was pushed backwards to an hour late.
damned it. sat there and got to know the people there, apparently, gossiped about their store lor.
i met this makcik, 2 gerls, indian boy, and a malay boy, god knows their names.
made frens with them and heard how the RM(restaurant manager, Boss) is about. His name is J__, his manager the useless one is the 2nd in asst. her name is C___..
management team there? SUPER Irresponsible!!
ok, packed evrything, their STAR, Tomy had to go off, so im covering for hym, the next party.
then when we're about to go off, C saed go ferst, the cab is alry waeting. tt bitch didnt give me money, how to pay the cabbie? bodoh sak nie manager!
ok. so i did as told, got to the party place, and well, did an excellent job. Without realising it.
Without any help from the topcats (party helpers). CKN5 sent 2 of them! both useless.

After i finished werk, got to the store and requested the 2 wae transport.
C passed the responsibility to A__ the 1st asst. A passed to J, J passed to C, ended up C n J passed to A. then A purposely wasted tyme and dragged herself to work
sengaja tknk layan aku nyer kes..
so finally when she got to me,
she spoke in mandarin...
(fyi, i can understand n speak light mandarin)
it goes..translated in english..

A: He cant claim transport wat? why bother giving?
C: i know, but he claim he shuld have.
A: No need he dont need it wad. not applicable to him.
C: silence
J: Just give, i approve of it.
A: Cannot! Cannot give him!
ME: (in english, buat dier cuak!) CANNOT?!
M: cannot? whu sae cannot?
A: still shocked, im not lying, mouth opened.
M: wad do u mean cannot?
A: even managers attachment cannot wad.
M: im sorri, do i look like a manager to u? im a STAR ok! dun compare me with manager!
A: but u cannot claim wad.
M: As agreed by my managers, can wad, that's y i come, if next time, you dun wanna pay, dun call for a attachment STAR, get ur own STAR to do it. ok. Good thing i come here and help u guys, as agreed. I wan my 2 wae transport.
C: gave me the $7.40, supposely $14.80!!, two wae wad, gave me the money, humbled down.

so i took the money packed my stuff, and i left.
i came back again, demanded for the 2 wae, coz they only paid me one wae. they dismissed the idea. then i left, the RM, J went after me..

J: can i speak to u? regarding how u speak.
M: ya go on.. walking out..
J: it's not right for u to tok to my 1 asst like that, it's rude.
M: rude? if she's not rude, i wont retaliate! becoz of what she saed, i retaliated.
J: i know, u shuldnt have, actualli the arrangement was done by me, she didnt know anything..
M: dint know anything?! she's the 1st asst and she dont know anything? u are the RM, shuldnt u communicate wif ur mgrs? esp ur 1st asst, ur right hand man. she shuld know. cannot sae she dun noe.. that means u guys nvr communicate la.
J: (da kalah point) see even now u're challenging me..
M: i kept quiet, mls nk repli. anyhow also he wants to win. think. y am i challenging? think. im a STAR! a post as high as a manager, i have the right to speak up. i am trained to be outspoken and not be mediocre!

then i just walked off.. fuck la.
then aunty kam called. she's on my side tho.
i called store, belle answered. i told A-Z, she told me
"get a cab now and go home, bring the receipt. i will tok to amelia."
so, i did. then went to meet along and ate.
hmm.. i hope can claim. if not, HQ complain la jwbnye!

nvr mess wif me la.. im fire sia.. they're playing wif fire!

Friday night.

Ok i just got back from kallang.
i was just finishe watching Disney On Ice.
omg!! i LOVE disney!!!
there's Lion King, Peter Pan, Mermaid. My fav!!! ariel is so beautiful. 101 dalmation.. cruella deville is quite hot oso.. hahaha..
overall i enjoyed it.. wout any of my frens ard tho..
sobx..
ok.. anw.. then got home. walked from bnlay mrt to sreet 91. bought food and went home...
aargh!! dreaded.. tmr i werk!!!

Hippie Fridae morning..

Woke up to an annoyingly angry mum yelling on the phone to my brother..
hmm...
pissed off uh.. haha..

ok.
so. moring woke up my mum booked us tickets to go catch Disney On ICe..
the latest one.. One with Peter PaN, Mermaid, 101 Dalmatians, Lilo n Stich, Timon N Pumbaa.. Keeel pe?!
then suddenly she cant go!.
then i called ayul he bz.
cant get mamad coz he's like has work..
darn it..
nk ajak yus, mlm he got nite cycling.. damned it.. all my guys frens tk bleii harap!!! haha..

ok so called seri, she agreed. My other cousin.
so i'll be going to watch this with two 8 year olds.
how romantic is that?
haha..

hmm then i got a call from my Store.
chenie called. i didnt pick up. in la la land so i called back.

Me(R): Anyone called me? it's ryan.
C: aiyo ryan! how come so difficult to get thru to u uh?
R: im busy..
interrupted...
C: with school huh? aiyo ur school huh owaes make u bz one.. cannot werkk weekdaes huh?
R: plus im tired from training.. i cant.. busy la weekdaes.
C: ya hor.. u schooling hor..
R: ya.
C: anywaes. can u work or not? tomoro i nid u to werk la.. attachment at CCK.. Store CKN5..
R: (speechless, mlas wad.. haha)
C: u go there, got outdoor party. everthing prepared for u ledi. jus go there conduct party. can? dun woory got two-wae transport.
R: (dragging..) ok lor..
(things i do for money!)
C: then on the 22nd and the 23rd also..
R; wat tyme?
C: 22nd, 4pm at our store. 23rd 4pm and 7pm at our store.
R: ok lor.
C: i will msg u the details ok. bye bye..
hangs up! moments later....

C: hello, ryan?
R: yeah
C: i nid u to liase with janet about ur werking tyme. plan out with her coz tt day uh got 3 parties..
R: (yawns) ok ok.
hangs up.. i aint kidding u.. moments later...

Manager M from CKN5
M: hello? is this ryan?
R: ya whu is this? (i didnt recognise the number wad)
M: hi im ___???___ from CKN5.. (goes a bout blah blah blah.. telling me things i alry know.. yawn!)
R: ok.
M: u a new STAR is it? how cum i nvr heard of u?
(1. ive been doing party for 3 yrs. u dun know i exist when ppl at the east, north n south knows me? where have u been? living under a rock?!
2. the term 'new' mean wad? kalo new means u heard of me b4 ke? i mean if u've been living under a rock pon, he saed 'new' wad.. darn it im working with a bunch of noobs!)
R: really uh? ok lor.
M: Bye bye
R: bye..

how irritating can one be?
hmm.. im so darn sleepy now.. layaning idiots.
i for one eh. is allergic to idiots.
wad ever la..
im so gonna de-stress at Kallang later during the DOI show..
then saturdae.... back to work!!!! darn it!!!

My FUN Thurs Nite..

haha..
after long gone, mamad finally texted me.
hmm looks like he has to stay in for sometime as new intakes are in and he has to look after them. good luck bro. be an inspiration to them like how u insipired me ok?

ok.
got a call from shulie n berox.
my old schmates nw bestie.
we went to Wing Tai House and applied a job. As retail la.
then we went makan at cineleisure which took hours to find.
OMG! im out wif bimbos. n Yat was there ok! a bimbo.. a guy bimbo! himbo!.haha..
i tot i was the onli himbo there.. i got myself a twin clone.
wakaka..
ok.. finally got there and ate at Es Teler..
omg yummy!!!
ate mee bakso, ayam goreng, dumpling, happy soda, andddddd ES TELER!!!!
OMG tried to get eyla punye susah.. if not i treat her to Es teler oreadii...
anywae, shulie blanje us.. awww.. so sweet! thanks dear!
and myra gave her a last minute belated bdae prezzie!
her bdae was on 21 Dec!
woit! berox! so long uh!!

ok after food. berox n yat went off..
me shulie and her bf n his fren went to arcade and played out ass out in air hockey..
so fun!!!
i over stretched my obliques sia.. haha
but overall i had superb fun!

ok.. when they went home, i was wonderin at town alone.
sott n tired plus sleepy, i headed to bedok, while trying to get the silat frenzy: eyla, ayin, ain and kak pa to come earlier..
all were far away.. eyla no response..
so sat at MCd alone..
then one by one came..
wakakka..
foe the ferst tyme, kak pa saw my "bitchy ordering food side"..
haha..
the one ayul n mamad is afraid of.. wakakak..
now she doesnt dare to order wif me..
alermak!! gendeng uh kak pa.
if eyla were ard i tink she'll laugh like fcuk!
hahaha...

ok. went to trg.
oh my god!!!!!
i fcuking ENJOYED training!!!!
we learnt front kick, side kick, sapuan, back kick n twisting kick!
i LOVE SILAT MAN!!!!!
hahaha..
the we had........TEH PING!!!!!!
hahahaha...
anw made frens w the silat people..
trying this new thing if not judging ppl by their cover.. salam evryone..
started smiling n toking to them...
hmm..

we had fun while going home.
made fun of others sleeping on the train..
managed to make a matrep laugh along tho..
wakakaka..

hmm ok im tired..
soo heading to bed..

p:s i miss eyla ayul mamad n ryin uh!!!..

Thursday morning..

About yesterday nite..
my brother was hogging the lappy and i was on the phone w anne..
so practically got tired after the call..
fyi my phone calls are at least 2 hours or more. haha..

ok so tt afternoon,
msn w ayul, he went to schl. i didnt.
attendance? 4 only.
wtf. waste of tyme going schl ryte..

ok so here's the thing i was bored the whole of wednesday!
like fcuk sia..
hmm.. im still worried abt mamad.
still no msg and no col.
wonder is he ok or not?
hmm..

ok at night wad i did was practically watched tv. how boring can i get?
it's the holidaes and im at home feeling sulky.
yawn!
got a msn from shulie, tmr we gg on a date w berox too.
im like anything uh,
as long as i got somthing to do..

THursdae..
woke up at 10am.
nadia msg me. she changed her number.
and mekk is eveready asking me to go clubbing..
one thing is im a club-virgin and i dun intend to 'lose' it.
i wanted to go but mamad did told me e bad stuff u are going into.
so im giving it a pass..

berox called me,
we are meeting later..
hmm she asked me to wait for shulie and she hasnt called me yet.
wtever la..

today got training and i wonder if ayin, kak pa, eyla n ain is going..
i wanna go.
but havent buy the uniform. damned it.
asked from my dad this morning he just brushed it off..
damned him!

i jus hope my injury doesnt come back later on this evening.
i wanna train properly.. it looks fun,...
haha
althouhg tiring, it's fun like hell!
i aint kiding you..
i really wanted yus to join lorr..
i nid a guy friend in silat. coz we work in pairs n id ont have a pair.
that 'guy' say wanted to go la wad la but then end up paitaoing me.
i guess he no longer is interested huh?

ok la.. till here..
p.s: mad, is evrthing ok? you've been far too quiet for too long.. im getting super worried. please text me aite?! takecare dude!

Wednesdae morning..

ok.
woke up to a 'morning' having headache plus hangover that caused me to hit the sack again.
after watching yesterdae's Corwin's quest on animal planet,
which i didnt really paid attention as i was drowsy,
i fell into a super deep sleep.
thruout the nite n today, bad dreams was like causing frequent shocks to my system. i felt as of im runnog from something.
i cant exactly remember bout wad i dreamt of but it was scary.

so. i woke up.
standard gas pain. i was like fcuking pissed w the pain.
fortunately mum brought breakfast, (yeah ryte, i woke up at 2pm),
so i ate and drank hot water mixed w honey.
i was a little sad tho cause today noone message me or call me for that matter.
felt like left alone to die like tt..
hmm extreme speaker n his extreme depressions. hhaha..
ok.
i was expecting a text or call from any of my loves.. but nehh.. noone did.. watever la..
so, i ate, drank and settled down.
chat w ain, dagoo and jenz lehman..
then jenz had to go trg..
omg in this fine 'beauty sleep' weather?!
hahaha..

went i logged into my blog..
woah! ppl left taggies for ME!!
haha
how honoured can a guy be?
hahaha
thanks peepz!
love ya'all..

--->> oh yar.. ytd while walking down bedok sheltered pathway to the MRT, met Dan n Zara!! Omg i mizz them soooooooooo mmuch!!! cant go fishing coz Dan is like in NS. soon to be is me la! damned it..
Miss u guys.. hope to see u soon!! muackz!

Nite tuesdae.

hmm.. ok.. after i finshed doing my blog edits..
went off to mandi to siap and go trg.
msg ayin, ain, sherri n eyla.
we all gg todae.
damned it.. lots of trials n tribulations la..

ok reached there.
ain was late so we had to run 10 rounds the hall..
todae abg dzul sick so abg sheik take over.
w shakir and
soo tiring..
then when tt idiot held the padding, da la tk betol.
macam bodoh plakk tu, it caused my old injury to come back..
terseliuh alek..
ikotkn macam nk suro abg sheik urutkn sey..
cause he was massaging kaki aweng.
mai came wif like blue black all over beating from saedah..
cool pe..
but ouch! painful..
k nites. till here then.

hmm tuesdaes. again.

hmm let me see..
woke up super late. if eyla didnt col, ive slept till like 3pm.
thanks eyla.

hmm..
came to clementi, ayul saw me from the back.
took the same bus,
went to class..

yet again, saw the questions..
so simply complicated..
the last page tho.. 4 qns 10 marks each. i didnt realised tt.
i tot it was 4 qns 10 marks altogether.
haix..
hopefuly i pass la. like usual. finished the paper.
this tyme round. it only took 5 mins. to finish all ok.
a___ standard uh. dier dgn muker pasrah shit dier..
step org nk layan je.,

ok whole dae, held in my waste product in my body
coz im late, so didnt wanna go lavatory to relieve myself..
for me.. dun laugh..
it's a waste of tyme.
practically whole dae saket perot due to this and due to the gas pains ive been having.

ok so after the exam..
they set off to play street soccer.
me ekin ayin mekk haikal went to BB..
met yus, then rained fell.
haix..
so i went home la wif mek.. met fazli on the wae..

now, im bored..
i dunnoe wad to do..
hmm
hols started dunnoe wad to do.
ppl ask me to club, karoke, bicycle trips..
i hope smuer nvr paitao.
haix..
realli2 hope for it..

hmm a week now.
mamad no sound pon,
is sumtin wrong?
i hope evrything is for the bez.
hmm.. hols alry started so let;'s go out bro!!

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woooo... Percayalah bidadari...."

Sleepy mondae...

hmm ok here's the jig.
monday morning.. exam stars at 830am.
time i woke up: 7am!!
im fcukin late!
ok. so showered got ready and stuff..
and hastened out the door..

the feeder came late and time check was like 8am.
by the time i reached interchange 815am.
i was late. eyla called me.
she's at redhill. so i told her to move off la.
she wanted to waet cukop time, she left me.. nabeii.. haha.. wakenabeb me!

hmm.. went to school..
smsed Q to msg me the class.
he nvr lor, i was pissed at hym.
he went in the class wout me knowing where the class is..
coled eyla and hym both nvr answer.

was super late la.
Mr azlan saw me and i sat at my table. wasnt before i realised
"I DIDNT BRING MY STATIONARY!!!"
fcuk.

well the FOA exam was well simple. yet complicating. i was like finished the whole paper, literally within 15 mins. im not lying.
so quickly pass it to mr azlan.
went out and makan!

that's when i realised. damned "SLUAR KOYAK LAGIKK!!!!"
wtf.

ok went home. changed.
then SLEPT from 1pm till 8pm.
tired sia. plus the rain.. fuh! syiok!
haha..

got a call from ayul..
he saed "do me a favour"
ok.. i tot.. somting not leceh uh..
"photocopy ur notes for me can? i pay u bak"
hmm.. asking a pmalaz tu run errands.. hmm..
haha
things i do for my besties..
u owe me one bro!
haha..

after meeting hym n kak pa. kes terserempak.
i got a call from my mum.
Cousin Hisham was involved in an accident.
he drove a truck and it skidd off the road and flipped off.
he;s in hospital now.
im worried bout him.
hmm hope he;s ok..

hmm.. im also woorid about mamad nie.. hmm.. never msg me, no sound since last wednesdae.
i hope evrythings fine.. hmm...
things i do for a bestie.. worrying...

S Weekend:Saturdae n Sundae --> Super Sick, Stressed, Sad n Sucky!

My Weekends didnt go as planned.

Saturdae.
Woke up late. nvr go perCC.
wadever. ain woke up late, kak pa woke up late.
so plans cancelled.
chatted w yus online.
tonight we have a soccer date. 7pm at jrg stadium.
he slept, woke up at 7pm ++..
i was like ok la. no reaction as im super lethargic from past two daes of fun yet torture.
text Along. she wanted to do her resume.
Got up n out lethargically, met her at jrg east mcd.
gossip here n there, shared truth here n there. went homw round midnight.
Azrul n Aizad stayed over ma place, on my bed, with my pillows!!! coz the next dae got sentosa trip. didnt really mind coz too tired to think.

Sundae.
Woke up w a hangover.
7am. woke up showered when downstairs.
the bus to senz was alry waeting.
so got on. opened up FOA and studied.

reached senz, laid down change. cuci mata.
cause one uncle Cik Wan, his step daughther is SUPER HOT!!!
i was having a momentus crush! wtf..

ok laid down.
studied, played soccer.
fell asleep and snoozed thru.
woke up, played games n a lil bit of soccer and went back to study.
practically tt's wad i did, routinely from 8am-4pm.

*the rain didnt help! im sick now!*

got back on the bus. reached jrg west.
alighted the bus, turn 180 degrees ard, got on busu's van.
off to ECP.
for swimming.
plus dinner picnic.
went swimming till 9pm from 5pm.
showered change.
now i just got back. time check 10pm.
gonna study till 1am. sleep. then tmr,
starting out earli.
8am at clementi MRT meeting the Loves..
exam paper FOA starts at 830am sharp.

till tmr then..

2 nites..gg 3 nites of "busy-ness"

it's been so long since i've been busy..
i mean.. seriously, the last tyme was pre,during and post O levels but prior to FT..
seriously..

on thursdae.
was tired from waking up at 5am.
got dump by tt stupid Mr. M___
idiot. it was raining n we had to waet for idiot A taking a train.
as he's not taking the bike. he took so long tt evryone waeted from hym.
we came late. well i tot: "it's raining so teacher will let us off la.."
we came and he went home. time check: 935am!
CGA,CGB,CGK n CGL and some of CGC had went to Paintball shootings.. most CGC cant go due to the exams..
wtever. went home.
slept. stoned. shower and
woke up went to meet up eyla at bedok library to study.
since silat training is at 8pm and at Persisi, i was like ok la. skali arung.
hmm.. went there, studied a bit the lost interest and borrowed books.
i borrowed psychology books and she borrowed fashion books.
went for training. tough training. really made me sweat BUT....... IT IS FUN!!!!
only towards the end where i have to go home with matreps. OMG im so freakin pissed. Kak Pa can layan them. i just stucked in my earpiece, turned up to the max volume and read the psychology book. cant be bothered ledi.

Fridae.....
came to school.
aching from ytd's trg.
groin area is giving me pains.. went to mcd waeted for eyla b4 meeting ayul and ekin. then Chenie gave me seaweed crackers and MCd coupons. hmm really caring huh.. no wonder aunty Kam ask me to treat her as my mum. same post but my senior. she's been 15yrs in the system. me onli 3 yrs haha..
ok went to schl, studied cust relations.. mr M___'s last dae. relieved!
mr A___'s back! his class is boring but mr M__'s Super Boring..
soo.. u get the picture.
ok went makan in the canteen then planned w ayul, eyla, yus and bobot to go town which i tot they would paitao..
nvm just went w the flow..

went home. super tired. so hit the sack and woke up 7pm. late!.. im suppose to meet yus.
text him " im gg out by 730pm. mit u at admiralty"
he saed "ok admiralty 8pm"
i went shower, changed and off to meet him.
ayul msg me. eyla coled me.
and we ended having dinner at Mcd at Centrepoint.

---sidetrack----
hmm learnt a lot from the psychology book.
how fear is caused by sound. eg loud bang is heard when u are handling a snake, as a child, then the fear of snake is gonna take place.
and if u like to bite, suck, put anything in ur mouth eg cigarettes, lollipop, pencil to name a few, u "miss" ur mum's nipple. first psychosexual needs of human survival is thru oral satisfaction. if u are depraved from it. u can become cynical, rude, negative attitude. people whu dun get enough, or 'miss' the nipple, put things in their mouth. anything. thumb is commonly sucked.
hmm lots more.. but hey some ppl are nt intersted daa..
----end of sidetrack----

ok we had dinner.
me as usual the bitchy customer.. wakaka..
ayul was afraid to order w me around.
wtf..
haha..
then walked down to Borders while camwhoring along the wae..
anw2.. bobot paitao!!
then me met Mekk..
hmm walked in Border's i saw the book i wanted!! "A NEW EARTH by ECKHART TOLLE"
i want!!!! it cost 19.30..
me no money la... damned..
hmm..
ok.. went home took the green line.. ayul n yus tman me all the wae..
thanks dudes.. appreciate it.. luve u guys!
hmm then headed home..
mamad cant meet up coz one of his stupid trainee failed the ippt test and caused him to stay in to 'look' after n train them.. fcuk la!

SATURDAE PLAN:
1. Silat Trial for season fighters: 9am at persisi..
-planned w kak pa n ain. hope both can go..

---clash dates!!!!!----

2. meet yus for debbie's hockey at jrg stadium +
3. ayul's soccer at gombak(i think) +
4. study date w eyla at bedok!!

ok.. how? i have to figure it out..

Thank goodness i took OFF today sia!!

*hopefully get to meet mamad in e evening or sumtink.. maybe.. or this will be e 2nd weekend i wont meet him.. haixx..

SUNDAE PLAN:
1. morning Sentosa trip. to pahlawan.
-Q last min cancel.
-Ayin last min cancel.
-Eyla n ayul. dun think can make it. i know their plans for tt dae.

*mamad cant cause whole dae he got family reunioun BBQ.
think this dae, wont meet any of my loves.. haix!!
maybe i go out w yus.. hmm..

hmm fine night..

ok here's what happen..
lately our march has been either cold or super cold.
effing climate..
thus from this coldness, i alwaes develope this gas pain in my abdomen area
and it hurts so much and it felt as if someone hexed voodoo on you. im not lying,
in malay i guess they'll sae the pain menyusuk kalbu, but not the kalbu la.. somewhat the area beginning from below the sternum all the wae down to the last rib..

so my whole morning n afternoon was spent curling up, trying to 'not' feel the pain.. trying to ease the horrendous feeling. raff's fren andi came to my hse snoozed here and there but hey, im nursing this fcuking ache and he is acting as if im not there.. nvr salam also or beri salam or look at me or even acknowledge im there. ok here's the thing, when im in pain, IM A PAIN. so deal with it.

tried to practice mind over matter by studying FOA. studied chaps 1 n 2.. results: Nuttin was absorbed.
clearly im having problems physically and mentally.
so what i did was curl up, tried to ease the pain and wait.
wait till it goes awae.
sometimes it does sometimes it doesnt.

damn it. i hate when im in pain. can someone help me? anyone knows any remedies? plss.. im desperately in pain. doctor's prescription doesnt work on me la..
haix..

hmm ok..
so i was usually, doing nuttin, watchin tv when my phone rang.
'my phone is having "sorethroat" sometimes gt sound sometimes doesnt'
ok. it rang. who called?
ah yang. after a week. of me not seeing him, cant imagine the "MISS" factor tt build up in me!
i do darn miss him!
ok he saed it loud, short and simple. as if we were like radio-ing each other,
"Im coming over to your crib ok. standby."
imagining: "roger n out!" haha..

so i waited la.
eager pon ader. playing cool pon ader.
one thing about me is, i celebrate having friends coming over.
if i had a talk show, my besties will be like the 'highlighted' star of the day.
but for my case evrydae.
hah.. like Oprah's frens who are now professional advisors.
of which they have their own radio show and im listening to them daily.

he came.
faintly went to the lavatory, washed his feet.
laid down beside my brother.
i was wondering. "did he have the same sypmtoms as me?"
cause it was there. weakness, drowsiness and temporary paralysis.
im telling you the pain is tt unbearable. Vicks helped but for a short period onli.

yup! he had what i had.
the same irritating gas pain.
somethings i can nurse. like zhi ti having her stiff neck straightened up.
or chee keong's flu or his back aches or knee aches..
but if this, it's beyond me.
i dont know wat to do. if i would, i wouldnt be in PAIN!!

so i made green tea.
sat beside him and gave Vicks. he laid down and rested.
it wasnt long b4 my own tummy created it's own "eruption"
i felt soo voodoo-ried!!!
argh! the pain!!
damn it.. applied Vicks and settles beside my queen sized bed,
squeezed by ah yang, me, my brother and my sister.
i felt so "chinese junk"-ish!
then they moved and the space was mine n ah yang's..

ok so the night came in and zhi ti called.
i answered. she placed me on hold so i held on.
then we to the lavatory, and ah yang pretended he was me.
at ferst tt zhi ti tot it was me then she realised the deep husky voice. hahaa..
it wasnt me. tu pon dier boleh layan kan!!
dumbo..
haha..

we then settled in for the night.
took panadol hoping by any chance the fcuking pain would go away..
he slept.
i on the other hand was online. till 3am.
attending Oprah's A new Earth book classroom. the book i wanted to buy so much!
it was an hour and a half long.
interesting class..
then went on to listen to Dr Robin Smith's and Dr Mehmet Oz's radio..
then smelt something burning.. at 3am! omg.
decided to sleep lor..
dun wan any 'sight-seeing' haha..

hmm previous night got a dream..
ML and AY was fighting with me. again. same old issue. FCUK!
my premonitions alwaes, ok la, most of the time, comes true.
my dad's infedelity, my parent's divorce, the fight i had. in fact fights. i 'see' demons in dreams. in human form. my human form. it looks like me. im like a 3rd party looking over 'me' attacking 'other me' and the fcuking whole senario is so frightening, when i woke up it's as if my heart pumped right out from my chest!!
im nt lying. i can see things. i can 'see' future or past depending on the time. i can sense things. somtimes i can know things prior to the event. know wad ppl are thinkin.. but it's not on demand. nope! not on demand. it just happens. dun ask me how or why. i dont know.

hmm today woke up at 5am.
woke up ah yang, he's working at 6 plus.
soo dependant on me.. haha.. kinda make me feel 'useful'
haha..
waeted for him to shower, change, eat. hmm..
see..
like i told zhi ti..
i can win the
Best "BESTFRIEND AWARD"..
haha..

hmm today's plan.
go to school, do fcuking role play script.
go home.
vivit COURTS pay laptop bill.
nap.
study. chap 3-6 hopefully all done by tdae.
go out ard 5pm.
meet sherri at bnly.
go trg start at 8pm.
go home.
study again.
ah yang may come, may not.
sleep. and fridae's is like role playing test thingy.

head's up planning..
sat- OFF..
anyone wanna ask me out?
sun- senz trip w QQ n ai ying..
zhi ti n Ck havent confirm yet..
i'll be waetin...